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Now you are the enemy...

�Song for me and you

You left with out a goodbye

And now I cant help but wonder why...

My heart is lost in a puddle of tears

So now I have no choice but to face my fears...

With everyday that passes bye

I wonder how I bought those lies...

How could you ever do this to me?

I never thought you would be the enemy...

If only I had known what was to come

Then maybe I wouldn’t be so dumb...

Soon I will let you go away

I probably should have a while 'go...

Unlike those childhood fairytales

This one ends in betrayal...

"Better stop short than fill to the brim. Oversharpen the blade, and the edge will soon blunt. Amass a store of gold and jade, and no one can protect it. Claim wealth and titles, and disaster will follow. Retire when the work is done. This is the way of heaven." - Tao Te Ching

I have been trying to keep up .. make sure I had time to write in my blog but being that I work two jobs one that keeps me up all night long ..and the other babysitting and very active little one its hard to find the time to sit and get a a clear thought in my head ... all my thinking usually goes .. damn I need to clean this and that or get this done and one of those is sitting down isnt usuallly an option .. but hey here is my two cents for today ,,, yeah I have been trying to make sure that in my head that I tell myself that this walk is my exercise no matter how long or short it is .. since I do alot of walking already I'm just trying to wire my brain to think of it as exercise instead of just a way to get from one place to another .. cause I'm always on my feet but it dosent count as exercise cause i wasnt telling myself it is .. when I do .. I do try to go a bit farther .. a bit faster concentrate on my breathing gauging how well im doing ... the kids like me bening a bit of a nut so walking around the block or two instead of just going straight home when I drop of my daughter at school .. the only problem I have right�now is the weather isnt quite as cooperative as I would like it .. sweating in the rain isnt too good if I want to stay well enough to take care the house, kids and my job .. so its changes to speed how fast can I move my body,,, while pushing two kids in a stroller .. weight training there ... they arent all the lite you know .. so what bugs the most of myself is when I feel like im doing pretty good .. the clothes are a bit looser on me .. have to wear a belt now but then I let my guard down and sit down ,,, you know relaxed and such and I look down and see this big belly just staring up at me .. and I feel� like such a loser and get pissed all over again .. but hey what can I do but use my feelings and try to get myself moving again .. anyways if you are in the same boat as me .. then I say to you .. one day at a time ... C-Ya

Ahhh...another day of shit anyways I had tutor today ON A HOLLYDAY so yeahh... I got so anyway I was going to watch this movie called "Confessions of a shopaholic" but sadly I couldnt. Because I came with my dad and stepmom to acomany them to find a place where they'll be holding their "reception" it reached 10 am my tutor was there in my house and I was still out then my grandma called my dad onthe way home she was sure mughty pissed! I hate it when shes like that... I mean whats the prblem she could just fucking sufficate and rot in hell so simple!�so I have to go to tutor anyways... being bored because I have no schooL I bet I cant even walk the dogs outside because of what I did... but I guess I'll ignore the rules and break out... I might meet my one and only and maybe run away for awhile just for� night, Im not sure so anyways thats really all for today... I just listened to Katy Perrys song called "Ur so gay" , "simple" and one of the boys.. I didnt know she was that good!�LFMAO well fuck this shit I'll wirte tomorow :D

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