My Reflections

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May 2012
3:05 PM GMT

Im back

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Should be at work today but I had the phone on silent so I missed Kathleen's call last night.Austin and Vincent rang to know what I was doing but io told them I wouldn't bother to go in.I have days worked up .It is better to use them when they are there I think.

I have really felt behind in my Journalism.Reading back it does give a certain perspective on life which I wouldn't have if I did not bother

It is impossible to recall every event since my last entry so I will go on what I can remember.

Was in Monivea last night.Did the four pubs.The only bit of life was in Kelly's where there was a hen party on.Youngsters going around dancing,singing,and enjoying themselves.

When I was in McGann's I handed a fiver to Padraig for a ginger ale but he only gave me 20 cents back.I didn't want to say anything.He must be getting forgetful.

I had a Bord Bia audit eventually on Friday after postponing it on Thursday because I had a tooth out on Wednesday.(It is still a bit sore but is healing)

Carmel was out yesterday.She showed us the youtube video of herself singing with the Athenry musical society.And guess who was in the background.The person she most loathes in the whole world-Kennedy

I had a mediocre week last week on.I had to go to Brooke lodge to help out Austin and Burke.It wasn't too bad when Burke and Leehy were around but It can be difficult at times working with Austin.He tends to be overcautious about everything and he does tell the odd fib

The weanlings are coming on nicely.They are eating the meal and they have nice young grass over in the calla.
I may sell the bullock next Thursday in Athenry as cattle prices are dropping a bit and the may be on the way down after being dear since last year

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Feb 2012
4:19 PM GMT

Jobs to be done

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Got a few things done.I let out the weanling.She seems ok with the nose ring.Then �Sean McHugh stopped to tell me he saw more dumping going on. That was disappointing so i went to take a look.Bottles and cans �like from a pub.I have an inkling Kelly's pub in Monivea could be responsible but there was no proof.They are clever not leaving a trace of id.hey dumped just under the No Dumping sign.
I rang McDermott around 1.He said he might ramble down this evening to see if he could be of any assistance.
I was going to go to Tuam after dinner to look at that trailer but decided �not in case McDermott rang back.I rang Austin and he said he would be available tommorow evening to take a gawk.
I had a go at taking away the dead escalonia hedge as I bought new plants yesterday.
It wasn't too hard .With the Chainsaw I had it done by 4.30pm.
She was saying to paint the wall before planting but I think that could be a waste of time

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Feb 2012
2:19 PM GMT

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Got the weanling nose-ringed after a bit of hassle.

Yesterday was quiet.That chef down in Ballybane.(married to Barney Costello's son) gave me a lift to mass.She thought it was on at 11 am.I took the lift anyway because of it �would impolite to refuse.
I went for a walk around the block after the rugby match.It was an exciting match.Scotland gave France a run for their money but the Gallic flair came to the fore in the ends.

I will probably go to the Business class this evening.Don't know when I will take a lot �at that trailer.I wonder if Austin waiting?

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Feb 2012
6:57 AM GMT

get it over with

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Can't make up my mind about doing things.I wish there was a way to always make the correct choice.Like today.I don't know whether to stay at home and watch the rugby or go to Ryehill and feed cattle then tuam Tuam and look at the trailer.
Or is there such a thing as a correct decision?

I was in Diamonds after getting up.�
I met an old workmate Tommy Fahy.He came ove and aske me how long it was since we worked in Crown?.Thirty years to the day

Then I had another bout of indecision.Would I buy the Independent or the Mail (buying it all week)
The Independent had an Intersting supplement about famous I rish murder .It appeals to the subconscious I think.
I opted for the mail because it is better value for money.
The Barnadearg lady was talking about Jedward being picked again for the Eurovision.

I feel we are getting closer to something.It is just the atmosphere

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Feb 2012
2:24 PM GMT

Petty tyrannies

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Again time and fatigue defeated me with this journal.

