Krysta's Life & Feelings:

Jan 2010
3:08 PM EDT

My Son

On the 26th of January my Son Hayden Got his 1st tooth. By Coincidence it was Also hid Daddy's Birthday & he turned 24. On the 27th of January he rolled over from his back to his belly so Now he can roll over both ways. He is Doing Great. Ever since he was born on July 12th 2009 with Spinal Bifidia he has been doing better then what everyone hasd thought.

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Oct 2009
7:46 AM EDT

Sick:

My Son & I Have Been Sick For the Past week. He's Not Getting to Much Better. I am Sick Because of my Allergies. I Think I've Been Getting a little Better But That's Only the beginning, I will Only Get Worse Before I Actually Get Better. I Knew That Hayden Was Sick But the 1 Doctor Wanted to Say he Had Asthma & Put him on a nebulizer & steroids. So I saw Another Doctor (1 That Both me & Hayden Like) & he Said That Hayden Had Bronchitis & to Give him the Rest of the steroids & to Continue Giving him nebulizer Treatments Only When Needed & If he Gets Irritated When Getting the Treatment to Stop Giving him the nebulizer.

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Aug 2009
9:50 AM EDT

My Son

Later on today I will be posting my blogs about my son. Just to let everyone know.

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Jan 2009
12:18 PM EDT

Upset & Angry: What do u Say or do When u Love someone & they saw they Love u But u Find Pictures of Their Ex-Girlfriends Naked on Their Computer? I Was Pissed, I Wanted to Kill Pat. He Hurt me by That & he's Hurt me Before by Leaving me For Other girls. Then I Caught him in a Lie, How: the Pictures Proved he Lied About a Question I Asked him. I Dont Know what to do? I Give up! I Thought I Got Over It But I Cant Stop Thinking About It. How do I Handle Something Like this? He Always Asks If I will Ever be Able to Forgive him. After a few days I Stopped Getting Mad About It & started making Funny Jokes Which Had Helped some, But Now Like I Said I Cant Stop Thinking About It. I'm so Confused, I Have No Idea what to do. I'm Going Crazy, someone Help! Hurt, Hate, Angry, Upset, Mad, Pissed, Confused, Love

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1 comment(s) - 09:14 PM - 01/14/2009

Apr 2008
9:54 AM EDT

Subject: Happy: Current mood: happy Category: Life Time: 4:15 pm

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Ok so I am Happy & I Know Most of you Are Like, "What? OMG she's Happy, that's Surprising." But Its True, I am in Love, the persons name is Wade. Yes I Know some of you Are Saying, "But what About your Promise to Yourself?" I Can Help that I Broke my Promise to Myself, But I fell in Love & I Really Want this to work.�� Ok, Something that I Hate About this Relationship, More Like the Family Involved, is that my Parent's Hate Wade & Dont Believe me When I Say that he's Changed. But Hey If we Can Deal With It Together I Know my Parent's will come around. It Was Like that With a Friend of Mine.�� Anyway Sis If your Reading this Good I am Glad. Because Now you will Finally Know what the Hell is Going on With me & my Life. I Have Stopped Cutting, But I Did Have a slip-up a month Ago & Wade Was Really Understanding About It. I Have cut down on my Drinking & well I Stop Smoking Tomorrow!!! I Cant Wait Because Its Just one More Step to Fixing my Life & making It Better. Yes I am Scared Though, I Know Its Going to be hard For me & I Also Know that I Probably Wont be Able to Deal With It Alone. I Love you all so Much, you all Mean the world to me, your my Family. Oh Sis Tell�Ed that I am out of my colors. I Left. Again Just Another Step to Bettering my Life.�� Well I Think that's all For Now. If you Want to Read my Real Blog go to: www.inboxjournal.com/id/ask-krysta�

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Apr 2008
3:38 PM EDT

(Life) My Feelings (Part 1):

Subject: My Feelings (Part 1): Current Mood: � Disappointed�� Category: Life Time: 12:20 pm

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Ok For the people Who Really Know me, I Normally Dont Write or Talk About my Feelings so this is a big step For me & the Reason Why is Because I Have big Trust Issues Because of my Past! For Those Who Honestly Know me you Know that�I Just Keep all my Emotions inside Because I Dont Trust Many people or Trust people Enough to Talk to or�Tell them How I am Feeling Exactly. But this is where I am Going to Try, But I Know that it�is Not Going to be Easy For me to Write About my Feelings For the world to Read.

