hello beloved
I don't know what to do i love my husband with all of my heart but i keep thinking about my 2 ex and i just don't want to lose my husband what should i do?
Well, me and my older sister found out that she is leaving to go back to Cali. probably by the beginning or the end of next month.� Yea it's gonna suck cos she only been out here in Jacksonville,Fl for like. Prolly 8-9 months. She may b annoying and stuff. But at the same time, She's my sister. Nd its been 20 years since i seen her. & it kinda hurts to see her leave again!! I may never know when's the next time i am gonna see her. I kinda wish she would stay, but at the same time. I understand why she is leaving. My mom bought her a ticket to come down here, but she never showed my sister or me any love. I wish i could leave too! lol. but shitt. Life is Life. She may wanna go back home because she misses her dad. But she's my sister, nd i'm gonna miss her too. I'm scared because i have a feeling that it might be a while before i see her again. Nd i still haven't seen my two brothers. Nd it's been 24 years since i haven't seen them..
well, shitt. Life may suck, only because you make it.
Why is the bond between sister's so strong?
��� It's so crazy how life brings you around people you didn't know and makes them a big part of you. That person tests you� mentally and emotionally. Makes you work harder as a person to show them that anything is possible. Shows you that whether you know it or not someone is counting on you to make a good example. It makes you feel good to know that they kind of respect you and look up to you. I get that with my sister, Kiana May Williams Almarie, CharryNana.
��� I love her and sometimes I wish I would have set a better example for her as her older sister. I feel like what I have�done wrong in my life she sees it and doesn't respect me for it. I have made plenty of mistakes that I wish never happened but then I think about it and realize that whether she knows it or not I am a good role model for her. I showed her that just because we makes mistakes you can still do good. That it is okay to not be perfect. Perfect is something people could never be.
��� I would hope�that she�understand that I wish I could have been there for her all her life, but life has it's way of doing things. I hope she realizes that maybe it was a good thing we met when she was older because now I can talk to her and we can have some kind of understanding.
��� I thank GOD [Allah] that he brought me and her together because then I can tell her some of the mistakes I made and hope she doesn't do what I did. We can learn from eachother and grow from eachother especailly now that we ar emaking life changing decisions. She has been more than just a sister to me but also one of my best friends and I never ever will forget her.
��� Sometimes we fight and get mad at eachother and act like we hate eachother but I feel thats what sisters are there for. For them to get on eachother nerves and to not agree all the time. No matter what at the end things will always be good because thats how strong a bond is when it comes to blood.
��� I am however sad that I am leaving her soon. I mean we have had some really good times and some really bad times but if it wasnt for that me and her wouldnt be as close as we are now. So what makes a sister's bond so strong is the love that they have in thier hearts for eachother.
The air is awful right now.� There's a fire and last night it was only 5% contained.� Parts of Altadena have even had to evacuate.� I feel so nauseous from all this smoke.� The smoke is really awful.� I am also getting headaches.� As of last night there were 4 people injured, but the fire started on Wednesday.
So I'm at home getting ready to do some research sippin on coughee. I decided to start an online journal for one my hand cramps up like hell. two. why not? Anyway I soon hope to be going to school for fashion. Its gonna take me a little longer than expected to get there but I will. My boyfriend brought to my attention that why I'm getting ready to go to school I should also utilize the time to learn as much as possible and also identify what I want to represent.
To me for some reason it does seem a little hard. I thought then that maybe I also need to identify myself a little bit. So thats another reason why I decided to do an online journal. Since hand cramping kinda prevents in then I can do it this way. Hell I spend all day typing at work anyway. So yep thats what Im here to do. Get better each day starting with me.
Well this sure is a start.
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