Ok so i've done some soul searching and what I have found is that it is just not me that i need to be happy with but everything in my life....yes i miss the people that have passed....yes i admit that i miss my ex....not much but the fun we used to have....but my new guy is better at making me laugh....that is good.....everything i've been through the last 2 years has rocked my world....i've changed people tell me not for the best but in fact for the worse....BUT i feel for the better...yes i'm a nice person BUT i still have the cappability to be a BITCH....yes it is true......But as easy as it is to fall into the BITCH act it's alot harder to like myself in that role...i'm a very pasiant person, loving person, caring person.....but I can still be a BITCH whenever the mood strikes....I just don't like to be :)
Has anyone ever just thought of how fucking sad it is that everyone has hopes and dreams of traveling and just�being happy...
And all they need is money. the money.
people blow money every-fuckin-day and don't give a rats ass.
how is that even remotly fair? all those people who just wanna be happy...
it's ridiculous and sad.
On a lighter note:
Life blows.
Thanks for listening dumbfucks.
Chris and I just had a big fight over money. His buzz words that I interpret as blame..."your mother's flooding our basement" "your mother cost us over $10K" "I told you to put a brake on her expenses, that we would not get repaid"
All is true, but looking backwward, I need to focus on the future. I need hope. And a forward looking plan.