Job Corps: The Journey October 18, 2007 So today is officially my third day at Job Corps. A lot has gone on that I don't have time to explain at this point but will do my best. To sum it all up in one word: confusing. Trying to get situated, figuring out where my dorms were and finding out I'm on somewhat of a different schedule than the normal student or so it seems. The staff are super friendly and professionable. The food isn't as great as good ol' home cooking, but it sure beats popcorn and cookies for lunch and dinner. Just kidding...sorta. Yesterday I got the generic tour of the campus, ate more cafeteria food and basically went around meeting people mass the majority of the day. I gotta admit, Ihave really been feeling challeneged and struggling a bit since I got here. It's not that I haven't had a great time so far but it also been quite a shock to see everything that I am. I walked off that bus and immediately felt different because I know I am. The top three things I spotted about most kids that are different from me is: 1) They swear. Big time. 2) 75-85% of the kids smoke and 3) Many conversations I am around are plain gross. It's not a diss on anybody up here but these are the three things I noticed right away that are different from who I am. I feel like I'm a small minority of people whose beliefs, values and morals are relatively the same. The atmosphere is totally different from what I am used to. I know that God has brought me up here for more reasons than just to learn a good trade. I am convinced that somehow I should be doing something for God but just am not sure of what. I will not lose faith nor hope for it brings me comfort to know that there is something greater in life to look forward to than this. One of my roommates last night was asking "Why am I here? What's the point of being miserable here if there's nothing worth living for at all?" I know I'm butchering his question a bit but I had a sudden thought regarding it. I pulled out my bible and I read him Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have in store for you" declares the Lord, "Not to harm you but to prosper you..." and something like that. I need to memorize that verse. That's the basic message I told him was that God already has a plan for him and that we all (my roommates and I) are up here for a reason, whatever that reason may be we don't know. What I do know is that we are called to serve God and bring Him glory in everything we say, think and do. My desire is to serve the purpose that is in store for me up here. Yes, my emotions have been on a roller coaster ride since I got here but I have not lost sight of my goals and reasons for coming here. Most everything is easier said than done, especially when serving the Lord. I know that as long as I continue to lean on God these obsticals with the kids, the challenges of learning rules that haven't been explained and all else will fall in place. I am told that these next 2-4 weeks will be the hardest. If I could have one prayer request, it would be that no matter what happens in the course the time here that I keep a level head and keep my focus on God and my goals. I will write more when I have time. For now I must go. K.R.E.
wow!!!it has been a really long long long time since i have written in u the last time I wrote on this was in like febuary!!!!!!!! Well of course my life is so awesome!!!!!!!! I don't like aaron anymore... I have the best boyfriend anyone could ask for!!!He is so sweet and I love him. His name is Brandon and yes we are still dating!!!!!! I know really long time he asked me out on I think January 25 or 26,2007 one of them and today is October 16,2007 9 months and something days but anyways he loves me so much!!! I was goin to kiss him today but I just well u know I kinda chickened out Thank God He Didnt Know About The Kiss!!!!!!! It was going to be a surprize!!!I would have been so embarresed if he knew and then I chickened out. Well a lot has gone by. I'm in the 7th grade my best friends from Dingeman are at the Marshall and by the way they just built a new one. Yipee... so me and the rest of the 7th, 6th, and 8th grade are all new!!! Me, Maria, and Hadeel were not really friends anymore because of this huge fight on myspace and all that shit but anyways... were just aquantinces I love my new and old friends. I have a really heathey life its perfect well thats all I can say soya dev
I get a feeling of grief inside my stomach, everytime aneagle flies above me. Something aboutit's grace, makes me want to soar right along side him, but I know that I can't, for I have no wings. Theeagle saw my pained expression, for one day, he flew right down to me, and asked. "Why are you so sad?" I replied."Because I want to fly with you, but I have no wings." He laughed. "Is that so?" Then he leaned in secretly. "Well, I have always wanted walk, but I have short legs, and I wobble." He sighed. "Flapping my wing's gets oh so tiring." I stared at him in disbelief. "But flying would be amazing! You could soar over roofs of houses, and no chain can hold you. You're free." "Roofs become boring and I've always wanted to go inside a building. I'm sure it would beso ornate, Id never get bored." He flapped his wings irritably. I shuffled my feet. "You really think so?" I had asked him. "Of course." Then he said. "I would give anything to see the sky from a window, the light reflecting through the glass. It would be so beautiful." As we said goodbye, and I went back inside, and I saw for the breifest second, the light reflect off the window and form a rainbow around the room. The eagle had been right. It was very beautiful.
It's been almost a year since I've written on here. So many things have changed, and yet so many have stayed the same. I want to ask Justin so badly several things but I know the answer I'll get "I don't know" or "I don't think about it". What if he never saw me again? Would he be okay with that? I think about him daily, do I ever cross his mind other than when my nickname comes on Guitar Hero? Could he live without ever kissing me again? Does he keep seeing me only out of routine and habit because he doesn't want to try and find someone else? Does he keep coming back to me because I know him and know how he is and he doesn't feel like getting to know another girl? I don't know if he'll ever be able to take a chance and for real "date" again. He says the next three years scare him. I don't understand why, he knows where he's going to college, what he's going to study and even what job he'll have when he gets out. Will he one day just wake up and realize I've been standing in front of him the past year and a half? I doubt it. I think some other girl will come along and knock him off his feet. Maybe she can break the wall he's built up thanks to his last girlfriend. I don't think it'll be me though. I have realized that it's easier for me to deal with him than anyone else though. I guess we're alike in that we don't want to figure out another person, when we know each other well enough already. I know that no one else kisses me like he does and that I don't get nearly as excited about any other guy as I do about him. Going through a few guys at the start of the school year helped me realize that I'd rather have Juice break my heart than anyone else, because I know what to expect when he does. I know him and know his way of doing things. I trust him to break my heart the same way every time by just walking away. Every time he leaves, he takes a little bit of me with him.
Travel Journal; Restaurant Blog: Destin, Florida Tuesday: Home Wednesday: Fudpucker's Thursday: Joe's Crabshack Friday: Hooter's Saturday: Ordered in Dominoe's Wednesday: At Fudpucker's we saw the alligators but didn't feed them. We didn't buy any t-shirts. I signed the wall and the table so people will know that I was there. Thursday: At Joe's Crabshack Alyssa, Kelsey, Kaitlyn, and I went out on the playground and played tag. It was fun beacuse there were so many places to hide in. I bought a cute t-shirt. Friday: At Hooter's the boys couldn't keep their tounges in their heads. They were VERY happy with our waittress. Brandon bought a Hooter's t-shirt and Christain bought a Hooter's calnedar. Afterwards we went to the Go-kart track. The boys rode the wooden track and then they rode the family track with me. Christain got in front of me and wouldn't let me pass. Finally I got in front of him and wouldn't let him pass.
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