Lets see.aaron ocana rodriguez junior.well i love you.i honestly truely love you.im sorry for all those timess i started the argumentsss.im sorry for gettn mad and beingg a smartt ass for no reasonnn.but what i love,is that in the end we laugh and act stupid.thatss why i love u.i kno sometimesss i mite not look or act like the best girlfriend.but your honestly the BEST thing that has happend to me.i was lost and confused before i met you.and ever since you came into my life,i figurd out who i'am and why i'am here. im here because of you!im here for you.and all the other people i love and care about.you've changed me more than you know..you kno how to make me cheessyy and make me laugh.and everytime i talk to you,everythingg just feelss so rite.and all the problemss in the world dont matterr.cuz in those momentss all i wana do is be with you.when u hug me close to you,i feel soo warm and happy..i never wana let go.i can talk to you on and on and never stop..but then you kno OUR momss get pissed.Lol.but that dont stop uss.sometimesss i cant look at yur face cuz i get soo cheesy and happy just lookingg at you.yourr soo pure and beautifull,and you dont even know it.i can see the good in you that you dont even know you have.you can do sooo good in yur life,and you will.i'll be there to help you out and cheer you on.i dont need money and stuff,idont need a big house or nice clothes.i told u,as long as iam with you and we're both happy than thatss all that matters.alll i want is for you to be happy and smiling..if your happy than im happy.. everynight i lay awake thinking about you.i think about your smile,how it can brighten my day.i think about your laugh which i treasure with everything. i might not say the rite things or do the rite things but,the rite thing i know how to do is love you! there are so many things i can write about you.but i would write on and on...lets just say your the one.your one,that makes my day.your the one that makes me smile all the time. your the one thats always on my mind.your the one im crazy about. baby i love you...im sorry im not perfect.im sorry if i say the wrong things.im sorry if i bring your day down.im sorry im a little messed up. but youre the reason im here.man,if you werent my everything,id be nothing. before you i was lost and confused.now,i know whats wrong and whats rite. the rite thing,is to be with you always and forever. and the wrong thing,is to hurt you or get you mad. but i promise you!i will not hurt you.you mean tooo much to me to get you hurt. and mad.baby ima try,im trying soooo hard not to get you mad.when youre mad im mad.and having you mad hurts me. always and forever babe.im sorry for everything ive done. but im not sorry for loving you! because your the best thing thats happend to me,im so thankful for you being in my life.thank you for accepting who i'am.we mite be different and weird in our own way.but youre also,everything im not.you're my other half,without you im not whole..you're soooo fckn awesome!i kno you think u make mistakes and always screw things up.well,that goes both wayss.but you kno,at the end,we always fix it and learn from those mistakess.i dont knoww HOW! im goingg to go cali and not talk and see you like i do now.these past few dayss we havent been talkingg as much.and itss killlingg me! i misss you soooo much!and imagine in cali.omg, rite now,all i wana do is hear yur voice and smile..but when im in cali,ima gona be strong not just for me but for us.im not gona give up on uss..i wont.you may waay too much to me to just give up and walk away from.you told me always and forever and i told u until the end.and bby,im keepingg that promisse..no matterr what..remember that song obsesion by aventura. you said was for me.well yep thatss how i feeel..beingg up at 5 in da morningg just thinkingg about yur beautiful face..i can runaway with you and be happpy foreverr.but NOOO,i have ta concentrate on schoool!Lol..but wait!bby,i graduated! ;) hehe,damn yur the one for meee.i love you sooo much,you dont kno how much i care for you.ill love you if u were poor or some hobo.Lol.or if you weighd 300 poundss..but yur ass is getn ta the gym (hehe inside joke).i kno theres ppl out there who tell me ta be careful and watchout,but from who? i know im safe and warm as long as im in your armss...me.you.us,this isnt gona end!i wont let it happen..i didnt choose you over ____,(u kno who) i chose happy over lie.she said she would always be there for me..& what?where is she?best friendss,can forgive no matter what.i guesss she was just to selfish to do that.i KNOW being with you isnt a mistake,if this was a mistake than you wouldnt be on my mind 24/7.you wouldnt be the reason im soo happy and in love..march 28,2008.not only the day we got together,but the day i knew i want to be with you A&F UTD.your 17 im 14.and? your my viejo untill we're viejitoss.Lol..remember i said.sometimess people write the thingss they cant say..well here,bby thiss is how much you mean to me! believe me,i can write soooo much more.like,when im havingg a bad day just talkingg to you makes me so happy.or how i love when u say youre so proud of me,when my own mother doesnt.how u get jeolouss over something thats so stupid.i love how much you care..yess it does get annoyingg,but yess you do care.and how betsy "my lover" helpss you have fun and laugh..bby,ican write on and on..but im sleepy and my fingerss hurt.Lol..bottom line is.i love you.and no matter how far away we are my heart will always be near yourss.i will ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU, a&f utd.i love you,junior.♥3.28.08..finishd on thurs june 5th.at 2:02 a.m
My feelings are blank..
