I was still afraid of the judgement I might recieve from people I do not and will probably not ever know on this site.
Well, here goes a public entry of my feelings.
I am really trying to change things about my thinking especially. Its working, but then again, something always comes up to get me angry and back to my destructuve negativity again.
SO what do I decide to do now? I decide to not give up and revert to bad habits like I did before just because I don;t see things working out right away. I am getting better though by not giving up. I'll come back later b/c I have dinner.
No need for�the fear, no one wants to hear the voice of the closeted bigot who decided to jump out all of a sudden and scare the progressive Americans with their racism, prejudice, and fallacy. I didn't fully support either candidate, but I kow that it was definately President�Obama's time. I am so surprised though, about how people you see everyday and expect to act a certain way, end up acting in a way that you never thought possible. People still say the man is a terrorist and people still say that he's Muslim, as if being Muslim is wrong, alluding to the notion that Muslims and Arabs were responsible for terrorism in America (9/11 attacks in NY), and that makes him less American. You hear how ignorant those peole sound?�America gets a change, and people feel like they want to get involved, including me. Everyone talks about how my generation is apathetic, well we're going to get things done now. With the proper spirit, the proper tools, and the proper people, we will progress together as people and achieve things today that can better our future FOREVER. I'm grateful that I got to see this day, especially 3 days shy of my 17the birthday :)
Went to a spanich church today. Well its at my regular church but there's a special Spanish service. It was great, I enjoyed the message, and it was also translated into English. I understood some of the Spanish parts though. I really should speak fluently by now, after learning the language for about 9 off and on years...Yeah so, I was still pretty moody today, feeling down, but eventually I brightened up and felt better, i found a sweater tunic, with gray and purple stripes on sale for about $6 at Target. Muy impotente...I also bought these colourful festive socks that helped me feel better. I'll probably wear them on Halloween. My hair feels sticky as hell from the honey I put in it thinking if I mix it with olive oil and water like the people on the internet did, it will help my hair. It works best as a deep conditioner that should be washed out. On wednesday or so, I'll wash out my hair.� So yeah, and I tried to get some homework done. I decided to make my entry public today, mainly because I have nothing to hide, and because I'm feeling that since I'm new to this site, I should at least show my face here once before I run back into my protective shell�again. There's so much more to me than I could ever describe on any of these websites, but the basics are that I'm a junior in high school, I live in the United States, too paranoid to specify where exactly, and my family is from Jamaica. I love reading, writing, listening to glorious music, spending time with family and friends, as well as drawing, singing, dancing when I can, eating, despite how skinny I am, and what else? Well that's the jist of it. My entry is kind of a bore, but I gues that's why i made it public...
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