I hadf my first nite out last nite in a long time. since iv had kids anyway. 3 years.
but last nite dick bf actually let me go out to the cinema with my best friend. obviously he didnt like it, but he's not a dick in public so he cudnt really say no. although i still had to put the kids to bed, sort out his food and make sure� he had weed before i left the house. god i had an amazing night. getting a few admiring glances from blokes....id forgotten what attention from the opposite sex felt like. luke doesn't count, he's cyber. i expected him to be in a stinking mood when i got in but he was suprisingly ok. great!!! i think he's beginning to realise� im changing. im starting to think about me again. and about bloody time too!!!
BM:
#1 630 (both days)
throughout the day every 3-5 hours.
#2 getting back to normal yesterday only 1 time at 5pm loose and firm stool
EYES:� Sunday I notice small blisters starting in both eyes, have been using terramycin 3x per day already better but lots of discharge in the goodeye yesterday and very opaque. vision poor the last couple of days.
ENERGY: good really begging for more food. gave rice yesterday to help firm up stool.
MOBILITY:� not as stiff but weak, back legs collasping in the house she stops every couple of feet due to mobility and vision not sure where she is at.
HEARING:� good
APPETITE:� hearty as usual. tolerating supplements.
OTHER:� burns healing but large scab came off yesterday and it was a bit bloody;( still ousing but getting smaller. does not looked inflammed.
as far as supplements has been less than a week but a couple of weeks now with the GDP and no results with the mobility. was hoping that the GDP wouls have started working by now. Josh says it will take more time.
well im back in nevada and my brothers wont leave me alone...and the mutt is here... shes always here because my shes dating my brothers best friend who lives next door to us...who happens to be my crush...life and love suck...
dont you dare say anything justice or ill kick ur butt from nevada! im excited. you get to come visit next spring. momma even said shed pay for ur ticket. yay. and then if he hasnt broken up with her yet we can beat her up...either way we can beat her up. i dont like her and i know she dont like me.
My baby Doughboy is my life he brings me so much joy i never smiled so much until i met him and his family they make me feel so good i cant believe that i actually found someone that loves Dominique for Dominique and i love him for him. It brings a beautiful warm feeling over my body that never goes away
I'm sad for a few reasons.
Mandy & Scarlet left on Sunday and I'm missing them sooo much.
I got a call from cousin Michelle to tell me that Aunt Helen has suffered a massive heart attack and needed surgery. She's come through the surgery and will be in hospital for the next 1-2 wks., they're keeping her unconscience for now. They don't know how (or if) she's going to pull through this. I am very conflicted about going out there to see the family - conflicted and sad.
Then the husband decides to argue with me on Monday about something so stupid, so trivial and then during that arguement he took a verbel swipe at me and it felt just like I'd been kicked. The arguement stopped right then but the feeling that I'd been kicked is still hurting. What an idiot he is sometimes!
Maybe today will be better, I'll get used to Mandy being gone, Aunt Helen will improve and "stupid" will not seem so annoying.
I want to talk about Family.� There are not very many people that I'm close to in my family. I AM close to my kids. (My daughter is 19 and my son is 13). I'm not real close to my dad. There's a wall there. My mom passed away when I was almost 12. When I "grew up". Aunts And Uncles didn't keep interest in me, nor my kids. My grandparents are now passed on, they DID keep in contact with me. My friends are more family than my actual family is. Recently, I went to my family reunion. My boyfriend accompanied me. I don't know of anyone who spoke to HIM. They barely spoke to me. Now bear in mind, that I have done nothing to cause a rift in the�family relationship. They just seemed plain stuck-up.� Most of them have moved off, even live in other states, but I can't remember a time when one of them has called said that they were thinking of me.� I'm sure that some of them don't even know the names of my children. Now, I'm thinking, is this not sad? FAMILY!!! What is FAMILY??� I�hope this never happens with me and my neices or nephews. WAIT a MINUTE.� I don't have ANY. I was born an ONLY child. So, I have a granddaughter and she is so cute. She is 15 months. And, I'm NOT married, so I�don't have much of a FAMILY. My dad is divorced from my Step-Mom, but is dating her. Her kids, I don't wish to know. So, there is My Dad, Me, My daughter, Her Husband, their daughter, and my son. My boyfriend. Then there is my good friends Shaunta & David, Stephanie & Tony. They are the ones, who call. They wonder how and what I'm doing. They check up on me. They know my kids. My dad calls. Mostly lectures, but he does call. I call my daughter at least every other day. I make sure she's happy.� I know where my son is. I still tuck him in once in a while. I�never fail to hug him goodnight and before he goes to school. �I LOVE them. That's my FAMILY.
Peace!!!!!!!
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