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    shadowlove  34, Female, New York, USA - 60 entries
29
Jun 2009
3:10 PM EDT
   

I know I stopped this again... but I really need the outlet... at least I can realize that right?

I'm really tired of people and their bullshit... I don't even feel like other people sometimes >_<

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    TheWannabeKoreanObaachan  34, Female, Australia - First entry!
29
Jun 2009
3:30 AM CST
   

An Introduction.. of sorts.

I copypasta'd it from another place. It's unedited. I'm sure you'll get over it.

Hi! I’m Sarah, 19, Pisces, socially creative hybrid camwhoring subculturalist. I live in Adelaide, SA, and have realised that I talk too much and seem to be prone to mood swings (everyone I know: prone? *snorts*).

I’m a very busy nymph. I’m studying for my Certificate IV in Music (Technology) at Adelaide. I’m also a first year in the Advanced Diploma of Arts (Professional Writing). I’m working on a theatre project for the Confucius Institute (Tales of the Global City) AND I’m also a shift supervisor at my local house of pizza (think about it!). Therefore, I do many things.

I’m an electronic musician, with a background in traditional instruments (keyboard – 10 years or so * backing vocals – did for just under two years; really need to start again). Sound is such a fascinating thing to me, so to be able to play with sound in so many different ways is very appealing.

I write. Writing, for me, is an emotional release. I can scream and shout without actually screaming and shouting. It’s great. I’ve worked very hard to get to where I am as a writer, and will be working just as hard to get even further. I’m quite proud of my work. Maybe I’ll put some of my work up someday.

Theatre work is new for me. I’ve never done it before. But I’m working with a ridiculously awesome team, AND the play will be in both English and Chinese!

About the only thing I hate about my activities is my job. It was great when I first started, but now I’m just getting screwed over something chronic. I’m looking to get out, and will be the moment I get another job (anyone looking?).

So I tolerate a lot of pressure in my life. But at the same time, I wouldn’t have it any other way. It makes my downtime so much more fun and awesome!

Ambitions? Many. Suicide Girl. Successful published writer. A totally kick-arse live electronic music performance. Fame, fortune and all that jazz. Never having to work a proper job ever again. Many tattoos. Awesome gravity defying hair.

I love having photos taken of me. I’m vain, I’m awesome, and I love it! I hate photos being taken of me when I’m not waxed. I love my friends and significant other. I dislike the banality that is most of my family. I love having a social life. I hate having to plan a social life around work. I love cute, cuddly animals. Hate big, giant bugs with a passion. I love cooking. I hate cleaning.

When I am online (Me? Online? LOL!) I can be found at many places, either as Shichi Reifujin or the Wannabe Korean Obaachan (or variants of those two) Obaachan, because I’m, according to most around me in the real world, O-L-D. Not OLD, or old. O-L-D. Korean, because I’m currently learning Korean, and Wannabe, because I’m a non-Asian Asian (lol).

So, me in a lengthy nutshell (diatribe!) Thanks for stopping by, and don’t hesitate to talk to me further!

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    rossey  48, Female, California, USA - First entry!
28
Jun 2009
10:11 PM EDT
   

hi

unsure where to begin.� so how do we go about this

1 comment(s) - 11:53 AM - 06/29/2009
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    Gaza  51, Female, Australia - 2 entries
25
Jun 2009
4:08 PM AEST
   

What people don't realize is this.. the answer to the yearn, [ache in their heart] is not found inside themselves,- there is a God shaped vacume/ void in each person's heart [only can ever be filled, or totally satisfied by recieving His Son Jesus Christ [recieving forgiveness for sins, and aknowledging, that with the Lords supernatural power & transforming Spirit we then, are transformed into His likeness.
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    misty81  59, Female, Wisconsin, USA - First entry!
22
Jun 2009
8:36 AM EDT
   

Trying this out, 6/22/09

Trying this out.

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2 comment(s) - 09:32 PM - 06/22/2009
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    empc27  31, Female, Tennessee, USA - 3 entries
21
Jun 2009
4:55 PM EDT
   

Well I learned a lesson the hard way.The lesson I learned is that you should really think before you speak because if not you will get yourself into a lot of trouble. Something happened the other day that was just a freak accident. Everyone is fine. But my brother told me he thought it was one of his friends fault. But it wasn't. It was no one's fault. So I go and tell my brother's friend what he said. Well he goes out there and cusses out my brother. And they have been best friends since they were both born. And I pretty much ruined a great friendship. But if I had kept my big mouth closed none of this would have happened and everyone and everything would be fine. So next time you're about to do something, please think it through because you might dig yourself into a hole. :)

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    jlr1786  38, Female, Canada - 3 entries
21
Jun 2009
4:21 PM CST
   

Is he too good to be true?

