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so far I've run three miles and walked up hill for 30 minutes. machine said I burned 500 calories. I was going to go to boxing, the easy girl workout, but it was closed today. I guess I'll try to due 40 min eliptical in the basement while I watch biggest loser. My calorie count is at 990 and I'm made a great healthy cinco de mayo dinner with edamamin guac and chicken quesodias, I've even got a low cal pomaganit margarita, hope it all turns out good and I don't eat too much.

we have our so called animal rights, yet we have no qualms at slaughtering cows, pigs and chicken for their meat......any contrary argument would only mean discrimination between animals

Ugg Amanda is soo erritating !!!

all she talks about is herself and i am soo tired of it ! she dosen't care about me at all she says i am her best friend and i jut roll my eyes bc to be a best friend you have to be there for the other person , I am always there for her and she says i m overreactin and acting like a bitch wen i say anything to her or she justs finds a way to talk about herself again ! i swear she has a real gift . I could be talking about how i feel realy deprssed and she finds a way to talk about howone time 3 years ago she found a lost dog and she got yelled at for bringing it into the house !. I feel bad bc she thinks i am her best friend and i could care less about her silly little problems . I probably sound realy mean right now but it is soooo true "OMG my sister stole my sweater and i got grounded bc i yelled at her " is ussually what she complains about . I am realy glad i have friends who actually care about me . I can't even talk about my getting accepted to duke summer camp bc she starts crying saying that i shouldn't go and support her bc she isn't as smart and they should take away programs like that bc it hurts her feelings . !!!!!�� Ok i am done venting for now ....

xoxoxo

Im just randomly saying hey. So if anyone sees this.. Post back!!! xDD

Today was ok but cloaked with an aching in all my joints which was kind of distracting. Pissed about all morning but made up for it in the afternoon as the helpline was pretty busy.

Had mince'n'tatties from the counting house (6/10) and saw Let the right ones in at the flicks (7/10). The imagery was amazing at some parts, the bleakness of the snowy swedish countryside.

Came home and watched the apprentice and now in bed. Pretty tired so gonna go soon.

Plan for tomorrow (Thu):

• 9-11 - Maryhill Health Centre
• 11-12.15 - travel to base and do admin
• 12.15-12.45 - lunch
• 1-4.30 - locality meeting
• 4.30-5 - travel home
• evening - fitness class at some point but haven't decided which one yet!
• night - catch up on tv, including Shameless!

i raelly miss him so much do u ever get over the loss of someone u love so much??? i should have never gotten married in the first place before i dealt with the loss of jon i loved him more than anything and we were happy together then all my happiness and joy was stolen from me when jon tragicaly commited suicide. i don't think it ever get's easier although people try to tell u it does i just wish it didn't hurrt sooo bad but hopefully someday i can get over all the pain and the hurt and the feelings� of how he'll never get to see his daughter god please help me i miss him sooooo much he's always in my thoughts and i always wonder what might have been !!! does the pain ever stop??? should i have gotten some kind of grief counceling??? now how do i tell his daughter about him the daughter he wanted more than anything and the daughter he never knew he had because i found out i was pregnant 3 weeks after his funeral i reallly and trully wanted to die from the pain of loosing him and even though it's been since dec 03 since he died it's still not any easier i love jon soooooooooooo much someone help me please im going crazy i should love my husband lke he loves me but i can't why why cant i love him the way he's meant to be loved is it because i can't let go and go on??????????????