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loveKL92 32, Female, Ohio, USA - 18 entries

Oct 2009
8:22 AM EDT

Why Mommy, why?

Dear Mommy,

I can't find you anywhere,

I love you,

don't you care?

I no longer want to live,

because of what I did.

Why Mommy,

Why?

Why am I hurting this way,

you didn't love me,

you left and turned my blue skies gray.

Why Mommy?

Why today?

Dear Mommy,

I love you,

forget it,

you'll never see the pain inside this heart,

behind these eyes,

Something told me,

it all was a lie.

That you never cared,

never wanted nor needed me to be there!

Why Mommy?

Why?

I miss you Mommy,

what did i do,

that was no good?

Why am I,

left with words mis-understood,

with lies and broken burdens,

It's my own life I have stolen,

so Why Mommy?

Why today?

Did you ever love me?

Did you ever care?

Did you ever need me,

just to be right there?

Why Mommy,

Why?

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loveKL92 32, Female, Ohio, USA - 18 entries

Sep 2009
5:51 AM EDT

Last Time

Today,

was the last time.

that tears,

for you,

will fall from these eyes.

Today,

it rained,

inside and out,

flooded our dream house.

Today,

You're son and I cried,

over and over we� broke with time.

So today is the last time will call.

because this is the last time,

I will ever choose to fall.

Tags: heart broken, heartbreak, kl, last time, poem

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RollerCoasterLove 39, Female, California, USA - 2 entries

Aug 2007
4:12 PM EDT

Sometimes i just dont understand what ive done wrong. one day he acts like he loves me, the next he acts like i annoy him. im trying to become a better girlfriend, but hes not trying to be a better boyfriend. it doesnt help that all his friends are younger and more immature and dont have serious girlfriends to understand his situation. i think when he gets around them, he changes. into this "single" guy who doesnt give a fuck about me. im always tryna talk about our problems and tryna resolve it, but just randomly outta nowhere hell make it seem like he dont wanna try. when just yesterday he told me "i love you" "i miss you" "im thinking about you". and today i say "am i ur girlfriend" and he tells me "not really." and i say ur throwing me off telling me u love me one day and the next im not ur girlfriend. and he tells me "u threw me off when you moved out". is he tryna make me feel guilty? is he having money issues? financial problems stressing him out? and he blames me? i wanna work things out but how can i with someone whos not willing to try...instead i think to myself why dont i just walk away from all of this. just say fuck him and end it all for good... one day were okay. the next it seems like its all over. its this up and down roller coaster. ive try to change.. ive been making him dinner, avoiding issues i would usually argue about that upsets me... but i guess he doesnt see it. hes too stubborn to see where im coming from.. i kno theres a lot hes done, or hasnt done,to upset me, but im tryna see from his point of view and quitting all the "nagging", the fighting, the arguing.. im tryna do things for him to remember why he fell for me. but with him.. he just doesnt see me as something fortunate to have.. what do i do? i love him.. i dont want all this to end.. i just want everything to be okay again

Tags: betrayed, boyfriend, confused, cry, girlfriend, heartbreak, hurt, lonely, lost, love, sad, tears, upset

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