I got on ok at the Art class but I wonder should I have gone to the Teagasc thing in Athenry �about beef production.
Nobody else was at it when I inquired with the lads in the morning.

Picked up Gerry in Skehana but he was nearly half an hour late.He is easy going whether it is laziness or not.He takes his time about things.One is better off in some cases.
We got through the day ok.I had trouble with the indicator fuse since Wednesday night going to the class.There seems to be a bit of an omen around Briar hill with the speeding fine last week.There was a bit about speed cameras on TV this evening.The AA man said that some are placed in bad spots and don't do anything to help road safety.I would agree.Anyway, I eventually got it fixed after Mickey, Walsh and myself went looking in the wrong place for the culprit.It was under the dashboard.I had to pay ��€š�5 in Abbey tyres to find that out at lunchtime.

Those petit tyrannies of life can easily bring you down

Today was another ok day.We finished off the inside plastering.
Forgot to bring teabags so I had to borrow one from Austin

I went to Ryans for a small box of teabags

Kathleen didn't come till after 3.

Mickey and Austin went off about 3.30 and Vincent and I stayed a bit longer.I killed the time by hoovering out the car and talking to John Gerard.He is pretty easy to get along with but Vincent says he won't lift a finger to help anybody.I always got along with the Turlough but they can be thick sometimes.They seem all the same.
I threw out a bale on the way home.The weanling is a heifer I think so I might as well keep her for breeding.

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Feb 2012
12:59 PM GMT

Time

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Am a bit tied for time.
We had a union meeting today.
We spent the rest of the day in Brookelodge.
I got the brakes checked.They were ok for another while.
Moght go see the trailer with Austin Friday or Saturday.
I have to go to the Art class now.
Wil be bringing Gerry O brien to Brookelode tomorrow.Meet in Garbally

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Feb 2012
5:09 PM GMT

Getting here and there

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Got through the first day back at work in tree weeks.We did little manual work today.It was raining g.Mike Flaherty was there with Mickey first thing.I felt a bit guilty not going to the brother's wife 's funeral so I dodged him for a while and said nothing.

Austin was there after a while as was Vincent.No changes there.
I eventually got around sympathising and explaining that I did not know about his bereavement or I would have gone to the funeral

I threw out a bale after work(posting off that fine in Donohues.What a misfortune).The weanling is gobbling down the ration thank God.I might increase the amount tomorrow.

I went to the course about 7.15 and was there in time.It is getting interesting .Declan is an ok sort of tutor.I hope that I can get something rewarding out of it

Just after watching University challenge on the Bbc i player.It was the most exciingly close in the end>I even answered some that they got wrong.

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Feb 2012
11:13 AM GMT

Success and failure

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Finally got the water resolved.After making a few phone calls this morning I thought that I would have to get the house disconnect but just after 3 p.m. I got a call from the Celtic water guy(He is English by his accent) to sat he was in Ryehill and just as he was about to hang up I told him I would go down in ten minutes.After a few minutes he noticed that there was two meters.I had been paying twice for the same water .He took away one meter so I wont have to make any disconnection at all now.What a relief and he looked at�� Conroy's connection and said he . see about� it.

The speeding fine came back.They said the credit card would not work.They must have put in the wrong numbers to add to the frustration

I heard in the early news that there was an fatal accident in Colemanstown yesterday.Nobody local as it turned out.Peggy Nolan and Mary rang to find out who it was.A 38 year old Hungarian was the poor unfortunate.She had been living in Ned Murphy's house in Monivea.

I put €20 diesel the tractor.I was checking prices� to see would I order my own but all fuel is very dear at the moment.

Nearly €1 a litre to order it at home and just over €1 at Cookes

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Feb 2012
5:53 PM GMT

Write it down

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Got through a few thing today.It is amazing how you can get things done if you make a list first.

The dentists was ok.I had a bit of filling to do.Didn't even need an anasthetic.Mangan is an ok kind of guy.€40 to clean my teeth.

