happy holidays to all n hope u have a gr8 tym. so many things going on with mwa bt overall im happy! so much going right hardly anything going wrng ==> :D XXXXxxxXXXX
"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great." - Mark Twain
Lately I've been feeling soo alone.. I do have an amazing boyfriend, but we're always fighting..and I hate it. I'm 15 going on 16, and I know that's really young to be saying this, but I do love him. We've been together for almost 10 months, and he's made me a better person. He�was my first kiss and he just means everything to me.�He is definitely my best friend,�and I feel like he's the only one who cares. I don't really have anyone else to go to anymore though. I have him, but I don't know how much longer that will be for. I'm scared he's going to leave me.. I'm terrified of that..and I can't talk about this with anyone else because there's no one I trust besides him. I feel like I lost all of my closest friends this year. I feel so depressed and I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't help but cry myself to sleep every night. And I would love to tell my boyfriend about all of this, but I don't want him to feel like he's the reason I'm so upset. Honestly, he's kept me alive all this time. Through all the times we've fought, he's been the one to just hug me when I'm crying, and he's always been here for me. He respects me.�He tells me I'm probably one of the weirdest girls he has ever met, but that's why he loves me. And he says he loves everything about me. So why am I still so upset..? Can someone please just help me?
Hmmm, where should I begin? It has been officially�fourty-two days�since the break up that nearly killed me a week ago. My wounds are almost healed but not completely, but the tears still continue to crash around me. People swear up and down that my fragile, broken, heart will heal soon, but I don't believe them. The wounds will leave scars�that will always remain�deep within�me, and the memories will surely be the death of me. Things haven't been the same for days, and so I continue to find myself in my thoughts, thinking about taking my very own life. Everday is a battle for me to not give in to the sin of death. But, when I truely think about taking my own life, the peace I find in my heart, makes suicide all the more tempting.