JUST ME

Jun 2013
8:27 AM CST

Starting Somwthing Different

Summer has started and so has my new ideas for different things. I have decided to start writing my bucket list on twitter and gmail. �I am also broadcasting my story ideas and definitions for words I learned just this last school year. I don't know if that was a bad idea, but I can't wait to find out.

Tags: home...sick...again

Add comment

Apr 2012
2:02 PM CST

Life isn't worth living for!

Life is worth living for. That's a load of Bull poop! Life isn't worth living for our dreams, hopes, bettering your skills, and others are what is worth living for. If life is what is living for than you aren't even really living that's what I say. You have to live for some other reason than to live. I am living because I want to be here to see my 15year old sister get married after she goes to college. I am here because I want to become a published author and then go to each in a country in Africa every summer. I am here because I want to apologize to my 1st boyfriend for all I did to him in hopes he will forgive and will just be my friend. I am here because God has an unknown plan for me.

Tags: A good reason is worth living for

Add comment

Apr 2012
12:25 PM CST

Love Me

I love being me!

Being me means I am unique with my own style.

Being me means I can do something no one else can.

Being me means having my own way of doing things and not letting anyone tell me different or control my life. Being me is fun.

Tags: Being Me!

Add comment

Apr 2012
1:39 PM CST

Library Cards and Credit Cards

U no how u can tel Im a real teen? 2 ways 2 no is how Im usin txt talk rite now, & how I use my pRents cRds 2 get thins. No I no wut ur thinkin, but Im not talkin bout credit cRds. Im talkin bout library cRds. I may not buyin thins but I am putin holds on thins 2 pik up then use my pRents' cRds 2 collect 'em wich's jus the same. The real big difrentence's the library's stuf's free.

Tags: YEP Im a REAL grlygrl and nerdygrl 2

Add comment

Apr 2012
3:22 PM CST

"You can get this"

Have u ever noticed that whenever something bad happens someone says " you (or we)�will (or can) get through this", and ur like "no we can't". It is like this everyday for me. I have to get up and say "Its going to be a great day!" Then to struggle through it realizing it isn't. On top of that I have 3 sisters, my parents, my counselor, online school, and myself telling me things and controlling my life. It gives me that trapped feeling that almost all teenagers feel. But for me I feel it is doubled because of having anxiety, clinical depression, (possible) PTSD, ADHD, Aspergers, (possible) sichzerfrina (or spiritual warefare), the female "monthly gift", having suicidial thoughts (which makes me feel like a hipocrite), having to take 3 pills a day, and just being me. I just want to go someplace for a day or 2 and take a needed time away from home. It isn't a break just a 1 or 2 night breather. My parents say it is too unsafe, my counselor says it will only make it easier for me to actually commit suicide, my sisters say it will never happen, and I say " IT"S ONLY A TIME TO TAKE AND BREATHER AND REFLECT ON MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!!" My "friends" are willing to help me get away from the house only for a couple of hours, but my church has a lot of events coming up that involve staying over night and vounteering during the day. I really want to do this. I may be 16, but this is how I feel. If only I could tell everyone this without them freaking out and causing me to be a psco killer or something. I going to be a legal adult next year and so far this is looking like no one will let me work on growing up at my own pass. I just want to yell "THIS IS MY LIFE ITS TIME FOR U TO LET ME GO A LITTLE MORE AND NOT FREAK OUT AS MUCH WHEN I TALK ABOUT IT ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JUST CALM DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
That's just the truth the way I see it. It is never the same for everyone else, but it is for me.

Tags: ME BEING ME?!

Add comment

Apr 2012
1:53 PM CST

16 minutes and 59 seconds

I did it! I got 16min and 59sec on my mile run. Last time it took me 20 minutes. I did the BMI test and it made me pissed off and this is why:

Information Entered

Age: 16 years 6 months	�	�	Sex: Girl
�	�	�	Height: 5 feet 7–1/2 inch(es)
Date of Measurement: April 06, 2012	�	�	Weight: 187 pounds

�

Results

�

�	Based on the height and weight entered, the BMI is 28.9 , placing the BMI-for-age at the 94th percentile for girls aged 16 years 6 months. This teen is overweight

�Can you see what I am saying? The stupid test is saying I am over weight.Mom said I wasn't! That shows you that you can never trust your relatives about your weight.

Tags: I AM PISSSSSSSSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Add comment

1 comment(s) - 12:06 PM - 04/07/2012

Apr 2012
12:11 PM CST

Fitness Tests

I have a lot of fitness tests to do today to catch up with the rest of my online PE class. I wish me luck,�it is hard to stay confident about all of this.�

Tags: and Sit and reachs Oh My!, Curl ups, Mile Run, Sit ups

Add comment

Apr 2012
5:57 PM CST

FootLoose (Continued)

What Do you all think?