I spotted a bargain shirt on my way back to the car.Nearly €30 (half price) but it was just what I was looking for.

Went top Brody and Joyces then came home.

Had a good few jobs in Ryehil with the weanling and all but got them all done.
Should I disconnect one of the meters?It would save me a bit.I'l ring them tomorrow.
Got my medical card and also got a letter about means test for the Rss.It said something about rented property.I'll ring them tomorrow as well.

I am please the way the oil painting is coming along.Hope I can keep it up but it is not as easy as I first thought

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Feb 2012
12:04 PM GMT

Positive and negative

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Had a Bad ad hair day yesterday.I got a real stinker when I opened a letter .It was a speeding fine from last Monday .It took place on my way home from the business class.I should have been more careful.It was dark and no other cars were on the road.It is a real trap.€80 and two penalty points.Qhat a waste of money.I was only 12 km over according to the lettere.I replied today.Better get it over with as soon as posssible.A real disappointment and i hope there is no more of them.

Then there was the water bill.I will have to get it sorted soon.

One positive was that i got the cow and weanling in with little bother.

I went to Monivea first thing this morning �for weanling ration.IU wonder do I need a mag bucket?I'll ask Brody tomorrow when i go for the cards after seeing the dentist.Money going out all over the pkace.I might have to cancel my holiday just as Aer lingus are advertising low air fare to Europe.

I met Martin Conroy just there at the water connection.Wew chatted a while and he said he would take a look for it.He is a sound guy as all the conroys.I just want to get it out of the way.Please God.

After feeding the weanling I came up.She was gone to Athenry to get the car ready for the NCT.She wasn't home till well after lunch time.
I got a few tasks that were on the long finger done.Planted the Tulip bulbs in the graveyard ,turned the compost heap and got the gas meter off in the post at Garbally castle.I did a meditation this morning and again this evening.I feel a little better..

I hope �go the Art course at about 7.20pm

I just get this listless feeling when I come into this house.I know that I am missing out on something.I keep getting this nagging thought that I have wasted a lot of my time.The only thing I can do is pray

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Feb 2012
5:30 PM GMT

The new and the Old

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Still have that tense dreadful feeling.

Was at the "Start your own business" class in Gmit.

It is ok I guess.I am hitting it in spots.I might keep at it and see how it turns out.

Earlier I left herself into Mrs O Donnell's funereal at Quinn's ,Athenry.
Carmel was to bring her out here afterwards.Just as we met up with C armel at 6 two of my first cousin that I rarely meet,Emer and Deirdre Rohan came over talking.I had to spurt off because of the class.I think Emer is a bit stuck up anyway.
I bought a new electric toothbrush in Flanagans.The lady told me that the old one should have lasted longer than it did.I wonder what went wrong?

The watwer was turned back on when I went to Ryehill.I was dissapointed that he didn,t ring .I rang them when I came up but got no satisfaction.I suppose I will have to pay twice the amount.As if things weren't bad enough

I had a quiet weekend but for Saturday night when I ventured in as far as Galway.I went to the same old hide out,The Quays and Abuser Brownes.There is a nice atmosphere on Saturdays.God knows I am long enough going to Galway.I suppose I will get an answer some day

Kinda lkoking forward to the Art class on wednesday night..

iI am seriosly contemplating Going off to Amsterdam in march to eascape this terrible boredom.I would cost the best part of a thousand euro.But then look what happened to those rugby fans in Paris last Saturday.
At least I would get some value for money.
I wish that I had somebody to talk to besides being cooped up her all the time

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Feb 2012
8:31 AM GMT

Bored again

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Uh still felling terrible.
I got to the Art class last night after a last gasp decision.I had to buy a canvass �,paints and linseed oil in Cregal art before the class for €25.There was another guy in the shop just before 5.45 whose wife he said was doing the same course.�

I had to kill a bit of time so I did a little browsing around the shopping centere.I was so tense and excited before the class that I even went an hour early.
I then wandered back a bit listening to the Swindoll tapes.I just felt so good listening to them as if the were feeding my soul

The first person I met was the tutor.She is nice and helpful.

