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tiahe 32, Female, Canada - 30,332 views

03

Mar 2008
4:53 PM EDT

trust me

I guess everything is changing, and I dunno what I think about any of this. I feel betrayed by friends, and a lot of things are frustrated me. I guess becoming close with new people, cause the old ones to start drifting.. I can't really write much on here, I feel like I can't even trust a personal website, where you're suppose to write everything. I feel like not many people can be trusted anymore, and let alone something like this. It is so annoying how shitty and low people will go, just for someone else. I guess this isn't even entirely about me, well actually very little of it is. I see one of my new really close friends, constantly being betrayed by a lot of people, and I relized how shitty people are now of days. How they will do anything, just to make them feel superior, when really it makes you shittier then the person before you. So many people are like this now, so many people suck at being a good friends, and good friends seem really impossible to find. I am so glad, that I now keep my guard up a lot more then I use to. I don't know what I would do, if every day passed and I had to worry about someone betraying me. It doesn't seem to matter how close you are anymore, because everyone seems to just love to do it, and its happened more then it should have to me in the past.

YOU FUCKING SUCK!!!!!!

1 comment(s) - 07:55 AM - 05/24/2009

annabean 30, Female, Utah, USA - 9,273 views

23

Feb 2008
4:56 AM EDT

Love

It feels like love is just another form of suicide. my friend wrote that on a desk in science class and other girls responded. LOVE IS JUST A WASTE IF U DONT EVEN HAVE A BOYFRIEND.....when will i ever get a boyfriend who understnads me and cares about me....i cant even wear make-up till im 16! or even date! So i think guys are wasted on me...

Tags: boys

2 comment(s) - 11:07 PM - 08/26/2008

jesssie 32, Female, Canada - 50,232 views

31

Mar 2008
7:27 AM EST

Last one

This is probably going to be the last time i write in this thing..everrrrr. Or i hope.

I realized a couple days ago what people are all about. You cant call people your best friends just because they are there some times. You cant call them best friends if you know they talk about you behind your back. Well, I am done with one of my "best friends" & honestly, this year couldnt have been more dramatic, thanks to her. I love hanging out with her, and I love how I have met so many more people thanks to her, but its time to really move on from that. While her telling me little life lessons can sometimes help me out, it discourages me more than anything else. No one is perfect and I'm sure we both have realized that by now; we were so fixated on perfecting this friendship for so long, but nothings perfect. Friends fight. The only problem with this friendship was that we fought over stupid things. And, I dont mean to be the girl who blames it on everyone else, but 95% of the time, the fight was not my fault. It was all her. She has been a hypocrit throughout the entire friendship. She told me a long time ago she thought I was changing when i started to smoke weed & drink. What do you know, she started drinking every weekend and eventually smoked weed as well.. Tells me i shouldnt keep things from her, but she keeps so much from me. Says I shouldnt talk about her, she talks so much about me. Tells me this and that, blah blah blah to the point where its eventually come to me that the entire friendship was a lie. It never seemed real from the beginning, and to be honest it feels like she only became friends with me because of Alex. And now that i have no ties to alex anymore, she could care less about this friggin friendship. And im happy to say that I could care less too.� I also think that while she was telling me to grow up, she was happy she knew all of my passwords to "destroy" my social life.. good one.

Thats basically it.� And i dont care what anyone has to say about that

Tags: alcohol, drinking, passwords, weed

1 comment(s) - 01:24 PM - 05/11/2008

amberfly 49, Male, Iowa, USA - 1,507 views

19

Aug 2007
1:16 AM EDT

Hello all.

aerohottie2525 41, Female, Virginia, USA - 1,478 views

19

Aug 2007
4:21 PM EDT

Omg today was okay. I made the migits team i know that sounds wierd and everything but idc. I have my first practice tommrow at 6:00 pm to 7:30 pm. yea me !!! i have so got to go i am way to freaking excited. peace out

