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    stabri  59, Female, Wisconsin, USA - 3 entries
09
Nov 2007
7:35 PM CST
   

know when to fold em

This is day 4 and it is hell. I have made the decision to go into a detox center for however long it takes to get this poison out of me. It is way too painful to do cold turkey. I am not sure what they will give me to help, but it has to be better than this. My whole body is in trauma, needing the drug that it is so used to. I am exhausted, yet can't sleep; starving, but can't eat; wanting more than anything to think of something other than the drug that got me here, but that is all that I can see. This is evil personified. I have absolutely no control right now. I just want to be normal, happy, alive. I want to enjoy a sunny day, want to take walks with my husband, want to read a book again. I cannot do anything because I am always consumed with either getting drugs or I am nodding out because I am high. I hate it. I hate the places I find myself in, the people I find myself dealing with just to feed the animal. I am not that person. I am better than that, have more to offer than that. I go in tomorrow. Scared, but ready to start my life. If anybody reads this, please keep me in your prayers. I'll be back.
3 comment(s) - 12:48 PM - 12/02/2007

    EvilChibi  36, Male, Iowa, USA - First entry!
07
Nov 2007
9:27 AM EDT
   

My First Day Here

I was told by one of my friends that this was a very place to go to let off some steam after a long day of work or school. I created my character, did some shopping and even organized my first house. My cousin has a gaia account and while I was visiting her it occured to me that just maybe this would be a good idea.
Well I can say with great pride that this was a very good idea! I love this place! When you do something good you get candy or gold and I love that! So If someone out there happens to read this and thinks me amusing enough to talk to at length then feel free to message and we can go from there.


    testing01  42, Male, India - 6 entries
05
Nov 2007
8:44 PM I
   

hello Friends Call me on +91-9970813676 if want to make friendship

    liailian  32, Female, China - 15 entries
04
Nov 2007
9:43 PM HAY
   

...

who knows
simon's rock???

    ckf14m  49, Female, Texas, USA - First entry!
04
Nov 2007
7:18 PM EDT
   

Equally yoke

After the sermon today I question my relationship with my boyfriend of nine years. What is it that we have in common. I don't even think that there is a committment on my part any more, because I look at the relationship that my friends have with their husbands and I don't have that with him, because I won't lie to people and stay this is my husband. It is what it is. I am ready to go to the next level with someone so I can feel whole.

    mkxXx  49, Female, New Hampshire, USA - First entry!
03
Nov 2007
6:12 AM EDT
   

today

well to day i had a fun day i went out with ash and we brought some sweets and then came back to hers and had lunch then we started to play a game.
then ash had to go out and i am sitting here being my usual self and i am having fun with my cuz round later i am going to see fireworks then we are going to have a curry..



I NO I AM GOING TO HAVE A GREAT TIME XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

    chick123  26, Male, Washington, USA - 3 entries
01
Nov 2007
1:22 AM EDT
   

Dear Friernds,

how are you?
tonight didn't go se well it was terrible and i hated it my mum foind out everything tonight so that was geart..

From Sarah


    closetemo  33, Female, Georgia, USA - 3 entries
31
Oct 2007
9:58 AM EDT
   

IT'S HALLOWEEN!!! i WILL HAVE PICS UP SOON.

    HeartAttackGirl  35, Male, Arizona, USA - First entry!
30
Oct 2007
5:21 PM EDT
   

Relationships- there are those that open you up to something new and exotic. Those that are old and familiar. Those that bring up lots of questions. Those that bring you somewhere unexpected. Those that bring you far from where you started. And those that bring you back.And even when you'relooking for love(like me);Ridiculous, Inconvenient, Consuming, Can't-Live-With-Out-Each-Other Love. You have to realize many things:

You can never get to your future, if the past is present.And the best relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. If you can find someone to love the you, You love. Well then that's just Fabulous.

You need to realize what true love REALLY is:
Those butterflies. That feeling that is incomprehensible. The knowing in your heart that your flaws are suddenly beautiful. The abrupt friendship, trust, respect and integrity you have for someone.And the urge to better yourself, not only for that person, but for your own good.As well as MANYother stupendous feelings.

You also have to realize that your mistakes and bad decisions in life are what make your destiny. Perhaps if you never veered off course, you wouldn't fall in love or have babies, or be who you are. After all, season's change, so do cities. People come and people go in and out of your life. But it's comforting knowing the one's you love are always in your heart-and if you're lucky, just a plane ride away.

There are times in our lives when we meet the 'perfect guy'. Some one tall, dark and handsome. Someone who meets all your needs. Someone who financially secures your. Someone who is perfect on paper;all your friends and family love him. But you have to realize that there is no such thing of ANYTHING perfect. There is only close to perfect.And when you meet the guy who fufills all your needs, burns your desires, is funny, has goals, stands up for you, fights to make it work and has a million flaws that you can't help, but love. That's when you've truely found 'the one' who completes you. Because in the end; you just want to be with the one who makes you laugh.

When you've found that guy-dont let him go. The best things in life, fall into your lap, but it's YOUR job to fight to keep it there. Don't let him know everyday that you love him(it's not the most important thing). Because EVERY guy would give up, knowing their girl loved them, just to feel adequet and respected. So tell him every day how proud you are of him. How much you respect him, appreciate him,how he is everything you need, and how he is your hero.Let him know 'You are my friend, my family, my insides. You will be fine.You will be famous.You will have everything because that's how important you are to me'.

It will be hard to hold onto 'the one'. When you are faced with something you have been waiting for your entire life. You tend to react erratically. Because you notice all these changes occuring in your lifethat make you want to cry tears of joy. And the thought and chanceof you losing that, is atrocious.Though that person is supposed to be your best friend, how you act around them sometimes differ's from how you would act around your other friends. The reason for this is simple: 'the one' completes you. So OBVIOUSLY things about you will change. And that's ok. It's all for the best. But don't get caught up in those facts just be yourself;who you are with 'the one'.

If for some reason you lose 'the one'. Move on. Throw yourself into the other parts of your life. Though you will be incomplete without them. Realize and be realistic in knowing that you have spent your whole life, before them, and been just fine. And don't dwell on what you did wrong in the relationship because in the end, be happy for the memories you get to carry with you FOREVER, with that person. Cause' memories are better than never having anything with 'the one'.

And last, but not least, remember:
A smart girl listens,but doesn't belive.Kisses, but doesnt fall in love.And leaves before she is left.

(...I guess im just a big dumby.)


    irishbaby  33, Female, Indiana, USA - First entry!
30
Oct 2007
5:16 PM EDT
   

Today i talked to my friends, at lunch, and one of my friends was being mean to me, i didn't know what to say, i was like omg! why is he doing this to me, does he know that i like him as a boyfriend? does he know that i really want to kiss him? what else does he know??? I wish that someday that he can be nice to me, i just don't understand, i just don't! i wish that i love him more then anything in the world, but god is first! I love god, but i love my friend sooo much. I just can't do this alone... i mean i just want to talk to him abt what going on with him... I just wanted to! but MAYBE he likes me? :$.. i'm just worried that he might not like me back. i like alot of ppl. but hes the right 1. because we have alot in commons! i'm serious! i swear! thx to all to my friend!



Ashley C. 10/30/07
1 comment(s) - 05:30 PM - 11/04/2007

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