Add comment

Apr 2012
5:55 PM CST

Footloose

The newer Footloose is WAY better with catagraphying ( spelled wrong) in their dancing. The old one stucked in that. The love interest�and romance is way better in the first movie. I love how there is less use of drugs and alcohole�in the second version of the��movie that works out better. The second�version of the movie explains the past and the background more. Both movies make me wonder if there is places like that in the United States or�in the world. I don't wht I would do without music or dancing. I think I would probably go completely insane. Sometimes I think dancing keeps�me sane along with writing, reading, swimming, My sister Skye, and church.�

Add comment

Apr 2012
10:01 AM CST

A Cool Thing

I have this account on a auditioning/management website. The thing is I never actually go to the auditions and try out. So if any of you would like to try out then tell me about it that would be great.

Commercial for Major Retailer
Location: Nationwide
Gender: Female
Age range: 15 to 25
Submission Deadline: 04/13/2012

Pay Rate: 7,500 per event.��

Faces And Figures Of The Future
Location: Nationwide
Gender: Female
Age range: 16 to 21
Submission Deadline: 04/29/2012

Pay Rate: 1,000 per event.��

International Print Shoot
Location: Nationwide
Gender: Female
Age range: 8 to 17
Submission Deadline: 04/13/2012

Pay Rate: 950 per day.��

Edgy/Hip Clothing Line
Location: Nationwide
Gender: Female
Age range: 6 to 17
Submission Deadline: 04/24/2012

Pay Rate: 400 per day.��

Promotional Ads For New Show
Location: Nationwide
Gender: Female
Age range: 6 to 19
Submission Deadline: 04/15/2012

Pay Rate: 400 per event.��

Actress For Commercial Needed - Seattle
Location: Seattle, Wa
Gender: Female
Age range: 16 to 25
Submission Deadline: 05/01/2012

Tags: COOL huh?

Add comment

Apr 2012
1:39 PM CST

"The injury we do and the one we suffer are not weighed in the same scale." - Aesop
Which is so true because there are 2 different sides, but not just between the hurted and the conflicter but also the hurted and the conflicted have there own sides and problems.
"Perfect love means to love the one through whom one became unhappy." - Soren Kierkegaard That is just really hard. Doens anyone have any advice for that? It would help a lot with my sisters.

Tags: Quotes

Add comment

Apr 2012
11:43 PM CST

Questions and Answers 3/31/2012

Do I want to go live somewhere else?Yes
Do I want to go live in a mental hospital? No
Do I want to go to jail? If it is what has to be done.
Do I want to go into foster care? Sometimes
Do I still want to be protected by mom and dad, and have their help? Yes, but not with all this
Do I want to go to court and get money for the future from it?No
Do I want dad to drop me off at the library so I can ---- a guy? No, but I do want him to drop me off so I can go on the internet and be a normal teenager.
Do I want grow up? Not anymore! I want to be able to be a teenager with fewer rules.
Do I still want to be a teacher and author anymore? I don’t know, it’s getting harder to decide if I’m still going to do those things.
Will I go online to message a guy again? There is a good chance I will, I have to guys that I really want to message RIGHT now that I can’t because of everything.
Do I want to talk to the detective? No, ---- NO! I rather drop dead right now than have to deal with a snoopy detective for a case that is going to court that I really don’t want to b apart of when it is all about me.
Why do I like mess up this family?I don’t consider myself a true member of this family. So I don’t know why I like messing up them.
Do I want to go and ---- with a guy again? Yes
How long have I had contact with the guy since the situation?The week after I started using Aumi to contact him, but he hasn’t started to contact me personally since Thursday.
Why do I hurt my sisters?� They piss me off and I just have had enough of it. I don’t need them cussing at, making faces at, and getting me in trouble on purpose. I don’t want to be around THEM anymore.
Will I just pull my pants down for anyone?I don’t think so. I think I will only have --- with certain people. I do know it won’t be with any girls that is for sure considering I am a girl.
Do I want help in this situation from mom and dad and let them guide me? N0, I rather left alone in this and not even go to court.
Should mom and dad just give up on me right now and just let me do whatever what I want?No because mom and dad shouldn’t give up on me just yet, but yes they should let me do whatever I want.
Do I want to be able to get a job? I am able to get a job. If the question was,do I want a job?
Then the answer would be YES, YES, YES.
Does Skye have my respect? Yes, she has always been there, I can sometimes talk to her when I am upset, and she has helped me out a lot.
Am I grounded? No, not yet anyways. By what I know.
Will I tell Skye my username and password for Facebook? ---- NO! But so far she has guessed Pok�mon, pink Pok�mon, and William as my password which are ALL wrong. I will not give up my Facebook information to Skye, this computer, anyone or to anyone else. And that is a promise.
Will I give Kayla My password and username to my Facebook? ---- NO! But Skye is still guessing she has now guessed Aumi (which was close), will, and I love will. All are still wrong. And I am mad that Skye brought Kayla into this.
Am I a ---? No, but I may be a ---- because of all my feelings for and about ---.
Do I still want to live in this house? This question is asked to me every month, and the answer is always No. I can’t handle always being the one that messes up this family and always being the one that can’t pass my parents and God’s expectations. If I leave that mean there is less of a chance that I might kill myself because I am a disgrace to my family.
Did I chop a guy? No
Do I want to chop a guy? ---- NO!
Do I want to graduate high school with a diploma? Yes, I also want to go to college (if possible).

