Just another sad story...

Ok so I had gotten rid of the Scary creeper dude for all of two days! this is how it went down. I had his friend Cassey tell him....

(ok so thrusday at lunch)

Cassey: Dude, she thinks your like super anoying.

Creeper(aka Steve) : So I dont care what she thinks!

Cassey: No, dude, she thinks your fucking stupid!

Creeper: mummbles...

So he left me alone for those two wondefull and peacefull days. Oh we havent even hit the best part yet. Which is today btw.

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HE FREAKING STOLE MY mP3 PLAYER IN ART CLASS!!!!!! For me this is tragic seeing as to how I cant live without it. So now Im sitting here with nothing to do because that freaking dumbass stole my mP3 player. Oh, and I told him that he'd better give it back tomorrow or I'll F-ing kill him. Well, maybe not kill, but you get the point Im sure. Well ttyl.

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Ok so over the past few weeks ever since school started, I�'ve had a creeper in my class. His name is Steve S. I�dont know what to do. He's a year older than me and is a nice kid. Up until u see his face its so... odd looking. Not to be mean but it is slanted at a downward angle. CREEPY! �He talks about me apparetly with his friends, because a few have came up and were like "Hey do you know a steve s? " " So your the girl?" and so on. Well now I am led to believe he somehow managed to get my cell number even though Im pretty sure none of my friends would give it to him without telling me and not to mention that I only have like five friends in my contact list. So it would'nt make sense for him to have it. Before you say Im just freeking out and getting ahead of myself. I reconize the number as his cause I've seen it befoe when he wrote it on my art journal. (dont wry I erased it�=D )�But how would he get my number? and why would he want it? Cause honestly I thought I had made it clear to him that I soo did not like him. Bleck! well I'll try to keep y'all up dated. tootles

I think there might be something wrong with me,

Because I always feel so empty...

Like�a part of me is missing!

Every passing day seems so strange,

Deep down I know something has to change...

I�know�I have to change my ways,

Maybe I�will one of these days...

Because something wrong with me,

And I just need someone to hear my plea

I�really dislike people these days,

They�walk around and act so�gay!

Lately I've become so edgy,

That I've been acting out rather badly...

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I�watch as he walks by,

Thinking that I would rather go hide...

Because he's still an ass,

With no class...

But who's to blame?

When he cant help but be so lame!

So today my dog Daisy had seven lab puppies four black one. all male except one and three yellows all female except one. Funny I know. We almost lst the last one cause she had fluide stuck in her noise and was turning BLUE. But she's ok now and is doing great. other than that, I won high point last night at a speed show. YaY. lol good times. Grr school starts in less than a day. bummer dude!. lol jk Dont wry I wont say that or I should say type that ever again!. hahaha well wtyl!

I cant wait till school starts. Im going to see if I can give myself a whole new look. Im sick and tired of the person I am now. I want people to look up to me. And wish they were me.�I want more, better friends, one's that actually care about me! Because right now I cant help but think they secretly dislike me and wish that I would dissapeare. And guess what?

ITS ALL TRUE!!!

I here them all the time. Talking behind my back, How could I�NOT know? I mean really?

So watch out everyone. Im not that sweet and inocent girl everyone loves and knows.

No,�I wont be that girl. The girl who gets pushed around and her heart broken. I�cant do it anymore. I�cant handle it anymore.

I think I may just be ready to come out of my shell once and for all...

No longer will i be walked on, no longer will I hide in the dark as I watch my life fall apart. No longer will I let my life pass me by with out me having a say in what I�want. So here I come, be ready!

I cant do it anymore,

It hurts to think about before...

We had come so close!

Only to have it vanish like a ghost.

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I dont know where to start,

Because you once held my heart...

And then everything spun out of control,

Cant help but feel like I've lost my soul...

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No one had been around,

It was just you and me on the ground...

I miss you,

And we both know it true...

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Because I can still feel the touch of your skin,

And your hand in my hair

And the way you breathed in the summers day air...

I cant seem to think strait. All those weeks (with more to come) seem to have drained me of ideas for poems are things to write about. It like a winters storm in my head. I have a thought and then.. it vanishes. Suprising I know!! Anyways I cant wait until fair this year. My horse Sonny and I should do AMAZING!!! haha well hopefully. Im mostly looking forward to the speed events because those are the most fun. And yes their fun becasue I like totally kick ass in them. Which is good to a level. But it gets kinda anoying when soo many people dislike you because your good at something to the point that they'll do anything to get you banned from show place. Truely sad. But Oh well. Its time for me to turn in before I hit the keyboard... again. haha wtyl!!!

-Sportygirl15

Some say they only come out at night,

Staying out out of your line of sight...

Because you have something that they desperately want,

And they'll wait until you give into their taunt...

Once upon a time,

There was a little girl who committed a crime.

They told her he was wrong,

But she was to far gone...

So they took away her crown,

And banised her from the town...

He tricked her into giving up her life

And did away with her, with a sharp bladed knife...

And a�hundred years later, the chaos started again,

As he waited for a new story to begin...

Friends,

They�stand by your side

And hold your hand during the waters high tide.

They wipe away all your tears,

And help you to get over your fears...

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But every now and again,

The rules�of friendship begin to bend...

And all you'll hear are their lies,

Please, dont act suprised!

For you know this is has happened before,

Just look down at the floore...

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And you'll see all those horrible words,

That where made to make you hurt...

Because they dont realize what they' ve done!

They only hear the siren..

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Sometimes people go to far,

And forget who they really are...

They thought they could make her learn,

And teach her to never return...

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And thats what they did...

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With every passing day,

She drank herself away...