There's so much I want to say to so many people but I can't... ok maybe only two people and technicall I could�tell them but I don't want to I don't want to have to face these people and try to tell them what needs to be told... I miss them and feel bad for leaving but should I say that I am better off now that I was before, should I mention that I feel like a stupid naive little school girl around them or should I not disclose any of the discomfort I felt and just tell them a half-truth... Too many options and too many�reasons that I should�just say nothing at all...
Basically the reason for those above thoughts is that a few weeks ago... or was it a few months ago.. I can't be sure really because time flies and sometimes it seems like�I can never catch up but anyway I used to be part of a group apropriately self-named the FQ's (flirt queens). They flirted with anyone the could get their hands on and for fifteen year old virgins they were pretty experienced/knowledgable. Ok so my di scription is a little Over The Top.. they wouldn't flirt with everyone but they were still big time flirts and I'm not saying I'm unknowledgable in that field but around them I felt like a naive little (primary) school girl. So they were informally known the FQ's but I wasn't.. I was a misfit in their group of belt short skirts and extremely low cut tops. I was ignored and felt mildly exiled so I left because the reason that I had joined that group in the first place was because I was running from the last group I was in where�I was replaced�by my�best friend (emily)�for another girl called Amy. But when�I left I went back to that old group with Amy and Emily. You have no idea how great it was... I felt like I belonged again.. Finally...
Besides in my new group I have other things to worry about; the rise of Amanda the two-faced backstabbing bitch who I hate for so many reasons I can't list them all here, the newly inseperable 'best friends forever' bond between Amy and Ashlea (they pretty much rub it in everyone's face) that is hurting Emily while also pissing me off and Amy's obsession with a band called Mcfly which makes it ten million times harder to talk to her because the only topic she will willingly discuss is how awesome/hot/fantasticly talented/great/sexy all members of Mcfly are. Her topics are becoming repetative and I don't know how much more I can take of her blabbing about interviews with them, how funny they are and how she wants them to strip for her.
Another mind bothering thing is 'P' why she is named this is uncertain but it was a secret kept between Amy, Amanda and Ashlea (the three A's). With the power of my sea mokeys (i.e brain cells) and my awesome eavesdropping skills I was able to determin that P was either Myself or Kate and I was quite sure it was Kate untill everyone started telling me that it wasn't me which brought up the saying "tho doth prtest too much". I now know for sure that it is P because Emily confronted Amanda with y evidence and found out that P like I had originally thought was Kate. But I am not allowed to speak a word of it to anyone which is lameee. But I shall disclose the facts and obvious reasons why I believed P was Kate...
Reasons Why 'P' was Kate or Me
Thats all for now in tha amazing life of me...
love to all those who deserve it but none for people that�I for minimal reasons�hate *cough*Amanda*cough* lets just say that my feelings for her relate to the lyrics of the song "I never liked you" by the rouge traders in particular the line "I never liked you even when�I tried to" because I did actually have a period of time where i went out of my way to try and like her and not be so hating of her but nomatter how much I tried I could never bring myself to like her and if I started to she would do something that made me hate her all over again... well EFF HER.
Asta La Pasta, My dear online diary for you are my saviour and seemingly only person I can discuss all of these things with except emily who I can discuss all of these topics with excluding the Amanda topic because she hearts amanda like everyone else in the group does..
XoXo Sarah
�Tell the truth, who are your�family and who are the people you are close to. who is gunna be there and help you get through. give you a light when you lost yours and just dont have a clue.�The answer is nothing really means shit, your family is the people you choose to be with , and love even if for only for a minute. A message after a half decade can possibly be a start. try and find the ones you were trained to stay apart... from, and in the end youll see that words like family and friends really have no inbetween, It all just depends on if you wanna play and whos game. But keep your mind open, and never let it be taimed, youll find your so called family is�like a fire in the rain!
Well how can I say this, guess it's no easy way to put it. I kissed Mia, again. Except it was more intense...in the bathroom, the bathroom stall, at school, 5th prd. We were both out of place but I dont think neither of us cared. I dont know why, what, how but I know it happened. It was so fast, so weird but it was so, so real! OMG I cant believe myself I really hate this girl, well not now maybe, but I do! She slept with my girlfriend, this bitch is the enemy..has been for 4 years now..Aint no way I could possibly like her. We fought twice, she beat my ass twice! DAMNIT! I hate this bitch!!! She is so the enemy but whoa did she really have me hooked. Not the bathroom session but her sweetness && niceness that came after it. I dont know what to do, let me go think about this, it's such a mess. I have to think about Pig, am I gonna tell her, No-yes! How will I, When will I...am I gonna tell her
0MG, g2g i'll keep u updated
Hello its the 2nd to last day of skool!!~~My classs is watching lords of the ring and im just on the computer typing this i guess?!?! antiways im bored just wanted to let you guys know!! Bye!!!!
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