The class went well .I even got started on a landscape.There were about 6 or 7 in the class.They seem ok .

I was home before 11 O clock but had another tense night. getting up then going back to bed.

Today is Thursday .I am bored stiff as usual.I regret ever leaving my job in Crown.I wonder how things would have turned out if I had the patience to stay?

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Feb 2012
9:58 AM GMT

Change of mind

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I went to Monivea after another tense night.I wish a breakthrough would come in some form or the other.

Those tapes by Swindoll on mediocrity are good.He is an excellent teacher.

I threw a another bale out after going to Monivea.I got an early lunch ,a chicken breast for nearly €3.

I changed my mind again on the course.I prayed and the answer seems to be the business course.I wonder should I do the two of them.

I made an attempt to study the book on watercolours but my mind could not grasp it.here is so much confusion about.I just can't seem to get focused on anything.I should be patient and persevere according to the bible.Nothing rarely gets accomplished on the first attempt.

I am now half tempted to ring the Gmit and do �both courses or will they think me a bit looney?.Should I or is it too much.?With God's grace I can

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Feb 2012
9:47 AM GMT

bewildewrment

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Spent Sunday as usual at home after cycling to mass.

The rugby match was on.Ireland v Wales.Altoiugh Ireland was on top after Wales opened with a bang they never were able to put Wales away and Wales were deserving winners with a last minute penalty.Wales got a sinbin(as did Ireland) for emulating Priestland 's foul in the World Cup.You would think they would have learned from the world cup about making foolish tackles.

Gaybo had another interesting guest on his meaning of life series.Bob Geldof who is like Branson another unbeleiver.

We put up the TV a few inches after all the talk they were making about it.Still think that it was ok where it was.

On Monday I went to Ryehill to throw out a bale.

I spent the afternoon on Youtube.Listening to the Black eyed peas.

I went to that Start your own business course at GMIT.I had a little trouble getting the room.It seems interesting but is it for me?The guy who is the tutor is Declan Droney.He has his own business in Kinvara.Organic smoked salmon ,Blake chocolate and a hardware store.The only guy I got to know was Brendan Mcardle who is a computer programmer.I wonder should I continue or change?

I rang to change to oil painting for beginners.Can change it back again tommorow.

I went to Diamond's today.I bought a few sundries then went to Ryehill.

Carmel was here when I came up but she was just leaving
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Was half thinking about fucking off to loughra or somewhere to avoid this terrible atmosphere in this house.

I pray each day for healing

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Feb 2012
9:47 AM GMT

Indecision time again

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Still haven't shaken off the habit of indecisiveness and lethargy.

Should I or will I go on that trip to the Netherlands?

McQualter rang first thing in the morning to say the bank was done.I went our to to him about 11 am(after I tried to make an NCT appointment for the Punto online but I entered a wrong reg number and banjaxed it for today anyway) to see for myself.Not a bad job.He seems to have got rid of the wet areas which was needed.
When I presented him with a check he told me there would be �extra vat.of €54 .
He said to get cash if she had so I went home .She had the €400 .She thought it a bit dear but most of the people with banks availed of his services..Gerard Lally,Liam Hardiman ,Johnny Coppinger and Mrs Cloonan who arrived when I was paying �him around 12.30
�went up to Monivea for petrol and some cash.Then to Ryehill to throw out a bale.Rang Mannion about doing up the trailer .He said he wold be up this evening to take a look at it..
Carmel is just after going.She came out for a visit.I was ringing her mobile to see about putting luggage on a plane.She was complaing about Ann Marie Connor who miserly charged her the one cent over the tenner of petrol she filled.She could not get over it.

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Feb 2012
9:47 AM GMT

NO change

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No change or improvement.Just feel so tensed up day and night.Like as if something is going to give.