HarleyLawson 32, Male, Oklahoma, USA - 1,456 views

20

Aug 2007
3:26 PM EDT

hey

maskbeforeme 43, Female, Arkansas, USA - 1,534 views

21

Aug 2007
7:04 PM EDT

well... it is late, tired, long day. I have a lot of experiences and emotions built up. while checking some things out I found this place. FINALLY, a place where I can say what I want and what I feel and no one really knows who I am!
I dont people I know about my personal life, even though I have already let a lot out there. my soon to be ex husband has had affairs and just talking about them with people you know makes it very uncomfortable!
after 7 years of marrige this happens, Im still pissed. I forgave but can not forget. the things I have went through the last year with him, my daughter and many guy and friend experiences are enough to knock anyone on their feet. but instead, I have to hold it together. be a single mom and work full time. show my daghter the amount of love I have for her, and want somewhat of a love life.
sometimes when I see me ex remember the love we shared and it feels like we are back in that moment. then I pass the place where he had an affair. or I see a baby boy that looks lke the age of his kid that he had in one of the affairs and all these hurt feeling resurface. on one hand he is an amazing, caring guy who was so in love with me and then there is the other hand... if he still loves me so much how can I even consider getting back with him? if he was SO in love with me and worshipped me like he did before and did what he did and I had no idea then how can I make a marriage work? UGH! aggravation!!! I feel like a failure some days. a faliure as a wife, a mom and a person. so much to say...

couturevixen 38, Female, Wisconsin, USA - 8,041 views

29

Aug 2007
7:43 PM EDT

Well I'm enrolled in school & my 1^st day was scary, exciting, and my start to a positive 2008. My class ended early 6:30 & my mother didn't come pick me up until 8:47pm. I was pissed and then if shit couldn't get any better we got a flat tire down the street from the school. My ass hole poor excuse for a man dad was trying to tell my mother to deal with it on her own instead of being a man & coming right away to get us. These are the reason the hate in my blood for him runs so thick. Gratefully the tow truck came in less then a half hour. I'm home now feeling good still that I'm in school. Can't wait until tomorrow. Class is from 6:30 to 9:25pm. I seen one cute black dude well dressed to but I'm not interested I'm focused. One black dude tried to get at me. He cool much older then me but he is not my type at all. Not many black people out in mequon but I see some girls who may be cool to get to know. This should go well. Looking forward to the growing experience that this will bring.

VyVy 32, Female, California, USA - 1,641 views

24

Aug 2007
8:12 AM PDT

My "finest moment" was when i was with my friends, that's it, until a couple months ago!!! When i first came to U.S, i didn't have any friends and did not understand the language, it was when i met T. She helped me with a lot of things and i thought we were good friends. When i brought her home to introduce to my mom, mom told me that she thinks T. wasn't a good friend and i should keep a distance from her, but i didn't believe my mom. I thought she was just being overprotective like most of the parents do. Then, we went on to the next school year, we met a whole lots of new friends and made it our small army. At first, everyone talked to me, asked me for advices, said they couldn't do without me, etc..... Then, T. took over. She was now the center of everything. She shanged from a serious person to the kind always acted dumb enough for people to think that she's cool!! I was okay with that. I mean, i never really care about being the center of anything. All i ever care was that i don't want to be left-out. Then, after T. changed, i made friend with another girl, H. At first, i thought she was a good friend, but she'd proved me wrong, but i was stupid enough to believes that she'll change for me because i was a good friend to her and eventually she'll notice that. But no, she betrayed me lots and lots of time. Then, as our freshman year was about to end, everything broke out. T. led her little group of friends into bullying me and H. was the one who passed her all the information about me at the time when i thought she'd stick by me. After i'd found out the truth, i felt like a biggest fool of the world. Betrayed by my own best-friends, left with miserable and grieves. Throughout everything, i've learned not to trust anyone anymore. I'd poured out my own heart to them, but what did i get in return? BETRAYALS!!! Now, my "finest moment" has become my "saddest experience"

kitty 60, Female, South Carolina, USA - 1,668 views

25

Aug 2007
10:33 AM C

Hey i am new here.

gmcgrath 59, Male, United Kingdom - 2,238 views

03

Sep 2007
6:45 AM GMT

Last night in Church Jelena was talking about the Mind and the battle for it. She said that Christian's thoughts of the past few weeks about Asking, Seeking and Knocking had made her think about this and evaluate how she is living and functioning.

It was very challenging and I know that God wants to deal with me in the area of my mind because this is by far the biggest battleground for me. When things go wrong, when wrong decisions get made they are made because I have allowed myself to think in an undisciplined way. I mean how on EARTH can a grown man operate without any control over his mind.

