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    tmg  34, Female, Washington, USA - First entry!
27
Dec 2012
10:05 PM
   

New beginnings

Well hell I'm pregnant, didnt think it would be so difficult to give up so much. Being a young woman, alcoholic I gave up my party life. Didn't include much just heavy drinking, the occational weed smoking, blow once in a blue moon, and the random hookups. Believe it or not it got tiring but alcohol wasn't something I could give up easily on my own. Hard to do when your boyfriend is an alcoholic himself! But this bundle of joy as some may call it I personally think it's a bundle of toxic waste I feel pregnant every second of my day. Poop. I already love it though more and more every week, I love it for turning me into a better person in 10weeks give or take. Proud of myself really (: my stupid emotions have got me goin crazy though, jealousy issues after catching my bf talking to his ex, him not giving up drinking him rather be at the bar then think of me and my drinking issues, him not growing up and giving up the cocaine I get it you work grave yard your tired but realllllly 8 hrs of sleep isn't good enough ick. I'm not mad cause I can't do any of that "fun" stuff it's that I'm the only one that has to give that up and become a person out kid can look up to? Puhlease so irritated! What do I do ugh
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    hopelessromantic  35, Female, Philippines - 16 entries
27
Dec 2012
5:25 AM PST
   

pamagat

��Masaya ako. Masaya ako na dumating ka sa buhay ko. Hindi inaasahan pero alam mo yung pakiramdam na sa wakas ngayon ko masasabi na tunay akong masaya. Yung hindi pakitang tao. Yung hindi lang para di na ako magpaliwanag pa. Yung totoong masaya. Hindi ko man maibigay ang lahat ng naisin mo, pero gagawin ko ang lahat para maibigay ang lahat ng mga pangangailangan mo. Maliban lang sa isa. Pasensya ka na. Hindi ko kasi talaga kaya yun eh. Tsaka hindi puwede. Magiging malaking gulo lang yun at hindi mo deserve ang ganung buhay. Pinapangako ko saiyo, magiging masaya tayong dalwa. Kahit na tayo lang. Hindi kita iiwan. Kahit na anong mangyare. Mamahalin kita ng lubos. Sana pag dating ng araw, hindi mo ako kasuklaman sa mga pagkukulang ko. Sa mga hindi ko nagawa. Wala akong hinangad sa buhay kung hindi ang kabutihan mo. Anak, ikaw ang pinaga magandang nangyre sa buhay ko. Wala na akong hihilingin pa. Hindi ko na kailangan ng kahit na sino pang lalake. Ikaw lang. Alam ko na kung bakit, ang mga nanay, masyadong mahigpit, mapag alaga at mapag mahal dahil alam mo anak, nung naghihinala palang ako na ako'y nag dadalang tao, hindi ako mapakali. Napapapraaning ako,at ang hirap. Naisip ko kasi, baka may nakain na ako na hindi mo gusto. Or baka na apektuhan ka na ng sobrang stress na pinag daraanan ni mama. Tapos , ang hirap sisipin na baka magkskit ka pag naisilang kita. Napakhirap talaga. Pero hindi �ko iyon sinusimbat, gusto ko lang mainitindan mo kung bakit ang mga nanay eh ganito. Pasensy ka na kung wala si papa. Hindi natin siya puwede makasama. Hindi mo pa din siya puwede makilala sa ngayon. Hindi ko kasi alam kung matatanggap ka niya eh. Kung kaya ka niyang pinindigan. Nagkasala kasi si mama nak, at hindi ko puwede ipaglaban si papa dahil pag mamay-ari siya ng iba. Pag laki mo maiintindihan mo din ako. At pag laki mo, yung tipong kaya mo na ipag tanggol ang sarili mo, ipapakilala kita sa papa mo. Sa ngayon, ayoko na masaktan ka. Hindi ko matatanggap yun. Hindi ko kasi talaga alam kung tanggap ka niya.�

Mahal na mahal kita. Wala na akong mahihiling pa sa buhay. :D�

Mama

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    NoDeadenz  21, Male, New York, USA - 84 entries
15
Dec 2012
5:55 AM EDT
   

let me love you

To whom� this concerns:
�how many times have I said I am apologetic for breaking your heart? You wont let me live it down.� I will pray that god reveals to me how remedy the pain I have caused you.
�I am thankful you understand why I did what I did. It was never my intent to hurt you. Now Iam hurting too,I wonder if you think of me as tainted. My husband throws it in my face that I was raped, of course he blames me. I am forever altered, guess you kind of figured.... You just sitting next to me made me stiff up. Its not so much that Im rejecting you. I am fearful as well as cautious more so than before. Even when you hugged me prior to your exiting I know you felt how rigid I was.

