Today was ok but cloaked with an aching in all my joints which was kind of distracting. Pissed about all morning but made up for it in the afternoon as the helpline was pretty busy.

Had mince'n'tatties from the counting house (6/10) and saw Let the right ones in at the flicks (7/10). The imagery was amazing at some parts, the bleakness of the snowy swedish countryside.

Came home and watched the apprentice and now in bed. Pretty tired so gonna go soon.

Plan for tomorrow (Thu):

• 9-11 - Maryhill Health Centre
• 11-12.15 - travel to base and do admin
• 12.15-12.45 - lunch
• 1-4.30 - locality meeting
• 4.30-5 - travel home
• evening - fitness class at some point but haven't decided which one yet!
• night - catch up on tv, including Shameless!

Theres been alot on my mind as of late, and yet its still hard to type down. get it type? lol that was stupid but I couldnt help my self.. I've become so tired from stressing over school, and guys.�They dont seen to get the msg when I tell the to f-off. Why? cause their tools who think Im easy when really, Im not. They dont realize that I have self respect and am not about to get rid of it either. Guys piss me off so much. Sry if thats offensive to any of you guys. Im starting to belive that they do in fact�think more with their *junk* then their head.�once again sry�lol. And yes I am aware of the fact that not all guys are like this, but a good amount are, and frankly its getting old.�On the upside I think i did a fairley well on my�exams. though I know I most likely wont pass my�Art 2 class do to the fact that my art teacher hates me for some reason which I still have yet to figure out. And know I�have not said anything offensiive or rude to him, just so thats clear. My 16th came and left with well nothing new. I still dont have�a car�cause ,y parents thought "hey lets have her�take driver ed during the�winter!" Really? THERE IS�NO DRIVERS ED DURING THE WINTER!!! sheesh. I of course had explained this to�them and yet they�failed to accept�that for once i was right and�they were wrong. i know that sounds concede and all, but sadly�true.�Well its time to go for know, ttyl

so im still at school and im soooooo bored.!!!!!!! but im happy also. i get to go hang out with my bf. just me and him. FINALLY! we haven't been alone in so long. but oh well. hanging out with bf and friends at the same time is cool and fun. except when they start to embarasse you. :) but i love them. bniacw... haha. bye

Ugg Amanda is soo erritating !!!

all she talks about is herself and i am soo tired of it ! she dosen't care about me at all she says i am her best friend and i jut roll my eyes bc to be a best friend you have to be there for the other person , I am always there for her and she says i m overreactin and acting like a bitch wen i say anything to her or she justs finds a way to talk about herself again ! i swear she has a real gift . I could be talking about how i feel realy deprssed and she finds a way to talk about howone time 3 years ago she found a lost dog and she got yelled at for bringing it into the house !. I feel bad bc she thinks i am her best friend and i could care less about her silly little problems . I probably sound realy mean right now but it is soooo true "OMG my sister stole my sweater and i got grounded bc i yelled at her " is ussually what she complains about . I am realy glad i have friends who actually care about me . I can't even talk about my getting accepted to duke summer camp bc she starts crying saying that i shouldn't go and support her bc she isn't as smart and they should take away programs like that bc it hurts her feelings . !!!!!�� Ok i am done venting for now ....

xoxoxo

so far I've run three miles and walked up hill for 30 minutes. machine said I burned 500 calories. I was going to go to boxing, the easy girl workout, but it was closed today. I guess I'll try to due 40 min eliptical in the basement while I watch biggest loser. My calorie count is at 990 and I'm made a great healthy cinco de mayo dinner with edamamin guac and chicken quesodias, I've even got a low cal pomaganit margarita, hope it all turns out good and I don't eat too much.

You know, it seems like if someone cared about you as much as my ex SAYS he does, they would tell you if you did something wrong. But they're all cowards and can't face whatever the fucking problem is...

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dont yuu ever wish that yuu can change this world around, or yuu can start yuur life again.

i just want to move out of my house to start over, event though i would leave people i love, it would be harder if i was with them. i dont know what to do. should i or shouldnt?

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today's a brand new day.

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first off all i am very very confused. It's this really cute boy in my class that i really adore. He's funny n cute n keeps me smilin from one end of my face to the other.

Today our skool went on a trip , but like ten of us didnt go. we had to go to another class that just so borin. i kept lukin at him cuz he's just really cute n talked al little that made me feel really gud

but other's days before May,20.2009 he really dont talk to me. He talk to my bestfriend but never talk to me. I mean he'll say sumthin 2 me every once in a while but not lik he talk to my best friend. Sumtimes i wonder well maybe he lik her. I already kno he lik me but i wonder if i should say use to lik me . i wonder if i should tell him that i lik him but this is startin to get me cunfused but also i think he just dont want anyone to kno he lik me

Mz.Qura

Very Confused about M_C_A_l

tell me wat u should do contact me pleeeeeeeeezzzzzzzze