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    athena4595  23, Female, Ohio, USA - First entry!
27
Oct 2011
4:42 PM EDT
   

I like someone

I really don't get this bloging thing but i'll try but I have a question four u do u think I should ask this guy out that I'ved liked forever



� � � � � � � � � � � vote yes or no inur comments below

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    Mike27  55, Male, New Zealand - First entry!
13
Oct 2011
6:52 AM AEST
   

The world is full of wondering.
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    Sissy7  27, Female, Minnesota, USA - 2 entries
12
Oct 2011
4:23 PM EDT
   

Boy Problems....

�� Okay, I have this boyfriend. He is amazing towards me but, I don't ever see him because we live in different towns. He hasn't called me in a while and has no phone to text me from. I mean I still really like him but don't know anymore.
� On the other hand I have this guy friend that goes to my school and I hangout with everyday that I have a decent sized crush on. I really like him and kind of want him to ask me on a date.
� I like both guys but, don't know what to do... What should I do and how?

HELLLPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!�

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    Shineess1  36, Female, Ohio, USA - 2 entries
02
Oct 2011
9:30 PM CDT
   

Endless Days...

It is days such as these days I wished I could just curl up inside of bed snuggled close to my blankets and just go to sleep.

While I do not know why I seem to enjoy sleeping in very much. I do. Must be something about the coldness that makes me feel more compelled not to do anything and since I am not home yet, I still am not able to control the heat thermostat.

But “boy-oh-boy,” if I could. I would have not ever slept in curled up to my blankets. I would have been so HOT I would have rushed down my sister’s stairs an hour later shutting off the thermostat. Why? I cannot stand the heat.

One of the things I have been keeping inside of me the last past few days of finding out of my Uncle’s death. Now since this is going to be made a public journal, I cannot share some of the names presented. I guess for legality purposes. However, now he is gone, I feel a sense of postpone sadness for him and myself because he died all alone without anyone and us only knowing of his passing was relayed to my sister from the corners office in Houston, Texas. I miss him.

He was the best uncle I could ever have. Since my sister and I were his favorite nieces, he would always make calls to us on a daily or bi-weekly basis informing us how he was doing. I missed him living in Ohio as much as I missed the summer rain putting me to sleep at night.

I remember many things he said to me. The thoughts of peer success he thought I was able to obtain and all of those many hours when I was young he would babysit my older sister and I and teach us math. He was the reason why I was able to grasp various things inside of math clearly then others inside of my class could.

He did not ever judge me for my skin color, facial features, or my flaws. He judged eveyone based on his or hers character, manners, and knowledge. He was the best uncle out of my mom’s side of the family my sister and I have ever had.

There is a pure sense of loneliness and void etched into my heart for the way he had to pass. I do not know why I sit and think about how he passed constantly. Maybe because if he would of gone to the hospital in Texas sooner, he would have still been alive, in yet, he passed inside of his apartment in his bed alone no kids or wife no one else there to help him survive. Just him.

He stayed there dead in his apartment know one knowing where or why he was not returning our calls for a little over a month. The Texas police found my uncle yesterday on October 1st dead.

My sister when she heard the news first. Cried. I could not cry because it was so postponed for me. I try to stay strong for everyone. At times I do not even know why I am doing it. I guess…. This is just a way for me to relieve my own pain. Through being strong for others. I feel as if I have to not because I am forced too.

Maybe this is because when I was younger I always felt I had to be strong for myself and everyone else around me. Because I always thought no one is going to always be around forever to take care of me. All I had was myself to take care. Now I look at my words and wonder… Am I right?

I do not want to be alone forever. I thought about this before I ever got married. So with feeling this way, I asked God to send me someone I could successfully share my life with. He came but not without a cost. I know sometimes we have to loose one thing to gain another. Why?

I do not know. I guess with death there comes so many unanswered questions. I just know I just want to go to sleep today beside my husband and fall asleep in his arms. Right after I finish this and my slushy.

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    tami2005  38, Female, Alabama, USA - 12 entries
01
Oct 2011
5:03 PM CDT
   

I want you to know that I love you and I have enjoyed the times that we have shared and no matter what happens in the future I will always love you. You have brought such meaning to my life...you are the reason that I wake up in the mornings and the dreams that I dream about at night. You said that you needed your space and I am trying to respect you and your wishes but it is so hard to do.....knowing that within my heart I want to touch you and to kiss you and to let you know how much my heart yearns for you.....maybe one day you will come back to me and we can be as happy as we once were but until that day I will always have the memories of the times that we have shared and know my angel that I will never forget and that you will always be in my heart...I love you my heavenly angel......now and forever
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    PoeticPurple  37, Female, Michigan, USA - First entry!
01
Oct 2011
4:23 AM CDT
   