What's wrong with me? Why can't I�stop thinking of him... not to sound like I'm obsessed or anything like that, but the thought of him always crosses my mind. If you see me with a smile on my face, it's usually him. If I look upset it may be him too.

It seems to me like he is playing mind games though. That's the biggest thing I�am having issues with right now I�think... I�don't want to let him suck me in and then hurt me real bad at the end.

I have two kids. I�need to put them first, always think of them first. That's where this gets hard. My kids haven't seen their dad since the beginning of January when he left. I�just found out tonight they won't be seeing him until MAYBE�the end of Setember...�MAYBE. My son is 3. My daughter is a year and a half. My son understands daddy is working on planes. That's what he wanted my son to think. He doesn't even talk about his daddy anymore. I�told this guy (let's call him D), so I�told D that I�didn't want my kids involved. Obviously. Especially after finding out that he had a gf. I�knew I'd end up hurting and didn't want to put my kids through that as well. Well on mother's day he decided to take us out for ice cream and to the park. He's been here a bit, the kids have seen him, he's taken us out for a picnic and to play soccer, we've gone out together with the kids... they know him. My son is always so happy to see him, I�think my girl is too, but she doesn't talk yet so it's hard to truly understand, but it does seem like it.

I�didn't want this. I don't want them to hurt, and I�definitely don't want D to feel like he has to be a part of their lives, or a part of mine to avoid hurting the kids. I�never wanted to push my kids on him, I�definitely don't ever intend on doing that. I�don't want D�to think I'm looking for a daddy for my kids. I'm not, they have one. Not a very good one, but they don't need him anymore than I�do. My kids are loved by everyone around them. My dad and bro are a big part of their lives. They definitely have that male connection in their lives. Not the same as a dad, I�understand that. But I'm sure they will understand when they are older. Now don't get me wrong... I am not keeping my kids away from their father... I'd never do that unless it was best for their safety. Their dad is two provinces over. There's no way he can see them every weekend. He's at bootcamp. I�wish he would call more to check on the kids though. He never calls. If it was me I'd be calling everyday. I�don't understand it. My son called him tonight for father's day. It surprised him, but I'm not sure if he wanted it. The guy's a real ass.

Anyways, the way he is around my kids amazes me. He is so good with them, and shows dicipline with them too... I'm truly amazed with him. Can he be too good to be true?

I�feel like I'm on a rollercoaster of emotions when I�think of him. So many questions, so many feelings. When will this end?�How will this end?�Should I�be trying harder?�Am I�trying too hard? Do I�need to show more affection?�Am I�showing too much? Should I�call him or text him or just leave it how it is?�(right now he calls me and texts me. I�will text him the odd time, and I�called him the other day cause he asked me to). I�obviously don't call when he's with her.

GRR!�The thing that is driving me up the wall right now is those stupid pictures!!!�I�shouldn't have looked at them. I�know that. I�was wrong to do so and feel terrible. But at the same time, it answered alot of questions. But then opened up a whole new set. A�new type of confusion has now set in.�He has told me that he tried to break up with her but it didn't go well. (and no I�will not go into detail on that, sorry, not my place to do so). He recently told me he wasn't sure how much longer he'd be with this girl. BUT�then those pictures!�He looks so happy with her. There's no way he'd ever even think of breaking up with her, is there? And she's so pretty too. Which I�know looks aren't everything, blah blah blah, but still... he looked SO�happy. I�don't think I�could ever make him that happy. Seriously what am I�thinking?�Should I�just try to shut out all these feelings I�have for him and try to ignore how I�feel?�I�don't think I�should be showing any emotion for him right now, he loves her, it's so obvious. I don't want to ruin that. I�think maybe I�do need to let go...

But then I�keep thinking what if? What if what he has said is true?�What if he truly does have some feelings for me? What if there is a possibility of him and I�being together and I�throw it all out the window because of my stupid insecurities? Then what?

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    yankeenovember  78, Male, Massachusetts, USA - First entry!
21
Jun 2009
6:14 AM EDT
   

For fathers day

Anyone can make a baby, it takes a man to be a father are rather harsh words to use

when the man is but a boy, with no lesson of how to be a father because his own father was never a father to him.�

We can only hope the boy finds a mentor who'll teach him the ways of life, of how to treat people with respect, courtesy, and understanding that we're not all the same outside, but inside we're all human beings - act like one who has a brain and your sons and daughters love will be your reward, until the day you die, and then some.

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    Katty  82, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 2 entries
11
Jun 2009
12:47 PM EST
   

Today I live for me.Thats what makes me happy.
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    hotangel  24, Female, Illinois, USA - 7 entries
09
Jun 2009
8:15 AM EDT
   

I hate summer vacation

Today was my last day of school it was awful. I got all teary and everything and don't even see my 3rd grade teacher for 2 months! cry cry cry cry cry cry.
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