masochistlover's Journal

You know, it seems like if someone cared about you as much as my ex SAYS he does, they would tell you if you did something wrong. But they're all cowards and can't face whatever the fucking problem is...

I have so many options. I could go completely gay, or be a nun, or become a hermit. I'm sick of having to deal with people. None of them know shit!

Drama!!!! Why can't people just leave me alone? I keep to myself because I hate drama, yet it always finds its way to me, usually in the form of stupid whores who are mad because I can get a guys attention WITHOUT�putting out. I've never done a thing to them, but they do everyting they can to make me miserable.

The object of my dissention and�last entry is no more than 5 yards away from me. She has the faintest clue that I am angry with her, but she should know for sure. Silence usually signals that something's wrong... Maybe I should just let this go. It's in the past and the guy I'm talking to now is starting to wonder if I really like him. Which I do: have since I met him, just always let other things get in my way. Anyway it's time to sign off and deal with HER.

Well, I've always told myself I wouldn't give up my friends over a guy, but there is a line, you know. Being a masochist does not mean that I enjoy emotional pain as well as physical. I should not have to watch my best friend hang all over the one guy i truly care about, even if I do refuse to take him back.