Why must love be so difficult? You feel amazing�as if�you are�flying but then when you look away to wish on a star everything changes. You are no longer flying and you suddenly realize that you are�falling and it is�only a matter of time before you crash and burn. Then you think to yourself, "How can something so sweet, so lovely, wither away in the palm of your hands and the world continues to go on like nothing ever happened?" You feel like your heart has been strangled by love and everything inside your chest that used to keep you happy seems to have spilled out on the floor and vanish into the air that is now suffocating your every breath. The warmth inside your soul no longer seems to keep you warm and you feel lost and bitter. You notice that your trembling lips that once used to speak with such grace doesn't speak more than just a word, a word that isn't exactly truth but a mask hiding your�emotions so you don't have to explain your reasons for feeling nothing more but numbness and cold tears that escape from your no longer sparkling eyes. Suddenly you don't feel alive but yet you welcome death at your front door because you rather feel something than nothing at all. As time passes by, you have�become something so small that you are almost invisible but it doesn't hurt you because you have�learned to not feel but that still doesn't stop the undying tears. But at the end of the day, you know what you want and you know what you need. All you need is to spread your love and fly away.
OK so 2wks ago a friend moved in to my house...she moved from haivn an apartment� to livin wit me n my parents....i feel soooo bad.. n she knows that....then another thing is that i have obc and bp web sites....once i told her bout them she gets them n is gettin blown up like crazy makin me feel ugly....she is pretty but she really in to her self to...so when she knows she's lookin good she's like damn i look good and well take pics like crazy of her self...for example...last sat night we BOTH were look freakin amazing she used my camara n all the pic on there were of her...only 3 of me...grrr she a good freind n shit n were goin in to the navy that y she moved in...to support eachother.....grrrrrrr im just soo fustreated n w/ she being a lil consided is not helping....damn damn damn i just know what to do....everyone who i have to talk to about this n told them how i feel are like ur cute too blah blah blah...well i must not but that bomb.....ok soo now im dont venting ...pls let me kno what u think...if im stupid for think like this or what....
~Dianna~
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