Lots of bad and sads things have happened over the past month but I think things are looking up for me. I found out yesterday that I got the job at the vet clinic. It is a full time job and after my 90 day probation period I will be eligible for benefits. This is very important to my husband and I since we both have to see the doctor now on a monthly basis. My husband and I have been getting along very well lately and I am so happy for that. With my PMDD I know that when it is my time of month it my or may not be a bit of a challenge. Since I have been on the pill this month I have felt more leveled out and not like I'm on a roller coaster. i hope it stays this way so that I dont have to start taking the Celexa. It is suppose to help me out but I have finally stopped having anxiety attacks because Im taking the pill I dont want to add something else that may bring them on.� Sure some people dont understand how I could have anxiety attacks b/c of the pill but it is true. Not that I am saying its the pill that causes the attack but the fact of me having to take it and the fear of the side effects causes me to have the attacks. Well wish me luck for the rest of the day.

�So I have been back "home" now for 11 days and it seems I have already dissapointed my parents just as many times.� Sunny So Cal feels colder than ever to me.�� Which maybe is why I was compelled to seek out a little warmth from the past.� The past to which I still cling SO hard.� So I people searched and googled him to no avail.� But finally, I went on to my space- the virtual down town coffee shop of this decade- and with a few clicks and scrolls THERE HE WAS!�

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Follow Us on Our Journey

Below you will find our travel itinerary. Barring any unforeseen circumstances, we will be setting off from Beijing on June 13th 2008, and ending in Hong Kong on July 24th 2008. Realistically speaking, however, our dates and destinations will most likely fluctuate. The trip will take us from Northern China to Southern China following the Eastern seaboard. Or, if you are partial to the rooster analogy of China, we’ll be traveling from the Neck to the Gut following the outline of the Belly.

Trip Breakdown

Biking Days: 31

Volunteering Days: 4

Rest Days: 5

Total Distance: 3455KM

As We grow up,we learn that even the one person that wasn't suppose to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken Probably more then once and its harder everytime. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with your bestfriend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing to fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures. Laugh to much. And love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Its beenso long! Like seriously! Wow. Oh well I am back again. Alot has changed these past few months. Sam and I broke up for good. He has a new gf now. I must admit I am a little jealous. But hey what ever happens happens for a reason. And I will tell you now I know the reason: I am engaged! Yes engaged! I am so happy and the guy I am to marry is amazing! His name is Cody Hughes. So I am now Heidi Hughes. Call me Heidi Ziegler and I will be very mad. Lol. So ya he lives in Texas and I cant wait to see him. We met online and we plan to meet for the first time in August. I cant wait! Well�I am off more later.

sup my peepz!

well kinda tired right now. but i made an imvu. kinda cool but tiring too. anyways. i am tired and i'm gonna sign off. esta la vista people

i am so so so bored....i need to do something

yah i want to be off already but i'm gonna be here till probably

i'd say 6:30-ish hopefully earlier and NOT later

but i think most likely later...sux

idk going home this weekend finally haven't been there in like a while

i don't really go home that often since i'm alwayz with my boyfriend

i know thats bad but i can't help it....i like spending time with him...

he really is AWESOME...but idk

i guess i'm just gonna end this since i don't really� have much to write

and i don't know what to write really...alrighty then PEACE

I HATE ALLERGIES!!!

I don' t even actually have them! I just have allergies like symptoms! I know it sounds odd but thats the diagnossis.. .. diagnostic.. .diagonally.. ..

So my drawing abilities have gone through the roof. Or... thats what my mom says. I believe my drawings have made a great improvement since I started to take drawing seriously. I'll scan some more of my work in on the computer and put it on victoriousmaiden.deviantart.com .My book isn't getting anywhere though because my writer (my sister) isn't writing it because she wants to hang out with her boyfriend. How self-centered is that?

So I watched the movie ACROSS THE UNIVERSE and I freakiing LOVE IT! The music is arranged differently but not too different so that we don't know what the song is.

If anybody who is reading this a Beatles fan, WATCH THE MOVIE!

Thats all for now I guess.... Bye

�}Y{- Nichelle

Today was actually not that bad. I was able to read, write, and enjoy my time with people who came over. It didn't start until right before dinner. I walked to the basketball courts to get my two pain in the butt brothers for dinner. That way they didn't get in trouble for be out. My mom has this rule about missing dinner (sometimes and she was already in a bad mood!) Anyways my brother Michael was being his usual annoying self. My sister likes to call him an insufferable git.. (which I think is funny because she don't know what it means) Again anyways so, during dinner I tried telling my dad that our neighbors friend that was over said sorry about the paint balls. So my lovely brother decided to start yelling at me and calling me stupid names because I had no idea what I was talking about. I retalliated with some not so nice words myself (nothing vulgar mind you) but none the less we got in trouble and my dad blew is top much as the same as last night. I got yelled at for them being too loud with their friends and I needed to get them to shut up because he didn't want to get out of bed. anyways with hte way my dad has been these couple of days is just WAY too stressful!!!!

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