Car Flames, Childish Games

I'm a nervous wreck tonight. Peeking out windows every five minutes, my heart pounding, in constant fear. A feeling i was once familiar with. And all because of early today when i was awaken by a school girl wearing a pink book bag with a ponytail, constantly banging on my porch windows. peeking out the window the girl seem frighten, in a panic, then she ran off. I thought she was in some kind of trouble. Puzzled i sat back on the couch and later she ran back banging on my windows and doors again. Something wasn't right at all. i started looking through windows all around my house and discovered my car in the backyard were in flames! I was in a brief shock. But i hurried and grab a weapon and my son (4 year old ) and ran out the house looking for help. ( Perfect timing, I don't even have a working phone this week). By time i got outside the firefighters were pulling up and put the flames out. My car? A disaster! To deepen the mystery my car caught fire from the rear and its been parked since 1:00pm.. The firefighter said usually it would have started in the front of the car, under my hood where all the wires, engine, etc. Then he asked did i have any enemies. I don't know anyone, i have no friends, and the only people i associate with is my 2 cousins. The only person i can imagine who would possibly do something like this to me would be him. the man who says he loves me then turn around and put me down, call me names, breaks in my home, threatens to kill me, and have pulled a gun out on me once before to scare me, then turns around and say hes change and wants to be a family,� but always retaliate against me when i don't do as he say.� Petty things such as not calling or not coming to see him when he wants me too... But this..? I try not to believe he would go this far, to that extreme that if it wasn't for that girl banging on my window, me deciding to sleep in the living room to even hear her knocking, or someone calling the firefighters. All this could of resulted into something much more worse then a burnt car but the lives of me and his son. He uses a lot of mind control but never have physically abuse me. But im smart enough to know how things can escalate from one behavior to another.� I say im smart enough to know better, but dumb enough to have forgiven in the first place. After all the chaos he has caused in the past. When will i finally realize enough is enough? i never fought back like him. so why not bully me if i allow him too? i only separate myself from him time after time.I cant be afraid, and i cant allow guilt to return. Gotta find the strength to stay away and be done with this man completely and face the consequences that follow. Because continuing to deal with him will result into someone truly getting hurt. And i would not be able to live with myself if something ever happens to my son. he hasn't changed, and he wont change. I'm the one who needs to change. change for the stronger, the better, the wiser, the brave..... wont sleep till dawn though. Lord give me strength!
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    jazziette  66, Female, Arizona, USA - 7 entries
18
Sep 2011
9:41 PM CDT
   

Spreading my gossamer wings...


It's time to come out of the cocoon and to taste the beautiful and exotic mystery of life once more.

Breathe deep.....feel the unparallelled freedom of letting go!

Bask in the intoxication of your very own unique and exquisite being.

Time to fly again....like the miracle of the butterfly.





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    Amber92  33, Female, North Carolina, USA - First entry!
14
Sep 2011
3:05 AM PDT
   

I have been given a wonderful family that loves me and cares for me.
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    swordbearer  69, Male, New York, USA - 21 entries
08
Sep 2011
5:38 AM CDT
   

Well, it has been a long while since I have used this but I have a need to write. I just got a book published and it is available in October. I am excited but really don't know how many people will actually buy it and read it. I'm hoping a lot. It is called "Love Believes All Things: A Love Story In Verse" and is a story about a little boy abused by an alcoholic father and despartely in need of love. He is given a porcelain doll that he adopts as his "sister." The story follows Bobbie through his entire life and is told through the eyes of the little boy himself and through those of the doll.
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    SdeC13  51, Male, Nevada, USA - First entry!
03
Sep 2011
7:19 AM
   

Open Bed?

�I'm happily married to a very sexy man, �I hit the husband lotto. He's a catch, and I landed him. I would like to think we are both lucky in love. Being that life together is still new we are learning about what pleases each other, turn on, and turn offs. He found out that I like the smell of him sweaty and I found out he loves porn. Nothing surprising. Nothing I would be ashamed to admit if I had to put my face with this post.�
�I consider myself an open minded woman. I do not judge people by what they choose to do in the privacy of their bedroom as long as everyone is of age and consenting. At 37 years old, i also was no virgin when we met. So, being the sexual woman that I am, our sex talk gets pretty raunch. Many women in the heat of the moment say a whole lotta bs if it spices up the moment and drives her man insane with desire." "Do you think she's sexy?" �escalates to "I wanna kiss her." then before you know it, you're telling him how you're gonna eat pussy. Blah, blah, blah. I'm in the moment. It's all in good fun, right? Yeah right, until someone gets their eye shot out.�
�I didn't blink when my husband told me he's had a 3some. I didn't blink when he said he's done it with 2 women AND I was a cool cucumber when he said he did it with a man and a woman too. No bisexual activity involved. At least he hasn't told me of any. YET,... maybe. Who knows. I'm open minded. That what I said, right? Or I was right up until the moment my ass was in the air and he says, "I'd love to see a cock in your mouth while I'm in your pussy." rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... HUH? WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT? COME AGAIN. EXSQUEEZE ME.
�"Did you just say you wanna see ANOTHER MAN'S PENIS IN MY MOUTH?" Well, that's what I wanted to say, but he was in the moment. I didn't want to ruin it. I also didn't want him to regret telling me anything and everything. It's like having a teenager, if you want to know it all sometimes you gotta just bite your tongue.I bit my tongue. Time stopped. Visions of our 1st date to the day we were married flashed through my mind. Okay, I'm exaggerating. What did happen was after we made love and he fell asleep I was frozen. Frozen and staring at the pervert next to me. Stiff as a board I stared at the stranger in my bed, and wondered if he ever loved me at all. The next day, all day I was tripping out.When he kissed me on his way out the door I wanted to wipe my lips. I started snooping through his things convinced he was screwing around. He was perverted. Perverts cheat. After a week of this I thought about something my older sister told me when I was 13 years old. All guys look at porn. Every guy. It's not a big deal. Ignore his porn stash, it means nothing. My husband wasn't placing personal ads for an anonymous cock in my mouth. He has dirty thoughts and shared them with me. Making love should be a safe zone. The bedroom should be the one place nothing you say can be held against you. He hasn't even mentioned it since. He loves me. He loves me and he loves the thought of me taking 2 dicks. Whatthefuckever. Is it really that serious? NO. I'm not sinking a wonderful marriage because my husband is a nasty motherf^cker. It's that very reason he is so good in bed. End of story. It's not a big deal. It means nothing. Anything said in the safe zone, during the heat of passion or immediatly pending an orgasm does not count.
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