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    •     Gilbert022208  35, Female, South Carolina, USA - First entry!
    08
    Mar 2010
    4:48 AM EDT
       

    Realistic Nightmare

    I had a horrible nightmare... it was so real...but i know it was not. It was one of the scariest dreams i have had in a long time. It felt so real... i felt the feelings..its hard to explain... but it felt like everything was so realistic. My husband and i was visiting a friend and some guy walked in and tried to throw me out of a window... because he didn't want me to be there. I was able to get away and run out of the house, i got in the car cause i was scared for my life. my husband was right behind me, but that guy was right behind him. As he tried to get into the car� he was pulled out and was being beat. He told me to lock the doors so i did. I thought there was just that one guy.. but there was a bunch of them, some of them were hiding in the back seat. As i was watching my husband being beat i was being held down and being raped. One was in the front and one was in the back while i am being held down by� two. The thing that scared me the most... was as i was waking up i could feel their hands touching me and my backend was hurting like it was actually done. i really don't understand it... how is it that something happens in a dream and you actually feel it after you wake up? Does that even make since or am i going out of my mind??? I feel kind of crazy i guess you could say. i am really confused. i know it was just a dream and dreams are NOT real... it... its just a real scary thing and so real like. has anyone else ever experienced a dream where you feel what happened even after you woke up... is it just in my head?? How do i find out, how do i understand what is going on? Can someone please help....
    Tags: i am so confused about it all.....
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    2 comment(s) - 03:25 PM - 03/25/2010

        dkp  62, Male, Belgium - 2 entries
    06
    Mar 2010
    8:31 PM WEST
       

    Ben je al opgeschreven voor het koningschieten?
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        Brunette Mess  38, Female, Texas, USA - 15 entries
    06
    Mar 2010
    4:23 PM EST
       

    Sweet Summertime


    Life has been way too crazy and stressful lately. So at the end of April, I will be unemployed. I tried the whole 'working full-time AND going to graduate school' thing, but it ended up being too much. I feel that I am missing out on the most important schooling of my life by working at a job I don't particularly enjoy.

    Ok, on to the main reason for this blog. I want to make some changes this summer. Here is the list of things I want to accomplish this summer:

    1.) Work out - I've tried, but during the semester I have zero time to exercise. I really only gained a few pounds, but I want to feel healthier. My plan is to begin running, as far as I can. I'll just build from there. I hope to get up to at least 10 miles.

    2.) Be more social - Currently, the last thing I want to do on the weekends is to go out and be social. Usually I just want to catch up on my sleep...and then study.� I want to go out on weekdays and meet my friends at fun places in Dallas.

    3.) Join a sports team - Since I won't have much going on this summer, I want to play in an intramural league. Great way to meet people and to stay active.

    4.) Spend more time with my puppy - I adopted a 2 year old black lab back in October. He is one active lab and he is always wanting to play. I feel guilty because I am usually way to busy or too tired to play. I want to spend more quality time with him.

    5.) Summer school - Since I have to take summer school, I want to make the best of it. I want to actually get a feel for UTA. I want to venture around campus and see what there is to see. Currently I go to class and leave. Since I will have an advanced degree from this school, I really want to know campus.

    6.) Grow out my hair - This may sound lame, but I want to spend this summer relaxing and waiting for my hair to grow. I want it looooooooong!

    7.) Practice my photography - I just bought a Canon Rebel and I really excited to play with it. Hopefully I can spend this summer taking lots of pictures.

    8.) RELAX - Haven't had much time to relax and figure out what's important to me. Laying out by the pool, leisure walks with my puppy, sipping' ice tea on my porch, etc. Can't wait for all of this stress to be lifting off my shoulders.

    Well, that's quite a list, but I think everything is pretty do-able. I'm ready for you Summer! Bring it!
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        distracted  51, Female, California, USA - 5 entries
    24
    Feb 2010
    9:18 AM PDT
       

    every time i think of you i find myself at odds.. not with you or those we know.. but for certain with the gods.. the ones that watch over you .. and tell me not to speak..when i look at you they dont like what i think.. how is it so easy for me to understand..everything that happens.. yet i still manage to be sad.. at the moments when you find that my attention is still needed.. how i know these problems are about to be repeated..everybody wonders..and everybody knows.. but when it comes to us .. its nothing like what shows.. in the wee hours of the morning ..ar the late hours of the night.. i can still sit waiting .. knowing everything's alright..but when you come barreling in.. with that look upon your face..its a guilty look for sure.. and its a very common place.. whether its new or old .. whether weak or strong.. its something you havent lost..all these years weve carried on..so sleep well my burning angel.. let the dreams dry your eyes.. for im not even concerned with your need to be disguised.. you can have all the secrets.. you can keep then to your self.. but just remember this..its no better then this hell.. if it were you would not be here.. pretending nothings wrong..in the middle of a promise.. that keeps you holding on..
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        TellieGirl  35, Female, Canada - 4 entries
    22
    Feb 2010
    3:06 PM EST
       

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        station1977  48, Male, Colombia - 4 entries
    18
    Feb 2010
    1:29 PM EDT
       

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        hereiam0010  42, Female, Virginia, USA - 4 entries
    10
    Feb 2010
    10:40 PM EDT
       

    just getting started so uphappy with my life have no idea whre to start... late night.. work at 530am
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        JackeeRockz25  26, Male, California, USA - 6 entries
    08
    Feb 2010
    8:39 PM CST
       

    thank you Tao Te Ching
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        musicislife  38, Female, New Hampshire, USA - 2 entries
    07
    Feb 2010
    1:03 PM EDT
       

    Blinding is the sun beams bouncing off the shinny, glazed snow.
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        lonelyangel  32, Male, Japan - 5 entries
    06
    Feb 2010
    4:39 AM EDT
       

    Family

    Sometimes I'm fine. Most of the time I'm not. Nothing seems real for me these days. It seems like I'm always pretending. Faking my happiness,faking the sadness. What I truely feel is not familiar to me anymore. And I don't know what to do. I talked to my teacher about this once,or twice and it just keeps on coming. Do you know how it feels when you don't know what you are or why are you here in this world? Have you ever wondered what your love ones' lives would be when you were never born and never part of their lives? Or how it would affect them when you are suddenly gone? Would they feel sad? Would they take the blame and ruin their lives? Imagining things like that makes me really sad. Though I don't know who I am,I know how much I love my family. But lately,my family,that I believe is the real purpose of my living,is falling apart. I can't blame anyone. To be honest,I don't blame myself. Not anymore. It's not my parents fault either. Maybe,that's just the way it is. Love just suddenly fade,as sudden as it comes. I can't help but think that my family's better off apart. But still I'm hoping. Every family has its own issues along with solutions. Only,sometimes,the solution is late.
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