Tags: 3/3/2012

Add comment

Apr 2012
11:41 PM CST

Questions From yesterday

Did I fun walking the mall with Skye, Kayla, and Chris? The truth is I really didn’t. I felt completely unwanted (like always). Skye kept telling to go someplace or walk somewhere, and then when I did she would get mad at me for it and say I had to walk in front of her to keep an eye on me. When I protested she would say it was because I kept walking away. Then when I was walking in front of her she got mad because I was walking too fast. That is why I usually walk behind her, so I don’t have to worry as much on how she wants me to be. Skye was very controlling she kept telling me that I had to do things like sit somewhere or walk someplace when the truth is I just wanted to have fun and me a normal teenager for 1 hour and �. Kayla even told a Mexican guy that was passing by me that I liked him just to mess with me and when he looked back he looked disgusted.� Then there were 3 guys that saw us than ran. I told Skye that if we got close enough to them I would flip them off so when we were in the narrow hallway close to the cafeteria one of the guys were covering his face and we got 3 feet close to them and I flipped them off and kept walking. The guy who covered his head notice and yelled at Kayla. Kayla yelled back then Skye yelled at the guy also. After that we just walked in the cafeteria then left.
Am I feeling O.K? Not really. I couldn’t really do anything at the mall.
How am I feeling?Glad? A little, I am glad that I got to walk the mall. Upset? Yes, just look at the answer for question 28. Tired? Yes, I really am. When I walk the mall it always makes me really tired, and lately I have been tired anyways so now I am super tired.
Did I start my ------ today? Yes, I kind of expected it after what happened yesterday with me freaking out and all. The thing is I still want to go stay somewhere else for a while because I think it might help.
�Am I on the internet? No, all the networks are password protected so the only way to go on the internet from here is to get the network password from someone else with wireless internet.
Why wasn’t I at the people hunt yesterday? �There are 2 reasons for that. The 1^st reason is I got in trouble for what happened Friday for using Facebook to message guys. The 2^nd reason is dad forgot all about the people hunt.
Did I have fun at church? Yes, I got to see a guy I like in class today and for intro we played a game called Apples to Apples. Also we had a mixed class because the middle schoolers were in the Sunday school class with us today. Another reason is I won 1 round and got to judge 1 of the rounds, and today was the potluck for church.
What do I think about this whole living situation thing between being at home and staying somewhere else for a while? I want to stay home, but I need some breaks. So I want to go somewhere else to stay for a while.
Do I want to stay home and have mom and dad’s protection? Yes, I want to be able to stay home, but I don’t want all mom and dad’s protection. I want them to let me do things on my own and let me give my opinion on certain topics and things.
�Can dad leave me home with the other girls without any problems? It should workout like that as long as no one provokes me or causes any problems with me.
What was that guy’s name from church? The guy from church is named Chayne (Shane).
Do I like him? Yes, but I only consider him a friend.
�Do I have a crush on him? �Yes I do. I think he is sweet, very cute, and nice.
Who was that boy sitting next to me in the sanctuary at the table and talking to me?� Chayne (Shane)
Who was the girl I was talking to in the foyer? Her name is Katja (cot-cha).
�Where does she live? I don’t know
How old is she? She is 17.
Does she have a job? I don’t know.
Don’t I want to grow up?� I am starting not to want to anymore because of the things dad used to tell me when I was younger.
So I am just giving up? No, not right now. But I feel like I am at the verge of giving up. This is just beginning to tear me apart into a million.
Do I feel like I am a 3 ring circus? Right now I do. I have to� deal with school, sexual feeling, the people in my head, my aunt Kathy, Skye, the little girls, dad, papa, grandma, and just being me. All this is making me want to tear myself from the inside out.
I didn’t flip you off while I was shutting your door, so what were you thinking?Skye you did flip me off right before you shut the door and don’t come in my room acting all gangster and ganging up on me like that.You know that I can’t break this promise to dad.
Hey Linnea, what’s going on? Well this is completely off the subject, but do youknow about how I had sex with William?Well we had it 3 times and the 3^rd time he raped me. Then last Friday I got caught Facebook messaging him. Linnea?! Why would you go off doing something like that? I don’t know why. I was just being stupid and a dumb---. So now I am in big trouble and parents don’t know what they are going to do with me. So back to the situation at hand Skye and the little girls are having problems and I just couldn’t handle listening to it again. Especially with everything going on with me and the messed up stuff that has been happening on the side.