Most of my Live Ive Felt Depressed, Sad, Lonely, Helpless, Hopeless & Like the weight of the world Was on my shoulders. I Rarely Ever Felt Happy & When I Did Something Always Changed that to Were I Was Feeling Depressed Again. Now I Have someone in my Life Who Actually makes�me Feel Happy��& that For me is Scary Because that’s Not what I am Used to, But I Can Say that It Feels Good to be Happy!

This is where Things Get Really Hard on the people I Love & Care About & that ones that Actually Love & Care About me: I push people Away all the time. My Family, my Friends, Every one. I Hurt my Fam all the time by pushin them Away. But Ive Learned that If I push Every one Away I am Not Gonna Have Any one to Lean on When times Get to Hard & I Wanna Die. Ive Been There all my Life. You Dont Honestly Know How Many times Ive Wanted to Die. But Suicide is Not the Answer. Ive Been There all my Life With Everything that Has Happend to me & With the Things that Ive Done ( Just Ask my Mother ) & I Can Tell you this: Things do Get Better Its Gonna take time Because it Wont Happen Over Nite. I Can Also Say With all Honesty that�Lifes Not Easy:�I Can Tell you that ( You’re Not Going to hear the Lie that Life is Easy From me, I Just Cant Tell you a Lie Like that�), I Know what�I am Talking About Because Ive Been Through so Much in�my Life that No one person Should Ever Have to go Through in Their Lifetime.�I Know what�I am Talking About Because Ive Been Through so Much in�my Life that No one person Should Ever Have to go Through in Their Lifetime.�

As Most of the people Who Really Know me Ive Always Said that I Hate my Life, the world & Every one, But Really I Can Say in Honesty in Truth�that I Respect my�Life, the world ( Even Though this country is Going Downhill & I Dont see that Changing. Its Not that I Hate the world, I Just Hate what this world is comming to. ) & Its Not Like I Hate Every one Its Just that I Hate peoples actions. Talking About my Feelings Like this & then Reading It Gets me Emotional Because I Never Thought I Could Have Feelings Like this.

Ok, Wow! I Cant Believe I Wrote my Feelings For the world to see! Thats�So Not Like me! And Please�Dont Ask me Why I am Writing this For the whole world to see, Because I Really Dont Know. It Just�makes me Feel Better Though to Tell you all�that Ive Been There & Noramally am There. Not Many people Know me so Most people that Read this ( If they Even do ) Are Not Gonna Know How I Was Feeling At the time that I Wrote this, Nor will they Understand what the Hell Ive Been Through or am Going Through. I Just Hope that people will Understand what I Meant & what I Wrote.�Please�Understand that Things will Get Better that they do take time Because I Know that When�people Feel Like�this�they Didnt Think or take that Into Consideration.

I Always�Wonder what the Meaning of Life Really is. People Say that There is a Meaning to Life But I Still Havent Found out Just what the Hell it is ( Honestly I Dont Really Think that There is a Meaning to Life But to Teach us Things, Have a Family of Our Own, Have a Good job, Help Others, Get Sick & then Die ) But If I Ever do Find out or come across the Meaning of Life you all�will be the�2nd�to Know. But�Maybe we Are the Meaning of Life!

Well I Can Say this About Life: Life�is a Mindless Spinning-Whirlpool of Nothingness, Emotions, Hatered & Love. With all that Being Said Why do we Exist, If we Are Only to Die? Is Life so Worth Living that we go on Every Single day Doing Everything we Can to Get somewhere But we Most Likely will Never see & will Never Happen? What is True Happiness? We Continue on this Downward-Spiral of Depression, Sadness & Hopelessness Only to Find the True Meaning of what Life Really is to Eventually Die! All that Life Really is, is a Series of Events that lead up to a persons Death. So I Ask, "What is the Point of Living If you Are Only Going to Die Anyway?" Whether It’s Going to be three days From Now or sixty years down the road. It’s all Part of the Vicious-Cycle of Life. Isn’t that Great? We Live to Die & There Truely Isn’t Anything that Can be Done About It.

