I HATE ALLERGIES!!!
I don' t even actually have them! I just have allergies like symptoms! I know it sounds odd but thats the diagnossis.. .. diagnostic.. .diagonally.. ..
So my drawing abilities have gone through the roof. Or... thats what my mom says. I believe my drawings have made a great improvement since I started to take drawing seriously. I'll scan some more of my work in on the computer and put it on victoriousmaiden.deviantart.com .My book isn't getting anywhere though because my writer (my sister) isn't writing it because she wants to hang out with her boyfriend. How self-centered is that?
So I watched the movie ACROSS THE UNIVERSE and I freakiing LOVE IT! The music is arranged differently but not too different so that we don't know what the song is.
If anybody who is reading this a Beatles fan, WATCH THE MOVIE!
Thats all for now I guess.... Bye
�}Y{- Nichelle
!TS B@D ENUF ! H@VE MY OWN F@M!LY @G@!NST ME BUT 2 H@VE D@ 1 ! TRULY LOVE AND C@RE @BOUT DOUBT!NG MY LOVE 4 H!M !S D@ WORST FEEL!NG ! CULD FEEL R!TE NOW. KIND OF CR@ZY 2 S@Y BUT ! R@THER WORK OUT TH!NGS W!T D@ 1 ! LOVE DEN 2 KEEP ON TRY!NG 2 PLE@SSE D@ 1'S D@T RE@LLY DNT C@RE. !T HURTS ME 2 TELL H!M ! LOVE H!M BUT ! CNT RE@LLY PROVE !T CUZ ! CNT RE@LLY C H!M ND !T HURTS ME 2 HE@R H!M OR EVEN C H!M UNH@PPY. HE JUS DNT KNW ! WULD DO N E TH!NG 2 M@KE H!M H@PPY ND 2 SHOW H!M ! RE@LLY LOVE H!M SO HE C@N STOP DOUBTING ME EVRYT!ME ! DNT REMEMBER 2 S@Y ! LOVE U OR ! DNT C@L ON T!ME OR ! DNT @NSWER ON T!ME. !TS NOT L!KE ! 4GET 2 S@Y ! JUS @!NT GOT COMFORT@BLE W!T S@Y!N !T YET CUZ ! DNT W@NN@ OVER USE !T OR USE !T @ D@ WRONG T!ME ND !T M@KES H!M EXPLODE OR GET UPSET. !DK ! GUESS !M JUS SC@RED OF GETT!N 2 CLOSE W!T SUM1 @G@!N BUT ! FEEL D@T D!S !S D!FFERENT ND ! W@NN@ KEEP BEL!EVE!NG !T. BUT ! F!N@LLY RE@L!ZED D@T !TS NOT @ CURSE D@T KEEPS H@PP!NESS 4RM B3!N MY FR!END...!TS MY F@M!LY ND D@TS FUCKD WEN PPL JUS H@VE HELL EVRY ONCE !N @WH!LE OR ON CERT@!N D@YS BUT NOT ME ! H@VE HELL EVERYD@Y ND D@TS !F !M NOT ON D@ PHNE W!T MY LOVE. MY LOVE !S @M@Z!NG HE M@KES ME FEEL L!KE ! H@VE LESS WORR!ES. D@TS Y ! LOVE MY LOVE.