Tags: 4/1/2012

Add comment

Mar 2012
12:59 PM CST

The Switch

Just switched from public school to online. I miss being in a classroom and getting help from my teachers inperson. At least now there isn't a guy that tries to mess with me or a bunch of stupid drama to deal with ( unless I go into the school blog of course). The thing that really sucks is that I have to go to the Library everyday to do it. Oh well...

I�like these 2 guys at church. One I can't talk to because Im to shy around him, and the other I just like talking to all the time.

The Church is going to the mall saturday I am hoping to see them both there. If my dad lets me go.�

Tags: Rose and the Thorn

Add comment

Feb 2012
11:21 AM CST

Out with the old life and in with the new life

�So after what happen with that one guy I got mad, but yesterday a new guy asked me out and I said yes. He is really�sweet and a higher classmen. If you have any advice it would be greatly appreciated. Also today is final day, so wish me luck!�

Add comment

Jan 2012
2:23 PM CST

Crush guy turns to a jerk guy

There was a guy I liked and he told me to ask him out yesterday and he would think about us. Well last night I wrote a note asking for the truth and clearification because I knew he really didn't really like me. Well this morning I gave him the note and told him that I seriously wanted the truth. Well at lunch he sented a messager back to me instead of giving me the note himself. I�now know that he really is a jerk.�

Just got�caught typing this. So bye for now��

Add comment

1 comment(s) - 07:21 PM - 03/27/2012

May 2011
1:19 PM CST

Hi

�� Tonight I going to be in a choir performance at my school. Our class will be singing 3 songs one from "Sound of Music", the second is a country song called " My Wish" and a song by Journey.

Add comment

Mar 2011
1:32 PM CST

update

i have my service pup. I'm currently ungrounded and am going to help teach a friend� of mine sign.

Tags: Great!

Add comment

Jan 2011
4:16 PM CST

Trying to help

Doing good. I am apart of this Group called 'Adopt A Friend" what we do is advertise animals in need of homes. Like theses that came from bestfriends.org:

�

Shi Shi

Breed:	Rabbit
Gender:	Female
Age:	Adult
Size:	Medium
Location:	Kanab, Utah

��

OK, not really. But�she's just as adorable - and even softer! - so you could pretend that's what she is. And her panda markings are the reason this adorable rabbit got her famous name.

She born in 2006. She�went to Best Friends from a terrible overcrowded rabbit situation. And now, she's hoping to hop, thump, and "cute" her way into your home.

�

Sugar

Breed:	Domestic short hair
Gender:	Female
Age:	Young (1-4 Years)
Size:	Medium
Location:	Kanab, Utah

�

Like any youngster, Sugar is still learning how to share. Oh, she's fine sharing food, toys and litter boxes. It's "you" she's not real big on sharing.

And she's not afraid to go after what she wants . and that's you! Nothing gets in Sugar's way when she wants attention. Not her somewhat deformed front leg. Not other cats who may not like so much confidence in a pint-sized tabby. When it's time for some sugar, it's time for some Sugar!

But don't worry - she's high maintenance, but she's no diva. If you insist you have something else you have to do, she's perfectly content to play with her toys or just lounge in the sun.

If you're looking for someone sweet, please consider this poor stray, Sugar!�

Tags: Adopt them!

Add comment

May 2010
10:06 AM EDT

Save the wildlife

Now I'm a super serious animal activist trying to save the wildlife if u R w/ me in having the Japanese Dolphins go 2 whaleman.com.
� Also if� U have any other websites I can look @ send them to me @� Linnea13star@gmail.com. SAVE THE DOLPHINS!!!

Tags: SAVE ALL ANIMALS!

Add comment

1 | 2 Next Last

linnea14star's Profile

Username: linnea14star

Gender / Age: Female, 29

Location: USA - Washington

LINNEA14STAR's Interests:

About Me: I have 3 young sisters that I sometimes have problems with, but love alot. my own pup named Aumi.

Interests: I like to play girlie games on the computer. I love to read chapter books, and write.I also like to swim and sell jewelry

Favorite Music: Christian Classical

Favorite Movies: sound of music chronicles of narnia

Favorite Television: Poke'mon Dinosar King

Favorite Books: Left Behind (kid Series) Talent

LINNEA14STAR's Friends:

vampiricakatt
cupcake5999
burqunde