Sorry� for the tears, hope you dont consider me a weakling. Thank you for always being a listening ear, although some times I dont want to hear your thoughts. I m not sure whether its god or happenstance but everytime I am on the brink of no return you show up... For the first time in a long while do I feel that I matter, that I am beautfuil also deserving of recriprocal love. Of course anyone who is willing to listen is aware of how you feel about me. You would shout it from the roof top if you havent already. LOL:)��
I have smiled when I wanted to cry, pretend,�when I wanted to� scream let me out of this hell! For so long I have been freaking miserable, not just in personal relationships but unhappy with the idea that I am stuck. Stuck in� depression, stuck in a marriage that should have never happened. Stuck with someone who is jealous of my children, stuck with my own warped thoughts. My list of things I believe Im� handcuffed to are endless.

For my kids I must make some drastic changes, I no longer want them to see me like this. Nor do am I going to be a victim of circumstances, scared but ready for change. Not refering to a man but a better relationship with self and God. John can never love me Iike I need to be loved, he does not love� himself. Cause if he did he would do better!�

I cant focus my attention on him rite now� I got to� take care of me. Iam vunerable� presently. hope you dont take advantage of this. Not to say that you ever had. just dont please!� I Love you�with agape love.
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    rodsibhatia  36, Female, India - 3 entries
06
Dec 2012
6:29 AM IST
   

Humidity And Humidity Test Chamber Manufacturer In India

Humidity test chambers are equipment’s that are used to test how well a product or material retains its quality over its life time. In other words, this equipment’s are used to detect the humidity and temperature ranges. They are extensively used in pharmaceutical industry and also involve a lot of research as the life of the components is dependent on them.

These chambers are usually used for the study of cells for living beings. This kind of study is equally valid in the study for vegetables, flowers and some foods. Therefore, we can say that though these products require certain temperature to function, hence, these chambers detect the kind of temperature that is required for these products to survive.

Moreover, these chambers examine the best situation that is required to test the productivity of plants and vegetables. Apart from these, there are also several tests that are being conducted to detect a change in the life span of human beings, to delay the process of getting old, and also to delay the stage of stage of grey hair. Humidity test chambers are even capable of finding out the minute fault in a product.

However, humidity chambers are provided with humidity capsules that are used to control humidity within a chamber. These capsules are placed and pierced in the test chamber itself. A logger cap contains a memory chip that is connected to the sensor cap and is also used to connect and collect the transmit data wirelessly to the control software. Each test that takes place is monitored in its own micro humidity chamber and humidity settings can be varied as per the testing requirement.

This equipment’s have a sturdy construction. These are double walled convection heated and cooled units. The outer body of humidity chambers are made from thick PRPC sheet duly pre-treated with primers and rust proofing and painted with long lasting stove or elegantly power coated. The inner chamber is made of heavy gauge stainless steel sheet of SS-304 grade or anodized aluminium sheet. The gap between these walls is filled with high grade mineral glass wool that in some or the other way ensures maximum thermal efficiency. Apart from these two, the unit is also provided with two doors.

The inner door is made of thick plexi glass float so that the user can view specimens or the objects without disturbing the temperature of the chamber. Whereas the outer door is made of mild steel sheet lined with stainless steel from inside. This is even provided with the lock and the key arrangement.

Acmas Technocracy Pvt. Ltd. is leading manufacturing company for Lab Equipments. we deals for Laboratory & industrial testing products such as humidity test chambers, Ozone Climate Test Chamber and Dust Test Chamber.