Trying to ease the pain!

And escape the shame that clung to her like a chain.

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But in the end there is only a memory,

Of her sad story...

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Because they had no clue,

Of what their bulling could do.

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Ok I have a question or more like a theory of some sorts:

If someone REALLY wants to be your friend again would'nt they just pick up a phone and call you? OR better say your sry and tell it to your face? and not have a relative or someting do it for you???

If someone really wants to be your friend again would'nt they have been smart enought to hear the whole side of a "fight?" ? To hear what was really going on???

If someone really wanted to be your friend would'nt they have....

Theres alot of would've and could've thingy's out there. But my point is why do other people have to apologize for someone else when they are just as capable of doing it them selves???�

Anyways tonight was AMAZING!! hahaha My horse Sonny ran really good we took 1st in poles, 1st in barrels and 1st in down and back. With only one DQ which is really good. Other than that I know some of you are out there thinking... Hey where is her poem?? Well Im working on one right know so yeah hopefully its not to bad...

Well Im TIRED so Im going to go and catch some zzz's before for I crash and hit the key board. Now that would leave a mark. hahaha ttyl

Sometimes I�hear a whisper,

And sometimes I see a flicker.

Of what could have been...

Only to see a knew�story begin.

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I remember the day,

When I held on to everything you would say.

You would hold me in your arms,

And keep me from the worlds harm...

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You used to wait for me,

And gasp at my beauty...

But those days are long gone,

Your love for me withdrawn..

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Someday I'll try to understand,

But for know a picture of you sits on my nightstand...

Reminding me of that day,

When you told me everything would be ok...

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It� t'was a long time ago,

When I last watched it snow..

But as I look around tonight

Everything�appears so very bright.

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I've long since been traped behind these castle walls,

Praying that somone will here my beckoning calls...

Just waiting for someone to come around,

And pick me up off the ground.

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Please, someone set me free!

Can't you hear my frantic plea?

I�just want to see the sky,

And wish this dreadful place good-bye

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Because I've been locked�away for all this time,

With you on my mind...

Today is a new day,

And I dont know what to say...

I feel lost in this world,

No longer that little girl...

I say Im�through with you,

But we both know thats not true...

You give me that smile,

Knowing that I'll think about you once in a while...

You once held me close,

But now your memory is like a ghost...

As I lay awake at night,

I�tell myself I'll be alright...

And someday you'll want me back,

But I'll just throw my head back and laugh...

Because you once hurt me deep down�inside,

That my love for you eventually�died...�

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Do you ever wonder���������

What it would be like to feel the thunder?

To sit up in the sky,

And watch as the days pass by?

Do you ever think about the past,

And how everything fell apart in one big BLAST!?

And as�you hit the ground,

Was your love for me drowned?

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Did you ever think about the day,

When everything in your world turned gray?

Did�you ever here me call to you?

Just wishing that you only knew...

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Have you ever stoped to think,

That�our world could�be gone in one blink?

As everything is torn apart,

There will be nothing�left to heal a broken heart...

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So here I am again,

Thinking about the end...

To scared to know whats to come,

Because your love was�like a deadly venom...

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Im slipping back into comatose,

Please, just hold me close...

Tell me everything will be alright!

And never leave my sight...

Dont let this be the end,

You'll just�hurt me all over again...

You where away for all this time,

So allow me this one kiss goodbye...

I waited for you for so long,

But now your up and gone...

Theres nothing left to say,

Except that I hope to see you someday...

I'll always remember you,

And everything we went through...

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My world has spun out of control,

All because of that 'lil troll...

No one can keep their mouths shut these days,

Everythings turned into a foggy haze...

I�laugh as they spread false tales!

Is this another bad attempt at blackmail?

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They always seem to set me up,

With all of their anoying gossip...

I should have known,

That they had no life of their own!

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Why do they insist on doing this to me?

Watch, and you'll realize you've hurt me deeply!

Please dont roll you eyes,

This has happened�way to many times...�

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How can you believe them over me?

This situation is so shity!!

Do I dare ask why?

Or will the truth just make me cry...?

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Seeing and Hearing

It's not like I cant see,

For I know that they write about me...

They whisper as I walk by,

God,�I could just cry!

It's not like I ment for this,

Please dont let me reminence!

For this is just another tragic tale,

That only ends in betrayle...

Suprise!

I�hear them scream,

Do you know what�they've done to me?

Suprise suprise, your mad again,

Do you think this will be the end?

Maybe I'll just walk away,

No, I wont come back another day...

Please just shoot me now!

Then turn around and take your bow...�

Come back,

I�need you,

Will you be my rescue?

I can’t stand to look at your stone,

Knowing there’s no chance of you coming home...

Come back,

That’s all I ask,

Please just hand me that deadly flask...

I cant stand the thought of you being gone,

You hit my heart dead-on...

Come back,

Before I�fade away,

Please just stay another day...

Come back...

Ok so today Im going to the mall," And then saturday Im going to find you a horny convict to use u as a love pinata for the next 50 yrs! "

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Mmm, Im so excited for Saturday. Im going to a speed show and its going to be so����� f-ing awsome. U have no Idea. Hopefully I get highpoint again that would be cool... And hopefully I win the summer series that would be even cooler. Dont you think? BTW my horses name is Sonnys Zippo or just Sonny what ever works. He's an amazing athlete, with so much power and strength. THough I�do have to say he's a lil bit dumb in other words silly ver very silly. Hes a nine year old with the mind of a three year old. Put it that way. lol well I have to go. ttyl.

Oh what should I write about in my next poem? ur choice, so tell me. But nothing stupid like trees or clouds or... well u get the point

Love,

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