dee23's Journal

12

May 2007
3:09 PM GMT

just another dull rainy day here nothing going on my sister is going to email me some new recipies yum yum she said theres lots for cakes and currys so gues what i will living on yep cakes and curry well there has been worse diets out there like the green and red diet and no meat diet not that i need adiet just the opisite i need to gain weight not loose it but iv'e always been this size guess that wont change now .

11

May 2007
5:15 PM GMT

another week done one more week closer to retiring what will i do then .any ideas .i dont get out a lot as i'm going blind and need some one with me when i'm out they say i'm a danger to my self thats what they recon .more like they dont fancy cleaning me of the front of the number three bus lol .only kiding i probably would get run over if i tryed to cross a road it's like beeing two again always have to have someone with me every time i move some one saying where you going or what you doing .i know i walk into things a lot but if you dont laugh i'd cry anyway brusies go away in a couple of days .not much else happing at the moment so ill go now

09

May 2007
6:33 PM GMT

well only ten weeks till i retirer and no i'm not that old yet only 35 but due to ill health i have no choice but what will i do with my self all day long every day .my work keeps me sane i take disabled kids to and from school and when you look at those kids and see how happy they are despite all their problems it gives you a swift kick and you relise how luck you are .i will miss each and every one of them they make me smile when im down and remind me life could be a lot worse what will i do with out my little mates? over the years i recon i have got to know about 100 plus kids and i'm always sad when they move on but now i now this is the end i feel depressed and sad to think i wont see them every day cos you do get attached to them the kids i have at the mo i've had for three years and will miss them tons .i'm still in touch with one of my favourite kids hes 21 now and still sends me christmas cards and invites me to he's birthday partys so at least i still have him to visit .

06

May 2007
1:54 PM GMT

feeling better today not so down think i just needed sleep i still need a good night out on the town tho .just a quiet day today no major dramers with thew dog or the car or the kid for once so just going to sit back and relax for once and enjoy the long week end thank god for bank holidays ,

05

May 2007
9:29 PM GMT

life can be so lonley when your get up and go has got up and went .sometimes i feel as tho life is passing me by .i supose it happens to every one at some point in their life you just feel as tho your beeing left behind in the rat race have you ever felt like saying stop the world i want to get off ?i guess im just a bit lost at the min or rather i just need a good nights sleep or even better a holiday god whats one of those i havent been away in years neverhave a night child free it's more the case where i look after every one elses kids so they can have a night off i seem to back of the line for night off .ithink thats what i realy need is a night out on the town with my mates havent done that in a while well enough self pity from me i bet your board by now

04

May 2007
6:41 PM GMT

today we had an od visitor to our garden not the regular birds that come by every day no it was a phesant it was just walking round the garden looking like it owned the place it didn't even bother to move when the dog barked at it just raised it's head and cooley wandered next door .nothing else today just same old stuff

03

May 2007
5:15 PM GMT

nothing much today oh i've been invited to yet another party must be something in the water and yes this one is in may too only this one is a 90th birthday it's one of my neighbours.still got same car seems to have forgot about buying a new one since he went back to work thank god for that but give it a couple of months and i'm sure the subject will come up again .havent done much today just pulling weeds out in garden and tidying it up son still on cruches but getting better .

01

May 2007
4:15 PM GMT

took my son back to see his consultant today still cant walk on his foot for three more weeks then he will have elbow cruchesfor another two weeks poor sole .has any one reading this had there navecular bone removed from the foot if so didi it make any difference to you ie walking and sport i would love to here from any one who has had this done .

29

Apr 2007
5:59 PM GMT

we didnt go to the party today as we all feel a bit unwell so at home beeing board not much to do so i decided it was time to clip the dogs claws. Picture this one two full grown adults wrestling an english spinger spaniel on the couch to try and clip two claws and ofcouse the dog won she kicked the sh**t out of both of us but i wasn't giving up she tryed to hide in her bed so we pounced he grabed her i cliped the claws so its' humans 1 dog 0 that is till they need doing again lol.and if you think that sounds fun you should try giving her a bath we all end up soaking wet and she is bone dry sitting in the conner of the bath room ah well we will get there in the end one day she will get to like it lol

28

Apr 2007
4:09 PM GMT

first party down three more to go hangover not too bad i have today to recover then we have party nummber 2 tommorow.and there will be loads of kids at this one so you have to watch your drink or they will all be p*****d well not much else today so i'll sod off and get some coffee

23

Apr 2007
8:02 PM GMT

They say every one has a purpose in life i only wish i knew what mine was. Isupose you only find out when your old and about to leave this life behind you .my main purpose is as a mother and i try my hardest to try and get it right i think i'm doing ok at this but i'm far from perfect at it .Mind you i dont think any one can be a perfect mother there is no such thing .All any one can do is there best life is full of challanges and you never know what is around the conner sometimes it's good and other times i'ts bad .Right now i'd say i'm somewhere inbetween things can only get better .Some days i feel lost and without purpose other days i don't have time to think how i feel may be i just need to get out and about more make some new friends get drunk and let rip well enough of the moan for today i'm sure your board of it now so time to go