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    Mario  54, Male, Connecticut, USA - 27 entries
05
Dec 2012
12:46 PM PDT
   

The Course Of Our Lives

The Course Of Our Lives

The inner scope of the game called life
Shattered fragments amidst the pain
While the world outside runs totally insane
Shelter lies dormant onto its beckoning call asunder
Isn't it any wonder we have too much time on our hands
When will we ever speed the day with the hope to understand
A friend in need to wallow in the digress of thought
Two strangers holding hands together will reach the peak
We all must humbly obey the message the course of its saving message
A carriage left abandoned although twisted in the wind
A chance at its landing space on the surface of its plan
One doesn't know the next breath that they will take
In pain left inside a willingness to run away & hide
A choice of apathy & desires of the forbidden flesh
Through its carnal eyes we must treasure its chest
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    JusticeMarie  29, Female, Michigan, USA - 2 entries
29
Nov 2012
8:08 AM EDT
   

Super Sore

Well,
Tonight I'm going to the club with two friends. And hopefully live. ^_^
im super freaking sore from this morning and the night before last :)

See ya laters, baby. xoxo
Justice Marie
Tags: sex, sore, yep
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    AdamsWendy  39, Male, Texas, USA - First entry!
10
Nov 2012
6:52 AM MDT
   

Should You Buy New Office Furniture?

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Better way to get freshen up to the latest ones: If you have started your business venture way back in seventies where you never had the options like burnt sienna and avocado green office furniture, then just keep in mind that you have to update your office. This is simply a fine decision to bring customers closer to your place and also would help your employees with good quantity of comfort while working with these modernized user friendly new office furniture West Palm Beach.

It can lax the tax: Yes the good news is that you can save some tax money provided you have small size businesses, the charge of your office supplies plus the furniture is regularly tax deductible. All these expenses could be either deducted in the first year up to some good amount or could be depreciated. Thus buying Tampa office furniture, which is unfamiliar, could be a tax savior option for you.

These are more ergonomically friendly: You could have a lowly office chairs for years, however, these may not help your employees to remain productive while working with them. You need to show your team that you really care a lot about them, hence investing some healthiness friendly and comfortable trade in office furniture Miami is a must for people working for long hours.

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    Maffasaur  27, Female, Australia - First entry!
07
Nov 2012
4:52 AM AEST
   

I had a weird dream the other night. Rhys had tied me up, you know, like in bondage porn & such. I was tied around my legs, ankles, wrists, waist & breasts. I was tied to a bush/tree near a bus stop down the street from my home. I remember knowing that his intentions were cruel. I was strung up to be humiliated & used & taken by anybody who wished. I'm not sure why I had this dream or what it meant.
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    ValidateMySkill  27, Female, Georgia - 4 entries
06
Nov 2012
10:04 AM
   

What do I take for granted?

I think I take my family, my life...anything I have..it's taken for granted...I mean people don't realize how lucky we for the stuff we have....until it's gone...cherish the little things.
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    areyouthereGod  49, Female, Nevada, USA - First entry!
31
Oct 2012
2:23 AM MST
   

Newly Weds







What does a woman do when the burden of a secret has grown to a weight�it can no longer be carried? Lay it down, that is the only conclusion I can come to. Lay it all out on the line. Lay it out for the world to see and hope relieving myself of this horrible burden no one pays attention. I hope no one reads this but I will only find a sense of freedom if I vomit up all the words that have been choking me for the last year.�
�� I am a newly wed, and since I married a little over a year ago my husband no longer makes love to me. What shouldve been the most romantic year of my life has been the coldest. Like a record breaking winter that no one predicted, my marital bed was�hit like a flash flood. Not only have I been neglected sexually but I've been altogether ignored. I've become more of a buddy, laughing over the funnies with�morning coffee and a slap on the back instead of a kiss. No holding hands, no more burying my face in his hairy chest after multiple orgasms. Yep, there was a time when multiple orgasms was as common as 3 meals a day. I never imagines this would happen. We were in love. We couldn't get enough of eachother, kissing and touching eachother constantly. I felt sexy because I was having so much sex. I laughed a lot because I was giddy and madly in love. Women are not complicated. We are as simple as men, When we are having orgasms on a regular basis we aren't moody nags. I vaguelly remember that woman. I still look the same, but I don't feel the same. I am at a complete loss as to what I do next as I see nothing changing anytime soon. I don't want to have an affair!



























































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