Dear Mommy,
I can't find you anywhere,
I love you,
don't you care?
I no longer want to live,
because of what I did.
Why Mommy,
Why?
Why am I hurting this way,
you didn't love me,
you left and turned my blue skies gray.
Why Mommy?
Why today?
forget it,
you'll never see the pain inside this heart,
behind these eyes,
Something told me,
it all was a lie.
That you never cared,
never wanted nor needed me to be there!
I miss you Mommy,
what did i do,
that was no good?
Why am I,
left with words mis-understood,
with lies and broken burdens,
It's my own life I have stolen,
so Why Mommy?
Did you ever love me?
Did you ever care?
Did you ever need me,
just to be right there?
KL
She looked into his eyes,
time after time,
to now believe that she would never,
again,
See those eyes,
that always made her smile.
"So remember,
it's never Good-Bye;
Just see you in a while,"
he said as he spoke,
about the dead.
"Remember,
it's the smiles,
that mean so much more,
than tears.
Let God unsurpress all of your fears."
She smiled and bowed her head,
as her eyes turned red,
because of tears she's tasted,
knowing this time,
they weren't wasted.
Today,
was the last time.
that tears,
for you,
will fall from these eyes.
it rained,
inside and out,
flooded our dream house.
You're son and I cried,
over and over we� broke with time.
So today is the last time will call.
because this is the last time,
I will ever choose to fall.
She woke up,
and turned off the alarm.
No blood,
is to flow from this arm.
She looked out the window,
cold and shallow,
She held her hands.
"When will you come back again?"
She asked as the stinging tears,
swelled behind her eyes.
she couldn't believe it.
You're gone for good this time.
I don't where i am,
today,
im gone and back again.
I've lost me my self and i,
to so many different things.
But today,
I've turned around,
and walked back,
to the ground,
where i stumbled and fell.
There's nothing I can't do,
that's why im walking away from you.
As i cry,
the diamonds fall from the sky,
as i cry,
the willow's weep,
i fall to my feet,
i cry,
because you no longer need me.
As I cry,
you walk away,
the pain begins to dance my days away.
no one stops to see,
the heart,
that's been torn right up,
and out of me.
daddy,
you're little girl is scarred,
mommy,
you're little girl wishes,
that you were there.
I havn't posted anything in a while.
Alot has changed.
1. I'm completly && totally in love.
2. I've known this guy for 4 years, so stfu about being to young to be in love. (i'll tell you more about him when i have more time to write.)
3. I'm still having the same weird feelings that i was having in my last posts.
4. I'm getting increasingly better at the piano.
5. I got a kick ass camera. <3
6. Writing has become a huge part of my life, i'll post some of my quotes/sayings/poems at the bottom of this entry...
7. There is way to much stuff on my mind to number it all.
001.
i wish i would've died in your arms the last time we were together. so i wouldn't have to wake without you today
002.
but the most important thing is, even if we're apart, i'll always be with you
003.
You know you’ve read a good book when you turn the last page and feel as if you’ve lost a friend
004.
You're in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won't tell you that he loves you. And you feel like you've done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you're tired. You're in a car with a beautiful boy, and you're trying not to tell him that you love him, and you're trying to choke down the feeling, and you're trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you've discovered something you don't even have a name for
^^my favorite^^
005.
You have a choice. Live or die. Every breath is a choice. Every minute is a choice. Every time you don't throw yourself down the stairs, that's a choice. Every time you don't crash your car, you re-enlist
006.
Most days from the moment i wake to when i go to sleep at night....im unhappy. When i met you, all that changed
007.
And id rather be outside in the freezing rain with you than to be warm in the arms of someone else.
008.
I�guess what i like best about you is how you can make me laugh even when nothing's funny.
Yes ppl it's that time of year again, that's right Valentine's day is fast approaching and anyone who knows me knows that this time of year depresses the crap out of me so i have written another poem about it
AGAIN A YEAR?
You owe me nothing
Not even a tear
It's Valentine's Day
Yes it's been a year
I'm dead and hollow
sitting here
Limp and numb
As seasons pass
Yet still you blink,
not one lash.
Summers gone
And winter's passed
So in my wrist
I carve a gash
At first it trickles
Till at last,
My vein's run cold
And life has passed
In death there's warmth
And summers last
Again we're friends
Just like our past
And again my friend
I learn to laugh
But that was then
and this is now
So I stop to wonder about how
How it came to this
Is this the end?
But still I have one question then
My Question is;
HOW DID IT COME TO THIS?????
ajax88 36, Female, DC, Washington, USA - 23 entries
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