martytx07's Journal

Ok, well not really much to say. I ment to post a long time ago but I think I did something wrong that made it not post. Anyways, umm, let's see. Since the last post which was way too long ago, I don't even know what to write about. I guess I'll just talk about things from the past week. Umm, well nothing has really been happening. I'm thinking about applying at the plasma center and if I get that job I think I might leave Krogers. I really like the people there and what not but it's just not what I want to do right now. I don't want a job that's like so much physical work, I'm gay and I like light stuff, lol. I know not all gays are like that but shit, I am. I'm the typical gay dude who doesn't like to work hard phsycially but doesn't mind a challenge for the mind. That being said, I'm not 100% sure how hard it would be work at the plasma but the pay is like $2 more so that's a lot better already. Sucky thing though is that I can't donate at that center anymore if I do get hired. I'm just gonna apply later today and whatever happens happens. If I get the job then I'll probably be quiting Kroger's sometime after. I've been getting a lot more hours at Krogers too. I got 40 hours last week (first time ever getting 40 hours) and then I got 38 the week before so yeah, pretty nice checks. Well not that nice, only about $178 for the 38 hour week and I'm expecting like $180something for the one next week. And this week I'm only getting 24 hours...that's not much at all but oh well, I think it will give me a lot of time to relax and get the plasma application done with and give me time to talk to the dude who works at the plasma center. Yeah, and work was pretty nice working in the morning. I spent a lot of time with that Josue dude...the one who I think is like super hot. He's like, ugh, I like him a lot. I still think I like Tony more even though Tony isn't as hot as Josue but for some really odd reason I like those thugish guys...Josue for the most part isn't so thugish. I have no idea what I like those type of dudes, it's really weird. I guess opposites attract or something, I don't know. I couldn't be thugish to save my life, lol. But yeah, I really wish that Josue was a little gay or something, lol. At least bi! Well he has a little girl but he seems like he flirts or something but I'm probably just like making it out to be more than what it is. The other day, when I got there and I was working for a minute he saw me and was like, "What, I don't get a hug?" I just went up to him and like patted him on his back and like stood side by side next to him and he was like, "Man move, I don't want a hug." and he started laughing. And like yeah, he's just so freaking cute. I would give it up to him quick I'm sure which isn't a very good thing to do...damn, I'm a slut sometimes! ANYWAYS, here lately I've been like yearning for...well I don't know if it's only sex, but I just want to you know, lol. Dang, I hate sounding like a complete whore because I'm really not but the last time I've ever done anything with another guy was like four years ago......now that's a long ass time. I've thought about just going online and having someone come meet me real quick and just go somewhere to make out or something but no, I would be WAY too scared to do some shit like that and plus since I'm not out...that isn't going to work. Oh, and here's something interesting, see, this happened a long time ago but since it's been forever since I last wrote in this thing I just forgot. Anyways, when I was working one day some black dude like came up to me and like just started talking to me. I was like, umm, ok. I talked to him of course because he's a "customer" so of course I do small talk. And he's like talking a lot and some old man saves me by starting to talk to him and I make a get-away. I go and when I come back out he's not there thank god because yeah, 1) He wasn't cute!

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2) He said he was like 25 but his hair was balding...yeah, not cute at all. 3) He was more femine than me...if I wanted a chick I think I would stick to girls and 4) He had a little bo which was not cool.....anyways, I go grab something to eat and when I'm headed back towards the back he stops me and starts talking and talking. I was just like, mmhmm. He talked about how he was stress because some other workers had said some homophobic slurs and yada yada. And then I was just thinking, oh, he probably knows. And he continues talking about how people ignore him and this and that and then says something about if any of that has happened to me and I tell him, what, ignore me. I don't think so. And anyways, he asked if I go to Dallas clubs or something and I bring up Oakland, never been there but Iknew that's what he was talking aboutbecause my cousin goes over there and he just smiles and is like, so you do go over there and I just tell him no and say I heard about it. Anyways, yeah, he then is like, so what do you do for fun, yada yada, and I'm just like, umm, spend time alone...I'm content by myself (even though not compelty true I just wanted to get away from him!) And he's like, well do you like cofee and I'm just like, umm, no! Anyways...ok, well earlier, I had to stop writing and it's like five hours later and after aplying and what not I recieved a phone call from the manager at the plasma center calling to see if I could come in for an interview on Wednesday at 11AM. How neat is that??? I applied and like 4 hours later I get a call...AWESOME!!! Anyways, that's all I'm gonna write right now...and yes, this is a lot but I had a lot to say. From now on I'm gonna write everything in a notepad and then copy/paste online...at least I don't get a warning to hurry up and post or my work will be lost!!!

-M.