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slug 32, Male, California, USA - 2 entries

Dec 2006
3:24 AM PST

Next week when it's Christmas i am going go to just go to sleep. When i wake up i am just gonna open my presents and just see what i got and just be thankful for what i got for Christmas from my family. And when that day is over and we move to the next day my family and i are just going to stay home or might just go to my uncles house.

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Jboy 32, Male, California, USA - 3 entries

Dec 2006
3:23 AM PST

fat people eat alot just like me friend alex... i love him and his tummy..hahahahaha

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AngelBabe91 33, Female, California, USA - First entry!

Dec 2006
3:19 AM PST

Hay every body! wuz up??? sum 1 coment me & i'll do the same! i promiz!

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Veex0 32, Female, New Jersey, USA - 2 entries

Dec 2006
7:51 PM EDT

Tonight was the saddest night of my life. There were about 300 people waiting at the wake to see Jon. when i finally got to pray at his casket and talk to his parents, it really hit me that i never had a chance to say goodbye. i went and talked to his mom for a while, she told me that he was still with me always, and hes still here, i just can't see him. i told her that he was an amazing person and she started to cry. she really did love him, and so did the other million people including me. but i went outside, and my ffriends were there for me. i really owe them everything. they're great. remember: Words cannot express the grief one feels when one loses love. Then again, wise words can heal wounds and help us reflect on the tragedy. keep your head up Peace ++ Love Vee

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nin 43, Female, Florida, USA - 3 entries

Dec 2006
12:50 AM EDT

Life isn't about finding yourself, its about creating yourself.

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undefined11 35, Female, New Zealand - First entry!

Dec 2006
11:51 PM AEST

Tuesday, December 19th, 2006

ramblings of an E.L.K prt 4

Current mood: b****y

How pathetic must this sound. i will wait around, just for you to change ur mind and decide to talk to me again. the WHOLE world doesnt hate you, the WHOLE world doesnt want to desert you. I will wait for you to decide that you want to talk to me again.. What is it with people? Or is it just people in my life? as soon as i get close to a person they desert me. and im not imagining it. Ash, Jordan, Melinda. I can see they reasons why they did. Well.. Ash just wanted to be popular&get laid, Jordan was sick of me being 'emo' and 'obsessed' with Melinda. And Melinda, got heart broken, so she pretty much hates the world..but i dont understand why she wants to not talk to me. Ive reached out to her a few times, and she didnt respond. im seriously over trusting people. At this point in time, Jess is the only person i trust. and i dont know, if i get hurt by her, or anyone else, im just going to freeze up, not going to trust no-one for a long time. im sick of being hurt by people. all i want is one friend, a best friend, thats all im asking for. someone that wont desert me... ..all i want is for someone thats not like everyone else in my life.. Poem pretty much explains it.. "I didnt break your F***ING heart ive been beside you from the start i wasnt like anybody else in you life i actually gave a damn about you .... but i guess that doesnt matter anymore everyday you kept feeding me your lies 'always and forever baby' 'your the one i want and need' I believed every f***ing word you said you f***ed with my heart, and my head. .... but i guess that doesnt matter anymore i just want things to go back, back to the way they were before, you were mine, and i was yours"

Thursday, December 14, 2006

ramblings of an E.L.K prt3 Current mood: apathetic
I still love you. And it hurts me soo much to know that you love her. i lied to you because i didnt want it to hurt anymore. It was like my whole world shattered when you told me that she was urs. and u were her's. and i didnt fit into your life anymore. I knew she would always be your number one. no matter how hard you tried to tell me that i was, i always knew she was. I just want things to go back to the way they were. you and me. we were both happy yeh? and then you had to risk it all on her and now im depressed, and your depressed. what gud did that do you? I just thought that someone could love me. I swear i loved you with every fibre of my being. i wanted to be with you forever. but even if you gave me another chance. how can i trust you? If you say i mean so much to you. why couldnt you just tell me before it happend? or just after it happend? why didnt you tell me, until like a week later??? Im hurting more then i will ever let on. I lie to everyone. say that im fine. hopefully i will even fool myself. Maybe one day. I can actually smile, and mean it. but for now. its just fake. EVERY F***ING THING REMINDS ME OF YOU!! its like its haunting me. Music.TV shows.Things people say. EVERYTHING. So even if i wanted to get over you i couldnt. Because everything reminds me of you...

