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I have really felt behind in my Journalism.Reading back it does give a certain perspective on life which I wouldn't have if I did not bother

It is impossible to recall every event since my last entry so I will go on what I can remember.

Was in Monivea last night.Did the four pubs.The only bit of life was in Kelly's where there was a hen party on.Youngsters going around dancing,singing,and enjoying themselves.

When I was in McGann's I handed a fiver to Padraig for a ginger ale but he only gave me 20 cents back.I didn't want to say anything.He must be getting forgetful.

I had a Bord Bia audit eventually on Friday after postponing it on Thursday because I had a tooth out on Wednesday.(It is still a bit sore but is healing)

Carmel was out yesterday.She showed us the youtube video of herself singing with the Athenry musical society.And guess who was in the background.The person she most loathes in the whole world-Kennedy

I had a mediocre week last week on.I had to go to Brooke lodge to help out Austin and Burke.It wasn't too bad when Burke and Leehy were around but It can be difficult at times working with Austin.He tends to be overcautious about everything and he does tell the odd fib

The weanlings are coming on nicely.They are eating the meal and they have nice young grass over in the calla.
I may sell the bullock next Thursday in Athenry as cattle prices are dropping a bit and the may be on the way down after being dear since last year

Well, i just started this new journal thing any advice? ;/

Pain spoke to me this morning!� On the scale of 0 to 10, it is speaking to me at a low 1.
I acknowledged it with a "Hello" and thanked it for reminding me that it here.� This is a normal daily conversation that I have with it.� I know it may sound weird to many that I have personified my pain.� And when I speak of pain, its usually the cramping, the tingling and burning needle prick sensations, swelling, and vasculitis localized from my knee down to my feet.
I have been feeling pain daily, and whats even worse is feeling pain hourly somedays for the last 12 years.� Its a normal occurance now.� I cant remember what it actually feels like to BE pain free.� Its foreign to me.� There had been a handful of days when I didnt feel any significant discomfort and I would stop myself and say," where is the pain" like I should be expecting pain but it isnt there.
it is possible to live well with pain.� I am living proof of it.� For many the pain can be so gigantically impossible to live with so they resort to pain meds, drugs, alcohol, antidepressant drugs, surgery, or possible suicide to get rid of the pain.� PAIN is EVIL and EVIL is scary to confront!!� And I am confronting EVIL on a daily basis drug free and surgury free�
How am I doing it?� With toughness and grace.� I researched about the disease in the internet at its infancy stages and got some effective help from alternative medicine, holistic nutritionists, energy healers, and spiritual counseling from my religion, Scientology.� Its taken me a third of my life to heal myself...but I am not pain free yet.� It is my personal goal to find ways to erradicate pain completely from my body and consciousness.� I am committed to do that this lifetime.� It may sound like an impossible dream but I trust the Universe for its granting and giving powers of optimal health and wellness.� I truly deserve to be pain free and it is certainly my Devine Right to be so.,� In the meantime, I AM LIVING WELL WITH PAIN.
When I say toughness and grace, it doesnt mean that I dont cry, feel angry, limp around, feel depressed and suppressed, nor do I dont feel beaten up when I have a flareup.� I do feel all of that and then some...however, I am BEING conscious and aware...and I take lots of deep meditative breaths all day long or as long as I can get to a space and time to apply self care.� And most times, I have to wait several hrs before I can get home to rest and ice my legs.� With all the training and counseling that I received from my church, I have been able to BE present in pain and Be able to exist in pain with acceptance, foregiveness, love, and appreciation.� The thoughts that goes through my mind when I am in pain makes a huge difference in my ability to experience the pain gracefully.� Ive learned to think loving positive thoughts and exercise happy and positive feelings.� And when a bad negative thought or feelings congests my mind and heart, I ignore it or I just "push it away".� Not so easy to do.� Being present in Pain is hard to do.� It takes practice, practice, discipline, love and foregiveness, and toughness. �Give it a try...it might just surprise you.
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