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its been days, iv been dreaming for days

something which i can not seem to awaken myself from

dreams in which i am what i can never be

dreams in which i see all that i would never see

dreams where happiness is what i cant reach

its been years, ive been awake for years

those years are not what i thought they would be

years of being with people who seem to care

years of being around those not treated fair

years where what i believe in is trully not there

its been decades, ive suffered for decades

to think that i thought kindly once before

decades of seeing the world slowly turn inside out

decades of seeing truth and honor skewered

decades that i wish i did not go through

yet i am grateful that i get to dream

i am grateful i get to live

What to say? What to say? I have an idea! How crazy. I just went to Florida and it was absolutely amazing. I'm so freaking tan now. Its kick ass. Because up her in New York (near Canada land of the moose, right above us...) we've got snow like crazy. I mean down in the middle of the united states, theyre all omg weve got an inch of snow lets close school for a month! not even kidding. How did I get so off topic? no clue. check me out www.myspace.com/kaitygirl214� peace!�

load up the weapons army fatigues made for the desert, mission accepted.. freelance with no direction shoot till im deaf without sound then whats progressing
stoup to the depths when all the hits are infective, but never a faker got shit that will earthquake ya fake noisemaker after 3 bullets you spit a tracer i stay with a scope...couple bombs made out of soap knife to the throat pull the gauge the range is close you thought when you spoke, not thinking properly shows you already lost if 1 man can kill your squad think of hi squad and all the damage they'll cause insanity cause you facing us all i feel alive when death is in my eyes 10000 bullets fly by without the time and i know that im getting mine but ima ride with fire in my eyes.

There we go, I've suspended it until December 31st 2010. I'm aparantly gonna be away for that long but not really. I'm awesome.

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