"As a man thinks in his heart so he is."

Jesus said that what comes OUT of a man will show you what he really is. Funny that eh? Whats spent time in his mind, what he's allowed himself to mull over...taken time to allow those thots to take hold.

2 CORINTHIANS 10:3-5 "For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ."

Our warfare is to be spiritual because we are dealing with spiritual forces. What battles we win, we win in the mind first. What battle we lose, are lost in the mind.

Why is it then that so many Christians think so little about what they allow into their minds. Martin Luther said about this subject that "you cannot stop birds from flying over your head but you can stop them from making nests in your hair."

Very practical thoughts but until you start to make conscious choices, it all remains some nebulous thought, a great principle that someone talked about... and great sermon. If i go away from last night and just think that and dont actually start to make choices then thats all it becomes to me too.

I found this random page when I searched for the word "strongholds" and I thought this part was very good so I'll share it.

ROMANS 6:16"Don't you know that when you offer yourselves to someone to obey him as slaves, you are slaves to the one whom you obey."

JOHN 10:10,11 "The thief (Satan) comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full (Abundant Life). I am the good shepherd ..."

I. EVERYONE HAS STRONGHOLDS(From material by Bruce Wilkinson)

II. CHARACTERISTICS OF STRONGHOLDS:
1. The stronghold exists in the person's MIND (the stronghold is a lie)
2. The stronghold is deceitfully hidden from the person's awareness.
3. The stronghold has existed for considerable time.
4. The stronghold has tempted the person to sin repeatedly.
5. The stronghold repeatedly overpowers the person, creating hopelessness.
6. The stronghold has many intellectual and emotional defenses.
7. The stronghold is actively and aggressively opposed to God and His truth.

Reading through these thoughts I can see so clearly things in my own life that have become strongholds and how they have done their work of controlling and distracting me.

Paul talks in 2 Cor 10:5 about "bringing every thought into captivity." Practically its like training yourself in anything new. If you've not done it before, or you've let something get in the way, starting again can be a bit of a struggle at first. Remember when you learned to ride a bike at first? lol

Last night after I'd had time to think about these things, I had a great chance to put this into practice and while I didn't do that well, (I reacted to things said to me in a selfish way) through it all I was actually conscious of the process and what was happening.

Lord make me aware of the process, as I do deal with people and throughout my day, of what I allow my heart to dwell on, of the thought processes that I allow my mind to enter into.

Every thought must be brought into captivity. Imagine a conquering army. The battle coming to an end but there are skirmishes and each group we come across must be controlled and captured, wrestled to the ground and subdued.

kabamori 84, Male, France - 6,463 views

11

Sep 2007
11:18 PM EDT

the resource natural verse recycling
the new technology is pride to prove to the world, they are working so hard to help the world with the new tech.now my concern is about africa future and about his resource natural,the evolution is moving so fast that we don"t know how fast it's will go.my question is this: recycling and resource natural between this two whose going to be the big loser, as the evolution move forward what going to happen to the resource natural africa .the world is opening to recycling now.
you can answer this question:

1: why africa remain undevelop?

2: is the poverty was plent in africa?

3: what is the cause of poverty in africa?

4: whose we will blame for africa poverty?

5: colonization is over,why now africa don't progress?

6: the development of africa is the resource natural or is the ideology?

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Tags: resource natural

fongyuen 51, Female, Hong Kong SAR - 2,452 views

10

Apr 2008
6:24 PM AWST

已經有一段時間沒有再寫日誌, 雖然我知道它的功效, 但一直以來我也沒有這份毅力, 這不正是我的性格嗎 ? 做事沒有恆心, 三分鐘熱度.�

說說近況吧, 去年年底，我已經接受浸禮，正式成為教會的一份子，也開始了新的事奉崗位．剛剛過去的３月，　我和舊中學同學去了張家界鳳山市自助旅行，這是我第一次在中國的自助旅行，過程也有喜有悲．

而最近的這兩個星期，　情緒不是十分隱定, 常常會有負面思想, 樣樣事都提不起勁, 我知道這樣下去不是辨法, 但又可以怎麼辦?我己經很努力地學習改變，學習積極思想，學習與負面思想抗衡，但羅馬不是一天可以建成，我需要忍耐，　期望未來可以更好．

Tags: emotion, myself, situation

satinlady 64, Female, Florida, USA - 43,828 views

29

Mar 2011
5:35 PM CST

" Loving Hands"

Your loving hands that brings so much pleasure,
�that were so soft and tender, to have known more
hours than those that died in one night of kindling
�wine and faded flowers.
Your loving hands that I have kissed finger by finger,
� I left a brcelet on each,made by my lips.
� loving hands,mine all one night with such delight.
�i will always recall those loving hands,that was mine one
� night,But no longer is mine ,but life go on and we forget.