21

Apr 2007
10:12 AM GMT

it must be party season in the past two days i have been invited to a wedding a 30th birthday a 21st birthday 11 th birthday and an open house barbque arn't i the flavour of the month . and as all women say i haven't got a thing to wear so looks like a shop till i drop soon and by the end of next month i will be in debt and need new kidneys from all the booze .loll only joking i dont drink that much must be old age setting in or something .at least it gets me out and about an see some friends that i havent seen in years

21

Apr 2007
10:12 AM GMT

it must be party season in the past tow days i have been invited to a wedding a 30th birthday a 21st birthday 11 th birthday and an open house barbque arnt i the flavour of the month . and as all women say i haven't got a thing to wear so looks like a shop till i drop soon and by the end of next month i will be in debt and need new kidneys from all the booze .loll only joking i dont drink that much must be old age setting in or something .at least it gets me out and about an see some friends that i havent seen in years

20

Apr 2007
11:43 AM GMT

why can't life be simple there always seems to another problem just hiding round the corner waiting to jump out when you least expect it .like stupid companys taking money out of your bank account when they are not due any thing from you i'm sure it's just someone who's trying to look busy in the office so thte boss thinks they do realy work and not just surf the net and send emails to friends . so now four emails later and they still haven't put my cash back in my account the cheek of these people you would think it was there money the way they go on .it's always the system to blame too never the one pushing the buttons must have very clever system thats all i can say .

19

Apr 2007
12:21 PM GMT

no news on the car front today but it's beeing polished and cleaned inside and out so i doubt if it will be long before it's sold and a new car takes it's place on the drive .my son now has a home tutor to do his school work so at least his not missing out on his work he wont be back to school for another 7 weeks at least .if i hear the words i'm board one more time i think i may just crack up i know its not his fault but theres only so many times you can put up with the i'm board line we have played games read books done home work all sorts but still he's board never mind i will just have to take a deep breath and count to 10 or even 100 .

18

Apr 2007
12:56 PM GMT

at long last the car has four wheels on and is back on the road but i have just been informed from my other half it's geting sold and a new one bought .why are men so possesed by cars they go from a to b and as far as i'm concerned that will do nicely but no it has to fast and look the dogs bollocks dont get me wrong i like nice cars but it dosn't have to cost a fortune i would rather have a nice little car that wont cost the earth and wont clap out when it feels like it but as i dont drive the car i get little say as to the cara we buy .you know what men are like they see somthing shiney and new and justr have to have it they are like magpies when it comes to cars .i blame him watching top gear all the time enticing him with all fast shiney cars saying you must have this one cos it's faster or lighter or just because such and such has one well thanks a bunch top gear you can have the bebt that comes with it

16

Apr 2007
9:30 AM GMT

the car is still of the road has been for a week now there's still only three wheels on the wagon and my paticience is wearing thin . son still in pain with his foot god love him and i'm still having physio for my knee after my op so we are all stuffed for getting around it's a good job he's of work cos we have no transport any where near his work still things could be worse or so i keep telling my self so chin up and get on with it

13

Apr 2007
6:11 PM GMT

my son has had his op and is now at home where he will be for the nexy six to eight weeks .think i will be insane by the time he goes back to school and even when he is back there is always the issue of the bullies and they know he has problems with his feet and always stamp on them or kick him in them well god help them if they do because they will have me to deal with .

13

Apr 2007
6:08 PM GMT

why is it that all men think they can repair cars we dont fix the washer when it breaks down well apart from the odd trapped sock .so at present the car has spent a week on blocks and still is't pepaired and it only has three wheels on so i cant take it to the garage for repair why cant men just leave well alone and get some who can do the job instead of making a balls up of the job

28

Mar 2007
7:23 PM GMT

Good news the bullie who attacked my son has been arested and charged for it this time thank god .He has also admitted attacking him for no reason so lets see if it has an impact on him now that he is known to the police and now his parents know what there litle angel has been upto. I have also been in touch with a tv show who wants me and my son to go on and tell our story to highlight the effects of bullying in school. But until this case is sorted out i cant do that but fully intend to as soon as i can .Bullies cant win and i am horrified every time i pick up the paper or turn on the tv and hear another child has killed them self all because the bullies keep getting away with it time and time again .Thats why im so adamant to help any child i can who is beeing bullied because i worry that one day it could be my son that ends up dead.So when you read this if you know of a child in need then please offer them all the help you can never tell them just to forget it and get on with it help them any way you can and you never know you might just save a life or give a child thier childhood back but never just walk away or ignore the problem

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Username: dee23

Gender / Age: Female, 53

Location: United Kingdom

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About Me: hi i'm 35 have a partner of 9 years and a son 13 we have 1 cat cassie 1 dog tessa these are her pups at 5 weeks old

Interests: all sorts going out having a laugh with mates walking the dog or should i say her walking me

Favorite Music: rock

Favorite Movies: green mile monsters ink farmyard matilda

Favorite Books: bad mothers handbook . remeber me .

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