Lovely_Monster

 
    
17
Jan 2011
6:29 PM CDT
   

I light a match and set my self on fire,
With bruised wings, my life has expired.

Suffocating smoke chokes my breathing,
My body goes numb but I’m still screaming.

I want to burn the remains of my dying soul,
And watch the rising flames take full control.

The flames are burning underneath my skin,
Breathe in and breathe out my lethal sin.

I want to feel my heart rip out of my chest,
My thoughts about death are confessed.

Feel my soul wither and die,
Whisper me softly a lullaby.
Drain my body of my blood,
Kill me slowly and do it good.
Squeeze my heart with your hands,
Tear it apart in little strands.
Kiss my lips and say goodbye,
Hold me in your arms and let me die.
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08
Jan 2011
1:50 PM CDT
   

Hearts are like glass, easily broken and hard to fix. When that heart shaped glass shatters, you let tears form from your glossy eyes as you glance down at the 1,548,362 pieces that are scattered around you. Every tear that falls to the ground feels like razor blades making black mascara leave stains upon your saddened face. Picture perfect memories sway back and forth inside your mind, reminding you of what used to be and what could have been. You try searching for the right words to say but the only thing that escapes from your trembling lips is, “Forever and always is a red stained lie that everyone believes in. “ But deep down you know in your soul that love is a killer and you keep playing the innocent victim.��
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03
Jan 2011
1:20 PM CDT
   

With a finger on the trigger,
I'm slipping through your hold that barely lingers,
Your words are like the bullets that are ending every part of me,
Please don't go, not ever because I can't set you free.

Watching you walk away is like a thousand razor blades through my lungs and heart,
I'm choking on my words as my life crashes down around me and crumbles all apart,
Without you, I feel so empty and utterly small,
You are the reason why I'm even here at all.

Without you, I feel so dead inside that my thoughts are so fucked up and I feel so alone,
Being in your life is the only good thing that I have ever known,
I take a deep breath and close my eyes for the last time,
I don't want to live a day without you being mine.

With a finger on the trigger,
I'm slipping through your hold that barely lingers,
Your words are like the bullets that are ending every part of me,
Please don't go, not ever because I can't set you free.




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28
Dec 2010
1:27 PM CDT
   

When you are alone, you feel like something inside of you has died but you don't realize it because you're looking through a window with broken glass. Darkness surrounds you to the point you can't find any sign of life. After awhile happiness becomes a non existing emotion that isn't in your reach. You know a part of you has died when laughter is only heard by screams and your dreams fade into nightmares so disturbing you refuse to close your eyes. Sadness blooms inside you; nearly locked in your soul and the key is lost. You don't even try to find the key because you know it's impossible. Your thoughts become warped and twisted as you drift into something so terrible, that you can feel the life being sucked right out of your silenced chest. You try to fight your demons but you have no chance of winning the battle, the battle in which you have�already lost. You watch your life rot into dust that�is swept away by the wind. The demons inside you whisper in your ears such sick things that make your stomach turn in every direction until you find yourself on the ground praying to a God, that you ask for forgiveness and strength in, but you can't resist the dark command when you are�face to face with the demon. Suddenly you no longer live by your morals and you begin to swear by the book. Your cold fingers trace your tattered body that has taken part in your wrath and boils in your blood, pulsing guilty sins into your veins. Sharp objects leave wounds across your skin revealing a secret that you fear the most.�You are guided down deaths path as you struggle for your right to live, but you hold onto nothing that is worth saving you. Life becomes meaningless as the scarlet red blood you have taken from your own body arouses you. As you find yourself at your weakest, you stare out that broken window and you kiss the rain that hits the ground, reminding you of how effortlessly you let yourself fall into everything that never would have catched you at the end of your journey in the first place.
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27
Dec 2010
1:30 PM CDT
   

Why must love be so difficult? You feel amazing�as if�you are�flying but then when you look away to wish on a star everything changes. You are no longer flying and you suddenly realize that you are�falling and it is�only a matter of time before you crash and burn. Then you think to yourself, "How can something so sweet, so lovely, wither away in the palm of your hands and the world continues to go on like nothing ever happened?" You feel like your heart has been strangled by love and everything inside your chest that used to keep you happy seems to have spilled out on the floor and vanish into the air that is now suffocating your every breath. The warmth inside your soul no longer seems to keep you warm and you feel lost and bitter. You notice that your trembling lips that once used to speak with such grace doesn't speak more than just a word, a word that isn't exactly truth but a mask hiding your�emotions so you don't have to explain your reasons for feeling nothing more but numbness and cold tears that escape from your no longer sparkling eyes. Suddenly you don't feel alive but yet you welcome death at your front door because you rather feel something than nothing at all. As time passes by, you have�become something so small that you are almost invisible but it doesn't hurt you because you have�learned to not feel but that still doesn't stop the undying tears. But at the end of the day, you know what you want and you know what you need. All you need is to spread your love and fly away.

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