I Can Honestly Say that Life Isn’t Easy & Not Knowing what Our True Meaning/Purpose in Life is Can be Harder in Living Life Because we Just Think that Death is the Meaning & Purpose to Life. Then of Course we go Through Things Good & Bad in Our Life that Can Either Break us or make us, Hurt us or Help us, Love us or Hate us. Life Just Isn’t Easy, I Know Because I Have Been Through so Much in my Life that No one person Should Have to Deal With in Their Lifetime. SO WHAT IS LIFE REALLY? I Dont Think Any one Really Knows the Answer to this Question & If they do, they Are Obviously Keeping the Answer to Themselves or they Are Already Dead. Remember that Ive Been Through Alot in my Life so I do Know what im Talking About & Also Because of what Ive Been Through I will Understand. Honestly Life Can be Scary, It plays With your Emotions & your Mind.�

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1 comment(s) - 04:39 PM - 05/10/2008

Aug 2007
12:48 PM EDT

Hi everyone. How are you all Doing today? I am Doing ok today. I got a Call From one of my Best Friends, his name is Thomas (Tom). Back About a month or 2 ago, I Told him that I Loved him, he took it Better than I Expected. Anyway, he hasnt Been Doing to Good, he's Been Really Depressed, down in the dumps, and Just plain Sad, so I Had Emailed him back 2 days ago Telling him that if he Needs Anything that I am here For him. Well he Called today and we were on the Phone For About 30 minutes Talking. I Helped him sort some Stuff out, But he wants to Talk more so I Can Help him sort some more Things out With him. Anyway, what has everyone Been up to Lately? How has Life Been Treating you all? How are you all Doing? I Miss Talking too you all. Sorry that I havent Written in so long. So fill me in on what I Missed, and how everything is. Talk to you all Soon. With Love, & Support, Krysta

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Aug 2007
12:48 PM EDT

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Aug 2007
12:48 PM EDT

Tags: Friends, Help, Life, Love, Random, Support, Talking

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1 comment(s) - 05:49 PM - 09/05/2007

Aug 2007
12:37 PM EDT

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Aug 2007
1:09 PM EDT

Hi its Krysta, Sorry that I haven't Written in Such a long time, But I have Been so Busy With my Website and Helping Pleople. Anyway this Journal Entry is About Self-Injury: and I am Sure most of you Know what that this. I use to be a Self-Injurer, I have Been Self-Injury Free For About 6 months to a year, But as Always I Still Get the Feeling of wanting to Self-Injure. Also if you want to Know more or Find some Information on Self-Injury, you Can Always check out my Website at: www.freewebs.com/Ask-Krysta/ (There you Can Find Information on Self-Injury and many Other Things as well, and ifyou want me to Put something Else on the Website Just E-mail me at: Ask.Krysta@yahoo.com (in the Subject Put: Website) well I am Going to go For Now, so take Care, be Safe, and Please Remember that Things will Get Better, that it Does take time, and Also Remember that I am Always here For you. With Love, Always, Krysta

Tags: Dark, Depression, Health, Help, Helper, Hope, Hopeless, Hopelessness, Info, Information, Pressure, Saddness, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Stress, Teen Advisor, Websites

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Jan 2007
11:42 AM EDT

Hi everyone, how are you today? i am ok... i dont know why but today i am quite happy... it's weird... it's amazing... i am not sure what to think about it... i went to see a resource drug and alcohol person, that i know, and we had a really nice chat... he made me feel better, i wasnt depressed or sad or lonely... i know this might sound weird from what i normaly write abou, but i think this is a good thing... hopefully i can stay happy... so if you ever need to talk, i am here... just send me a message or email me... i hope everyone is doing good, and i hope to hear from you... With Love, Krysta

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Jan 2007
6:06 PM EDT

okay, here is a site that i made www.freewebs.com/hope-help/ please visit it and tell me what else i should put on their... it's not finished, so thats why i am askin for everyone's help. what would you like to see on the site? please let me know... i hope that you all like and the site helps... Take Care... With Love, Krysta