Angoisse, angoisse Mr Journal. Pas trouver de job encore. Ma blonde veut que je me consacre a un projet d'entreprise. Moi je veux travailler pour une agence mais le projet d'entreprise m'int�resse... pour cela la proposition de ma blonde : travailler dans un club vid�o � temps partiel en attendend de bien vivre de mon entreprise. Est-ce que j'ai assez de discipline pour cela... je me le demande bien. Aujoud'hui j'ai travailler sur mon site web, je me suis dit tant qu'a travailler dessus pourquoi ne pas le faire comme si cela �tait mon entreprise. Le r�sultat est bien. J'ai choisi le couleur sur COLOURLover un site que j'aime bien pour les couleur. J''ai aussi prit un template pour commencer, un template de floriste... et j'ai tout m�t � l'envers... mais c'est beau et je suis fi�re de mon coup. Ensuite j'ai fait la commande, au lieu d'aller dans un IGA j'ai �t� dans un M�tro... plus loin j'ai marcher avec mon sac � dos rempli de canne et de 3 2L de pepsi Diet (sp�cial 3 pour 5$). J'ai aussi choisi ce matin 3 �tude de cas que je metterais dans mon portfolio... j'esp�re les continuer demain. Apr�s la commande ma blonde m'attendait... elle est dans ces SPM elle est donc un peut plus h�ritable. Elle �tait f�cher car j'avais oublier le Yougourt et des bars tendres... ah oui, et j'ai achet� des pommes comme fruit (trop conservateur pour elle)... heureusement j'ai re�u des ch�que de TPS de plus ce qui me permettra de souffler un peut... car j'ai d�pass� la marge de ma carte de cr�dit en achetant ma tablette graphique wacom blutooth qui en passant ne marche m�me pas... en plus que la tablette ne marche pas... les deux adapteurs blue tooth ne s'installe pas avec Windows XP SP2... j'ai passer la fin de semaine a essayer de faire marcher cette maudite tablette. Je l'ai rapporter au magasin et il faut qu'il la teste et j'esp�re qui vont me l'�changer pour une tablette USB... J'ai aussi pendant ma fin semaine �t� voir une autre �glise... l'�glise Universaliste... tr�s int�ressant... j'ai rencontrer les responsable de la partie francophone de cette �glise de Montr�al il sont tr�s gentil. Je crois que je vais rester dans cette �glise... les gens sont tr�s gentil et de tr�s bonne �ducation. Je suis rester assis avec un Monsieur qui marchait � l'aide d'une marchette et j'ai parler de cette �glise... il me semble plut�t Ath� � l'os... mais il est sympatique... il m'a dit que cette �glise ne me dira pas qu'elle va me sauver... au contraire... elle n'impose pas de dogme... ce qui est bien... elle favorise aussi la libert� de pens�... bref je suis un peut fatiguer... je dois dormir pour continuer les chose que je veux faire.
Every Teenager Has Worries.
What Am I oing To Wear tommorrow.
Why Doesn`tt Anyone Understand Me.
My Math`ss Homework is due in
Justt Lil Thing`ss.
In My Exprience sooo far i had all thesse plus more. theyy all essulated up into one big problem. It Kinda All Started With These Group Of MAte`ss I Hung Owtt With. The Crowd That Smoked Diid Drug`s Etc.�Eventually I Gave Into Peer Presure. And Was Doing All That. My Life Wasn`tt Too Bad Until�This Boy� Came Into itt. Ohh How I Loved Him. I Was Young Butt VEerytime I saw Him I Thought Of Perfection, And Everytime He Smiled My Way Justt Melted My Heart. Calling Him Mine Made Me The Happiest Person ever! I Wasn`t Perfect Butt He Except all My Flaw`ss Accepted Me FAwr Who I Am He Wads NIce Sincer Butt Of All Thing`ss He Was Mine. I Actuall Thought We Could Lastt Forvever Butt On That Saturday Morning Hey Said Thing`ss Werent Workking Owtt. We Should Just BE Mates. I Don`tt Thinkk Anyone Understood How Hard TThat Was For Me. Mascara Runing Down My Face All Day. Every Lil Thing Reminded Me Of Him. I Really Wanted Too Gett Over Himm I Was Silly And Diid Itt In The Stupidest Way Ever. Giving Head Too A Guy I Had Known For About 3 or 4 Week`s. Goshh That Justt Give Me A Reputatiion As A Slutt!!! On That Sunday Night I Gott A Txt- From My Ex Saying
Him'Hey. How`ve You Been?'
