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waiting

i never had patience

and i dont like waiting

being in a line

or waiting for assistance

for whatever the reason may be

i always wait for something

but no one waits on me

i wait to die

i wait to cry

i wait to fall asleep

im waiting on my dad

to pull his head out of his ass

but he refused to wait on me

Noon: I can start updating again.� Someday I'll write about why I�had to stop for so long.

- Dirty Girl &�I will be moving into a new house this week.� Two move events, Friday-Sun, and then Monday the movers come to get the big/heavy stuff

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8AM - Must finish SuperSearch systems Edison & Tesla by Friday 8/28.

9AM - WAS�Upgrade meating with Peter &�the rest of the upgrade team.� They need both NWIE�VM�images set up by Friday also.

Since 10am this morning I've been working on ITP project, ME2:

- ITP ME2 servers are moved to Columbus

- Cuervo and I�are re-ip'ing them and trying to get them to start up normally in the new network space.� Stuffer was being a total pain in the arse for a while but I�think I�have him on-board with the action items.

- must edit /etc/ldap.conf &�/etc/openldap.conf to add line:

nns_initgroups_ignoreusers root,ldap,named,avahi,haldaemon,dbus,satellite

- edit /etc/modules.conf &�remove reference to pcnet32

- edit /etc/fstab and remove 3 lines added by vmware

- After demter &�hestia are done, the rest of the boxes should come up without issue

- Forgot to change /etc/resolv.conf.� Hestia can't resolve anyone so she's not letting us in.� but that shouldn't happen with the nss line.� hmm.

- chkconfig off rhnsd &�osad?

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4:40PM - every one of these servers are fucked.� none of them can get on the network to talk with their LDAP host, so none of them will let anyone log in.� What a fucking nightmare.� I�have to break into every one of these machines and fix the configurations.

All of them get host name changes

IP�addresses changed

Resolvers/Search

LDAP hosts

VMWare Tools

Loghosts

NTP�host

Mail Relays

Backup Clients

This has to happen or it won't come online.� If it won't come online, you can't log in.� :)

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9:10PM

- Mr.�T said that the firewall rules were just finished and the network is shut off on these servers until the IPs are changed etc.� No wonder we couldn't even ping gateway.� It would have been nice to be informed of that bit of trivia.

- fuckers -

- We're going to call it a day and sleep a bit if we can.

- AM�- must talk to Cole and get my access level bumped up so I�can initiate tool installs without hand holding.

�- Have to get nets turned on and test accesses.

�- Get Cuervo the info that he needs to carry this on without me, or with Stuffer.�

- Dirty Girl &�I are going to meet Nikita to give her the $$ and get the $K.

�- I'll meet Grandpa Simpson and trade my Mercedes for his Suburban for the weekend.� Dirty Girl takes Scooby to work, I�bring Suburban back here and finish Oracle server build for WAS Project, and get UID's created on Edison &�Tesla for Country Boy, Becky, and Kipper.

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Calling it a night, logging out of work.� Going to start tearing down the other computers and prepping them for the move.

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Why is the bond between sister's so strong?

��� It's so crazy how life brings you around people you didn't know and makes them a big part of you. That person tests you� mentally and emotionally. Makes you work harder as a person to show them that anything is possible. Shows you that whether you know it or not someone is counting on you to make a good example. It makes you feel good to know that they kind of respect you and look up to you. I get that with my sister, Kiana May Williams Almarie, CharryNana.

��� I love her and sometimes I wish I would have set a better example for her as her older sister. I feel like what I have�done wrong in my life she sees it and doesn't respect me for it. I have made plenty of mistakes that I wish never happened but then I think about it and realize that whether she knows it or not I am a good role model for her. I showed her that just because we makes mistakes you can still do good. That it is okay to not be perfect. Perfect is something people could never be.

��� I would hope�that she�understand that I wish I could have been there for her all her life, but life has it's way of doing things. I hope she realizes that maybe it was a good thing we met when she was older because now I can talk to her and we can have some kind of understanding.

��� I thank GOD [Allah] that he brought me and her together because then I can tell her some of the mistakes I made and hope she doesn't do what I did. We can learn from eachother and grow from eachother especailly now that we ar emaking life changing decisions. She has been more than just a sister to me but also one of my best friends and I never ever will forget her.

��� Sometimes we fight and get mad at eachother and act like we hate eachother but I feel thats what sisters are there for. For them to get on eachother nerves and to not agree all the time. No matter what at the end things will always be good because thats how strong a bond is when it comes to blood.

��� I am however sad that I am leaving her soon. I mean we have had some really good times and some really bad times but if it wasnt for that me and her wouldnt be as close as we are now. So what makes a sister's bond so strong is the love that they have in thier hearts for eachother.

As everyone is geting ready for skool i caint help but dread going back and seeing my crushes and my enamies but as much as dreading that im afraid that when i go back everything will change like my friends my feelings my heart my songs my personality i dont want that i wanna be thee girl i want 2 be and as much and as easy as that sounds some how every year i seem too follow some group insdead of my heart.As much as i wanna GO BACK TO SEE MY FRIENDS� i think going back is gonna hurt me more than anything cuz the guy i like will breaK my heart.

but mabey mabey this year wil be diffrent just mabey

hello beloved

�just got home that was a cool party @ Victoria's house.. it feels soo good to go out! i have not been out in a long time. seen people i use to party with catch up on what's going on w their life.. as I say bye i realized this might be the last time I see them again.. and am a little sad and I will miss my friends.. I am not changing my mind..�

I still 100% would like to move to Ga and be with the only man I love. and hopefully send the rest of my life with him. but cant help the fact that I will be leaving behind all these friends I have and known for years.. the place I called home for a very long time now,