�� Wrote by: Hilda(AKA satinlady)

1 comment(s) - 11:38 AM - 08/12/2011

koolkat 27, Male, New York, USA - 1,544 views

31

Aug 2007
9:07 PM EDT

THERE ARE THESE BOYS, David ,Terrelle, Brian, and Khyan.

They are some of theboys that like me that it gets to the point

jgonyea 40, Female, Georgia, USA - 5,294 views

22

Sep 2007
5:21 AM EDT

The truth sucks. Last night as Danny and I were taking a shower to get ready to go out and celebrate my birthday, he casually slips out he doesn't see himself getting married. This is like history repeating itself. My last boyfriend who is named Dan told me the same thing when we were dating...We got passed it, and he ended up cheating on me before we really had to deal with it. But here I am again, except this time I moved to Georgia to be with him, 8 hours away from my family and now a month into living together this is what he tells me.

We went out and went to a bar that was not great, so we left and went to jeckle and hydes. I didn't think it was that bad, but apparently he was not having a good time. He stopped talking to me, and just started pouting almost. When I told him to smile and try to havea good time he told me to " just fucking watch the rock band". So that was pretty much the highlight of my birthday. Our lease is not up here until the end of Jan. and we were planning on moving to Cobb county, but last night he also said I am moving to Cobb county with our without you. I told him I didn't like when he said things like that, and he said, well that is just how it is....It is amazing how things can be so great and turn to shit so fast.....

Happy Birthday to me

Tags: The truth sucks

als 30, Female, New York, USA - 1,708 views

04

Sep 2007
5:07 PM EDT

yay yay yay yay yay

i found my answer to my soccer thing it is 66666666 yay schoolstarts tommorw yay yes an no well i love this new coths yayyyy

jklotz 39, Male, Florida, USA - 1,511 views

03

Sep 2007
3:08 PM EDT

I am currently attending Stetson University as a managment major. I am a Jr. and this is going to be my most important year at college. I have to decide whether or not I wish to attend graduate school and if so, which one? Although I originally had planned to attend graduate school at Stetson, I do not know if thats what I really want to do. I am very interested in attending a school outside the state of Florida, which had never really been a logical choice for me in the past. I know this decision will have a huge influence on what career I choose to persue, and where I persue that career. I am very anxious to start a career, however I still have numerous goals for this year and next year to ensure I get the best opportunity possible.

MyTeenageFairytale 32, Female, United Kingdom - 4,725 views

28

Oct 2007
8:03 PM BST

I had no idea how long i havent written on this for!!
In my last entry i didnt relise when i had left bennys party .. ryan pulled sophie watts.
OUCH!!
we parted for less than a week, then i took him back.
Everyone thinks im an idiot for doing soo .. but im inlove with him ..!
My decision i suppose .. although already im beginning to regrett it. Everytime i think about it... i get a pain that feels like im being stabbed in the chest!!!
I can't live like that all the time. Im only 15!

Anyways on a brighter note ... me and mika are doing very well! .. he came to rosies house wiv ollie last monday (half term) .. and we had soo much fun!!
He has admitted a few times that he really 'likes' me .. and although i think hes REALLY HOT!!!! ... i dnt want to do anything about it whilst im goin out wiv ryan cuz i kno exactly how itl feel for him!!! =[
being cheated on sucks!

im off ..ox

hailey8908 35, Female, Indiana, USA - 7,614 views

18

Dec 2007
9:12 AM EDT

ummmmm

ugggggg another day with snow out side tell me will this stuff every go away!? It's far much a better day when it rains than anything else.

1 comment(s) - 08:29 PM - 12/19/2007

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