irishbaby's Journal

Today i talked to my friends, at lunch, and one of my friends was being mean to me, i didn't know what to say, i was like omg! why is he doing this to me, does he know that i like him as a boyfriend? does he know that i really want to kiss him? what else does he know??? I wish that someday that he can be nice to me, i just don't understand, i just don't! i wish that i love him more then anything in the world, but god is first! I love god, but i love my friend sooo much. I just can't do this alone... i mean i just want to talk to him abt what going on with him... I just wanted to! but MAYBE he likes me? :$.. i'm just worried that he might not like me back. i like alot of ppl. but hes the right 1. because we have alot in commons! i'm serious! i swear! thx to all to my friend!