This weekend I had my friend over and thinking that I wouldn't feel like shit and still I do. This really sucks and I don't know how to get me out of this mess. My heart breaks more and more. I cut my wriste to help with some of the pain that is my heart because I admitte it I fucked up. Everything is my fault I try being nice and calem and it just back fires in my face. I want Joshua Noel Martinez from Yonkers, New York. I just want him I don't care how I get him. I can change for him anything I have to do.

I will even kill myself if he doesn't come back since I am about 7 months with his kid and he know.

Dear Journal,

My name is Brooklyn, and im just an ordinary girl, shopping, movies, guys, esc. There are many good things go on in my life, like that i have great friends, and a great family, and i used to have a great boyfriend, thats one thing bad about my life, i had a great boyfriend and i dumped him because he didnt even like me, March 15, 2008.

I thought he was the one, but aparently not. hes just a guy, a ordinary guy, a guy who doesnt like me the way i am.

why is it that whenever something good happens in your life something has to�go bad?WELL IT HAPPENED TO ME AGAIN!!! when soemthing in ur life goes horribly long u want to tell someone well here it goes. this boy jake ive been tellin u bout, Jake, well we were becoming really really good friends but then missy came in tellin him i like him and ruined it all im never forgiving her im never forgiving him and i need all the help i can get to get over it....

This Diary Entry will be finished now... worked on later i will make this public� comment if youd like

BUT IF U TELL ANYONE OF THIS THAT I KNO OF BC U GO TO MY SCHOOL YOULL BE HACKED!!!

今天又是一个值得纪念的日子。3月25日，诺诺会走路了。

记得阳阳也是苦练了很久也不会走，那时候，每天早上，爸爸妈妈就带着阳阳到楼下去学走路。正好邻居家的大爷在遛狗，于是就出现了我爸爸妈妈遛孩子的场景，一根学步带，前面是个小孩，再前面就是那只小狗。。。。可是苦练也没有用，直到有一天，我出门烫头发，回来一开门，阳阳看到了不一样的妈妈，拍着手掉头就走，于是就自己会了。

那诺诺是受啥刺激呢？估计是北北的功劳。北北是朋友的女儿，比诺诺大8个月，可是个头娇小，极有女孩子的韵味。来到咱们家，看到了大块头诺诺，一时懵了，总是要叫‘姐姐’，怎么纠正都拧不过来。而诺诺也对小姐姐表示出了极大的好感，屡次想用满是口水的小嘴去亲北北，都被北北拒绝了。估计她一定在想‘太伤自尊了！’于是，接下来的几天，发奋图强，学会了走路。每天N个往返跑，就不信减不了肥！

呵呵，一个刚学会走路的孩子，真是可爱，像个喝醉了的鸭子，要是她一直不长大，一直这样陪在我们身边，多好！

Here are some quotes i have found/ read... Some of Them are pretty coolioz.

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Best Friends
Friends ask why you're crying, but best friends already have
the shovel to bury the meani who made you cry.

Females
Every girl needs her own special to feel beautiful. Whether this day is everyday, once a month, or one day, she doesn't need a
man to tell her she's special.

True Friends
A true friend sees the first tear, catches the second one, and
stops the third tear.

Who Matters?
There comes a point in your life when you realize who really
matters, who never did, and who never will.

Love Hurts
Love is giving someone the ability to hurt and crush you, and
trusting them not to.

I Promise
I promise I'll never forget the day we kissed, or the day we met.
The sky may fall and the stars my too, but in the end, I will still
love you.

First Sight
When I first saw you, I was afraid to meet you.
When I first met you, I was afraid to kiss you.
When I first kissed you, I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you.

I Do
If you're asking if I need you, the answer is forever.
If you're asking if I'll leave you, the answer is never.
If you're asking what I value, the answer is you.
If you're asking if I love you, the answer is I do

Every Teenager Has Worries.

What Am I oing To Wear tommorrow.

Why Doesn`tt Anyone Understand Me.

My Math`ss Homework is due in

Justt Lil Thing`ss.

In My Exprience sooo far i had all thesse plus more. theyy all essulated up into one big problem. It Kinda All Started With These Group Of MAte`ss I Hung Owtt With. The Crowd That Smoked Diid Drug`s Etc.�Eventually I Gave Into Peer Presure. And Was Doing All That. My Life Wasn`tt Too Bad Until�This Boy� Came Into itt. Ohh How I Loved Him. I Was Young Butt VEerytime I saw Him I Thought Of Perfection, And Everytime He Smiled My Way Justt Melted My Heart. Calling Him Mine Made Me The Happiest Person ever! I Wasn`t Perfect Butt He Except all My Flaw`ss Accepted Me FAwr Who I Am He Wads NIce Sincer Butt Of All Thing`ss He Was Mine. I Actuall Thought We Could Lastt Forvever Butt On That Saturday Morning Hey Said Thing`ss Werent Workking Owtt. We Should Just BE Mates. I Don`tt Thinkk Anyone Understood How Hard TThat Was For Me. Mascara Runing Down My Face All Day. Every Lil Thing Reminded Me Of Him. I Really Wanted Too Gett Over Himm I Was Silly And Diid Itt In The Stupidest Way Ever. Giving Head Too A Guy I Had Known For About 3 or 4 Week`s. Goshh That Justt Give Me A Reputatiion As A Slutt!!! On That Sunday Night I Gott A Txt- From My Ex Saying

Him'Hey. How`ve You Been?'

Me'Not Soo Good Butt Trynah Gett Better'

Him' Neither. I Can`t Believe I Lett The Bestt Girl In My Life go'

Me' I`m Nott Gonna Lie. Yes Losing You Was The Hardest Thing For Me. And I Still Don'tt understand Why?'

Him' I Never Should Of. I Miss You Like Crazy. I`ld Do Anything too Gett You Back. Hurting You Hurt Me More Then Anything. I Love Youu. Can You Give Us Another Shot. . . PLEASE'

That Was It. I Was Sooo Confused. I Still Loved Him But Wasn`tt Sure If It Was The Right Thing. What If I Got Hurt Again. I Couldnt Bare going Thru That Again. Butt Without Him There Was Really Nothing Good In Life. I Told Him I Would If He Promised Neever To Hurt ME Again. He Said He Couldn`t Do That. At The Time I Believed Him. Butt Lil Did I Know How Bad Hee Could Play With My Heart. ANd How Bad He Could Hurtt ME Again. . .

--- Sam Nejad

This is my first ride with this group.