Monday, December 11, 2006
ramblings of an E.L.K prt 2
im sick and tired of people telling me what i am. what im not. what i could or shud do. PEOPLE PLEASE. for some reason my whole existance has been an identity crisis. so please get off my f***ing back about everything okay. and im not being emo or anything. im not doing this for attention either. i just really want people to stop judging me. think what you want. i dont want to hear it. and if ur judging me. just f*** off right now i dont want you as a friend.

Sunday, December 10, 2006
ramblings of an E.L.K

well i apologise to everyone i have ever met. i was your stereotypical emo i was making things out to be worse then they were i dont know whether that was because i just hadnt learnt how to be myself or maybe i didnt want to learn/. maybe i was too afraid of who i would really be. okay one last emo thing before i move on i do believe that i become a tad attached to people who are nice to me i dont know why yet.. so just hang in there. im slowly learning to live with it.. prolli cuz ive never had that many friends in the important social stages in ur life. or watever. *s*** i really i need to get over this whole emoish thing* but yeh bottom line i blame everything on being bullied no wait. I dont know. Next year its all going to be different tho i start tafe. basically its like a new start. new people, new me, new everything. im not going to be fake tho. im going to be myself. whatever that is. i am going to figure it out and prove everyone that i can be who i am and not give a s*** what anyone thinks. its about time i started being real. ive lost wayy too many friends being emo. annoying. unpleasable. obsessive. stubborn. fake. so im going to teach myself to be that person that is so much more then the lie that i used to live..

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bananagreen 33, Female, Kansas, USA - First entry!

Dec 2006
7:49 PM EDT

Well i just started this journal thing. I hope it goes ok, because all my others werent so great. I just got back from my church. we had a white elephant thing where we brought a gift and other people did to and you exchange them for the girfts other people brought. sry if that sound confusseing!lol well this weekend i through a surpise b-day party for my besteset friend savanna. it was pretty fun it got boring though because every body couldnt agree on something to do so.....this one chick left because "her head hurt and she didnt feel good" come oon now im not that stupid i walked up to her and i was like if you dont want to stay becasue your bored then just say that dont make up dumb excuses! i was mad! But yeah im gonna go to bed because im bored! bye

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nikinik1107 31, Female, California, USA - First entry!

Dec 2006
2:25 PM EDT

The thing that i give others is respect. I show others respet because the will show respect back.

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BraxtonISBallin 35, Male, California, USA - 2 entries

Dec 2006
2:01 PM EDT

"Hamlet and his mom" Psychologist: wat up hamlet, what have u been up to? Hamlet: Nuthin Much so whats the news u wanted to tell me? Psychologist: Well this may sound a little crazy but... along time ago i was very close to your uncle Hamlet: ... Psychologist: this may sound a little weird but... me and him... kinda... Hamlet: so u... and...did? are u kidding? psychologist: no we loved each other Hamlet:... Psychologist:...

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oktokie 41, Female, Singapore - First entry!

Dec 2006
1:15 PM GMT

i'm feeling sick today..urrghh haven spoken to james for 3 days.Yep i do miss him the most. Maybe i'm beginning to have strong feelings towards him. Shooiitt! i can't have this feeling darn.. i hate to admit that. When i start to like someone, im gonna be addicted to him. Pat? hmmm he's always busy wif his uni. He seems to have lots of secrets that his not telling me!! Hurts me when i'll be the one who found out about him.. geezz Honestly i don't miss him that much though he's away for a week. Even if he's here, he acts like he's not here.. whats the point?? hmm maybe i should end this.... maybe... i dunoe n im terribly confused :S help me someone??

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