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Jan 2007
12:09 PM EDT

Okay, i am back, not even a minute later and i am writing again... lol... anyway this time i wanna tell you a little about my Girlfriend and Boyfriend... My Girlfriends name is Britney Gobert, she is 17, and lives in Texas right now... My Boyfriends name is Keith Sean Blackwell, he is 18, and he lives is Sidney, Ny... I have not talked to him since December 17, 2006... Britney i last talked to yesterday... i love her so much, she is wonderful... now my boyfriend is sweet, he is caring, but right now i am having my doubts, but i always have with all my ex's, and some of my friends too... well just think i have a hard time trusting people because of my past, but lately i have been letting my past go, and not thinking about it... i know i will never let it go, but at least right now it's not haunting me, and i am healed, and alot stronger then i was before. so if something bad happens to you or has happened to you, try not to let it get to you, and let it make you a stronger person, and you will heal and feal alot better... i know trying not to think about something that hurt you is hard, but if you talk about it or even write in a diary or journal it will help, also it helps if you try not to think about why it happened, as many do, and i have myself... anyway this is all for now... i will talk to you all later... With Love, Krysta

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Jan 2007
11:58 AM EDT

Happy New Year... Sorry for not writing lately, but i have been sick... How was everyone's Christmas and New Year? I was sick for 6 days, i had a virus/flu... how exciting... nothing really wonderful happened... anyway i will write more later... peace... With Love, Krysta

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Dec 2006
5:29 PM EDT

I am Bisexual and people think that i dont know what i want... i like boy guys and girls, so i can choose. and i do know what i want... some people need to get a life, and stay out of our bussiness, we do what we do, and we like who we like. get off our backs about it... any way if their is something you would like me to write about let me know and i will... i have no problem writing for my friends... love ya...

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Dec 2006
5:22 AM EDT

Merry X-Mas... Sorry about not writting on Christmas... SO how is everyone? how was everyone's christmas? mine was okay. what what did everyone get? so it their anything new? well that's all i can think on right now, so ttyl... With Love, Krysta

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Dec 2006
12:43 PM EDT

Confused?... okay so i have a lot going on right now, and i dont know what to do anymore... i use to be strong and know how to figure everything out but now i am just plain lost... my frineds and family and other people use to come to me for help and advice, and they still do, but now i dont even know how to help myself... so now i am going to write about what's going on, to see if i can figure things out this way... and if anyone has any advice i am all ears... also if someone needs some help or just someone to talk to i am here... i dont judge people... anyway... i am not sure what to say right now so i am going to end this here for now... With Love, Krysta

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Apr 2006
1:01 PM EDT

okay, i have gone and read some of the other members journal entries... i have come to find that some people have and are going through the same things that i have gone through... some of the things are Suicide, Cutting, Depression, Sadness, Lonelyness, Rape, Confused, Helplessness, and many other things and feelings... I know how a lot of you are going through... i have tired to commit suicide many times (over 15 times), i have cut, i have gone through rape, and all of these feelings i have mentioned above and more... i have been raped 2 times and molested 2 times as well... 1 time was when i was 3 years-old, i was molested by my babysitters son. 2 time i was 7, i was molested. the same thing happend, except different people. 3 i was raped by my father at the age of 12. 4 i was raped by my ex-boyfrined at the age of 15. when this all happend, i was scared to tell anyone, but when i finally told someone, it was eaiser to deal with. plus if you tell someone you trust right away something can be done and you should get couseling right away... it helps, believe me... if you want to talk about any of the tings i have mentioned or something i didnt mention, let me know... i am here to listen and help in any way that i can... With Love, Krysta

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About Me: www.Ask-Krysta.Webs.com (Tempoary Website) www.MySpace.com/Ask_Krysta/ (Fixing a New 1) Ask.Krysta@Yahoo.com (Email) Krysta.Sutliff@Yahoo.com (Alt. Email) Ask.Krysta (Yahoo Messenger) Krysta.Sutliff (Alt. Yahoo Messenger) Shadow Keepers 3 (Aim/Aol Messenger) Kry09@HotMail.com (Msn Messenger) if you want to talk or just need a friend, you can contact me. i am a teen advisor/helper, so if you need some help just let me know. always email me with your messenger id(s) if you want to be added and in the subject say : talk or help or friend (pick the one you are emailing me about) : Inbox Journal

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