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    •     bbent  29, Female, Virginia, USA - First entry!
    28
    Jan 2012
    12:37 PM CDT
       

    Tattered & Broken

    From the outside looking in, no one ever thinks this could happen to them. They don't even spend another moment to ponder what they could ever do to end up living on the streets or being faced with an eviction notice that leaves them with no�home to go to. Homeless. A word that every child fears but should never have to go through-but when faced with reality and a fucked up hand played by your challenger "Fate", can't deny theirselves to be everything they never believed they would soon be.
    �Out of all the chaos and tragedy I have been faced with throughout most of my childhood, I never would have thought all my luck would be turned upside down quicker than a roller coaster going down a hill. Granted things have never been perfect or completely "normal-like"- but it was manageable. It was something I could always deal with as long as I had my family and a roof over my head with a place that I didn't have to hide the troubled soul inside. I could let my spirit roam free in our house knowing what is to be expected of tomorrow. Now, tomorrow is never gaurenteed. There is no plan or sign of anything telling me what to expect for the weeks to come. Tomorrow has lost all hope. No faith of anything good is to be expected of the unknown-especially when the unknown is the reality�being homeless.
    �Homeless is what I am now. I have places to go-but are no good for a troubled soul like mine. Places where the vulnerable get trapped by the wicked and are tempted into doing things that are believed to help a given situation-but in�reality only make things worse; even destroy any hope of finding a safe place to piece my brokenness in. Its the fear of making one simple mistake in a already troubled situation that frightens me the most. Failure� or being denied of a safe place is no longer an option I can accept for myself or my family. As petrified as we all are, we all must stand our grounds, strong as a battle scarred soldier; ready for the impact of the unexpected-but we can't show fear. Fear will only break us down even more and that will set us up for failure; something we cannot afford at a time like this. Not now-not ever.
    "He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;�but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." -Isaiah 40:29-31
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        500cows  67, Male, Colorado, USA - First entry!
    25
    Jan 2012
    11:07 PM EDT
       

    Got up showered and helped get breakfast.� Robbie had come home late from Denver and needed to be in Hastings for work by 1:00 p.m.�
    Drove to St. Francis to take finacial information with Troy Hilt at Western State Bank.� Troy told me he would be able to come out to the ranch the first full week of February.� He will then take our operation to the loan committee.� If approved it will take 30 to 40 days to finish all the filings.
    In the mean time we need to go ahead and send finacials to Melannie at Bank West and get a 20 year loan for the 300,000 and obtain an operating line of credit for $100,000.�
    Went to the ranch in the afternoon and fed the fall cows.�
    I called Jason Foos today and asked to borrow the flat bed for tommorrow morning to haul feed bunks to the ranch from Idalia.
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        kams  47, Male, Trinidad and Tobago - First entry!
    11
    Jan 2012
    6:43 PM AST
       

    Met with Chris. He wants Thursdays @ 330p off to pursue his cricket sport as well as most Saturdays. I advised him that it will decrease his salary by the hours not working as. Also we would allow it up until it becomes too much of an inconvenience then we would have to get someone else. (his feedback was that he really doesn't want another job because he likes to work here) Also spoke to him about frequent errors and the costs.
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        annierose  40, Female, Philippines - First entry!
    30
    Dec 2011
    6:54 PM
       

    My New Beginning

    Goodbye 2011 I am going to face the new year with confidence Forget all the bad memories of the past Enjoy the present And dream towards the future
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        onealsc  29, Male, Texas, USA - First entry!
    11
    Dec 2011
    8:26 PM EDT
       

    sorry...this will be hard to follow...i think...

    �Maybe im being stupid...maybe im not... but i cant get over him. i love him with all that i am. it kills me that he is giving his love to someone else, and he acts like hes not. he continues to call me "baby" and "sweetie" and tell me that im beautiful. i was stupid to think that an angle like him could love ME. im not good enough for him... not now nor will i ever be. i cry every day. all i want is to come home and find him there, arms open wide, ready to have me back. the things i would do for him...the things ive already done for him...even after we broke up...
    He got alcohol poisoning one day and i paid out of pocket for his stomach pumping. i had one of his friends take him to the hospital and everything. i bought him a plane ticket home when he was home sick, just so he could see his family and maybe have time to come say hey to me. but he didnt. i doesnt even have to want me back. love is supposed to be unconditional, and mine for him is.
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        undeadgirl42495  29, Female, New Hampshire, USA - First entry!
    01
    Dec 2011
    2:39 PM CDT
       

    Stuck

    i dont know what im gonna do ... im stuck between 2 guys and i dont know what do imean one gut im dating right now but the other guy �sees me for who i am ... i like both �of the but i just dont know what to do ...... im Stuck�
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        Yhm  41, Female, China - 21 entries
    23
    Nov 2011
    3:54 AM CST
       

    4 Seasons

    I was staring at the window while having my bus ride this morning and noticed that the leaves changes its color again. Autumn it is, well winter is actually on its way.�

    I guess the reason why we have 4 seasons is that it's an illustration of our life's season too. There are times that everything goes pale, like the weather nowadays, it turned the leaves into a yellow, red & brown color, and sooner or later it will eventually wither & fall on the ground. Then winter will come & trees will hybernate and some trees won't be able to withstand the temperature and will just dried up with the freezing weather and some will endure and will sprout again in spring which indicates that this certain plant was able to survive no matter how stiff or fierce�the season was and will be able to show it's color to fill the world with its wonderful aura. And in Summer�plants & trees�will reach the fullness of their appearance and will be able to store enough energy from it's source. And when autumn comes again it'll be prepared to face another transition of life.


    We've got battles and trials each day. We've got�joy, sorrows, and breakthroughs, and each season represents us that there's always something that awaits on the other side as we patiently endure each time we'll be facing challenges in our life. Our source is extraordinary, He is the Creator of the Universe, therefore we don't have�any reason to give up on each season because He will sustain us no matter how tough our situations are, all we have to do is to do our part, and that is to keep on going no matter what, because we are not alone and our life is in His hands!��

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        youyou331  59, Female, France - First entry!
    08
    Nov 2011
    7:42 AM EET
       

    «L'homme a ce choix :laisser entrer la lumière ou garder les volets fermés.» Henry Miller
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        keatay  33, Female, Idaho, USA - 2 entries
    29
    Oct 2011
    2:00 PM EDT
       

    THeres a fire starting in my heart reaching a fever pitch and its bringing me out the dark :D Love Adele
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        a1234567  36, Male, Virgin Islands - 3 entries
    28
    Oct 2011
    2:31 AM CST
       

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