I went to Athenry after getting upThe battery was down in the Punto so she could not go to Mass.I got it going with the jump leads and brought it in to Athenry motors to check out the battery.It was ok and said it was probably not starting it along with the cold morning was the culprit.He will check it out this day week for the NCT test..I �bought some water filers and a few other things.I met Sid there .He must be in for a few early pints.I met him again when I was going to Monivea.
The tax cert hadn't arrived when I checked in Ryehill so I went up to Monivea for a stamp and screws in the hope it would be there when I returned which it was.

I wonder what would life be like if I stayed working in Crown.It was a boring dirty job but at least I had an income and some buddies.

How could I havew stayed here all these years I just dont know

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Jan 2012
9:48 AM GMT

Plodding along

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Got up after another disturbing night.When will it end.
And on top of that my big toe is hurting.The nail must have got broken off during the night.
One good thing is that that Gandharva music cd arrived.I hope it can make a difference.
The Gmit got my application but they rang to say the course was cancelled so I opted for another course about setting up a business.
I went to Diamonds and fed the cattle.
Thinking about that bollock Lyons since I heard he was home.I looked him up on Facebook.He hasn't seem to have changed.I hope he gets what is coming to him.

No reply yet from Tommy Mulally in Facebook.It would be interesting to hear from him after all these years.
I found Gay Byrne's interview with Richard Branson fairly interesting.He talks rather slow and a bit muddled.I wonder has it anything to do that he is an agnostic?
Looking at some like Salman ushdie,John Lennon,Richard Dorking etc they seem to be very successful in their careers these Athiests and Agnostics.Tony Benn as well.I used to look up to him when I was younger but since I gave up on Socialism and his views on Israel I dont regard him with as much favour.
I got a notification that Ifcj had received my donation.Thank God
I also got a reply to my question on the Crucifiction but it is not a clear answer and is a very long and complicated answer.

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Jan 2012
12:08 PM GMT

Paper work

Another yucky day and night.
Went to Athenry in the morning to check out that bank draft.It was changed on the 5th of January.
Did a bit of shopping as well in Joyces.
Did a bit of form filling.
Got that Gmit course.We will see how it goes
Must go to bed now .

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Jan 2012
12:09 PM GMT

today

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Yukky.That is how I feel.I played back some old tapes in the dictaphone.It is as if nothing has changed.I was indecisive fed up restless back five years as I am today.

I was in Monivea pitch today.Austin and the usual were there and suppose/Gill.

We were mucking about on the pitch.I suppose that I could be at worse things.Mcqualter rang me first thing about draining Corrandoo bog.I went over before tea.It will cost about €400 to level the bank.I suppose that it is worth it in the long run though he is a bit on the dear side.

I spent a lot of time in the car listening to the radio this week.Is that a sign of boredom?

Just can't seem to be able to get my act together.Why?

I love listening to pop songs on youtube.

I bought that little book on Monivea hurlers in 1911 for a tenner.well the money is going to the hospice.It was interesting.

I saw a piece about Lester McNamara on the Athenry news mag.

I remember him going to school.He was a hot tempereda buck.Going around town shoplifting, fighting.
But he seems to have turned out ok

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Jan 2012
9:48 AM GMT

Cold

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Went to work as usual.Iwas the first on the scene followed by Mickey and the usual crew.

Kathleen Cannon came about 8.45 .

We erected the goal post which we had taken down before Christmas.I felt strange at first then I settled down a bit.

Vincent rang to say he would come in for a half day.That was a bit peculiar .Why didn't he stay away because he had days made up from last week?He can be a bit of a pain sometimes.
I went to Ryehil at dinner time and threw out a bale.I did not let on to anybody that I was in Mountbellew on Friday.In the end it is nobody's business but my own.

Did the same Monday stuff University challenge,Brain of Britain.Feel tense everytime I come home.I got a feeling that it will soon come to a head

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