Me'Not Soo Good Butt Trynah Gett Better'
Him' Neither. I Can`t Believe I Lett The Bestt Girl In My Life go'
Me' I`m Nott Gonna Lie. Yes Losing You Was The Hardest Thing For Me. And I Still Don'tt understand Why?'
Him' I Never Should Of. I Miss You Like Crazy. I`ld Do Anything too Gett You Back. Hurting You Hurt Me More Then Anything. I Love Youu. Can You Give Us Another Shot. . . PLEASE'
That Was It. I Was Sooo Confused. I Still Loved Him But Wasn`tt Sure If It Was The Right Thing. What If I Got Hurt Again. I Couldnt Bare going Thru That Again. Butt Without Him There Was Really Nothing Good In Life. I Told Him I Would If He Promised Neever To Hurt ME Again. He Said He Couldn`t Do That. At The Time I Believed Him. Butt Lil Did I Know How Bad Hee Could Play With My Heart. ANd How Bad He Could Hurtt ME Again. . .
Alright people. Im not that girl that spills her heart out all over the floor for people to play in the puddle. about 99% if not 100% of my entrys will be set to private... Sorry. Sad to say that my life really 'isnt' ..an open book.
*Jinx
Me and�Eddy* got back together� on May and i promised him i would meet him on december. Things had been going really GOOD between us. He is the most adorable loving man. But i am a�not 4 him�and i never seem to be content with anything good in my life. I always have to push the envelope. I have made him prove over and over and over again that he loves me.
His love for me is not quetionable... not alot of NORMAL ATTRACTIVE HARDWORKING LOYAL LOVING�men would talk to a girl on the phone for 3 years without actually meeting them.
It's been a while.....it seems like i come running to this site when things between me and eddy are @ a down hill. I finally told Eddy the truth(well sort of) about me not meting him...he did not take it so well.
This time i won't shed @ tear (in pubic). it's like i am slowly dying inside(and i derserve it!!!) .
Now i have to go to my sister's wedding thats half way across the world. It will be good to get away......but one can't always run from there problems. It's wierd some part of me actually feels glad that i have told him. I had started to feel really guilty
I hate myself for what i am doing to Eddy but thank god it's almost over. I hope i have the strengh to make the right choice. He is a good man he deserves so much better than me
Hey everyone! So yeah this is my first post, so i guess I should tell you a little about me. My Name is Alicia (UH-Lee-Sh-Uh) but you can call me Misery. I am homeschooled and I am in 9th grade and I'm only 13, I know lol. Well anyways my little Nephues (sp?) they are both twins lol. They are 3 years old. Well yep i better go bye.
Well, im sick and i dont want to do anything right now. But im gonna say that i am on the cheerleading team and i am 12 years old. i am in sixth rade with the best friends youll ever know. im a rebellious little child that talks back to a fucked up teacher that i hate like hell. you knowid rather burn in hell then to be his student. screw him. Well enough said about that, umm i have a myspace at www.myspace.com/scuchi and ask me to be a friend if you like. im very nice and when i do something bad i get really cold. literally i do, i start to shiver and freak out then i cant think about anything but what i did. im not picky when it comes to friends. but if i hear shit about people talking about me behind my back, spreading rumors, gossiping, or saying im something im not ill kick your ass and if your bot sorry then, youll surly be the sorest. im pretty famous in my school for dyeing my hair orange and cutting it shorter than a dweeb. hmm, but i grew back. my fave colour is blue or green.�
Sometimes you put walls up,
not to keep people out,
But to see who cares enough to break them down...
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I thought that was a good one.
That's all! This summer had ended, but I can't say, that I'm upset about it. It was maby the best time in my life...but now...more meeting with friends, more work for me
My love...I don't understand anything about him and about me. I's very hard for me? but I can't sat, that I've dissapointed in him.I want to see him,hug and kiss, but...another question:what wants he.
Hey, I started this journal up mainly because I was bored (it's the school holidays) and because Livejournal kept freezing my computer up >_< it's dumb!
Anyway, I'll start with a proper entry tomorrow�
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