Janira's Journal

Jan 2011
4:54 PM

Regular Day...Well I just didn't get to the mini drama today to tired to even explain.

Today was just one of those days you just wish everything could be calm but it's sort of everywhere. School wasn't so bad but it wasn't great either. I learned first day before break that night really which earlier that day was make up day at school. I had planned to go and played games but was tired and felt maybe no one would really want me there anyways so I just stayed home. well I wish I had looked in my binder because I realized that I left my poem which was 50 points. So I emailed it to her the next week when my teacher was supposed to be able to get to a labtop(her old one was stolen before break) I only have five classes so since I didn't have 6th period and the testing for that was going to be an hour I took my 4th that hour and left not realizing I still had my poem so I go to see my grade today. I would have had an A but due to it being late she took ten points off and noe it's a D. I was so bummed!!! I went through math class (though every time I'm in it I feel sick by all the numbers and everything. It's an Algebra 2 class and I always feel uncomfortable in there. The teachers nice and she has control over her class unlike some other teachers. I just get nervous and go blank sometimes even at things I know a problem had 3x3 and I put 6 instead of 9. it's like I get mix up and overwhelmed i mix everything up. I wish I didn't need the class. All my other classes I make really great grades A's and one had a B it's just math and it sadly makes me sick literally. Grams has lost it competely she was supposed to drive her car to get check while my mom followed in hers so it could get checked too. she got in her car my mom asked her "Do you know where you going" Gram said "I don't know". Then after mom reminded her Gram started the car. My mom waited for her to back out but gram just stay in the car with it running on reverse not moving. All she did was look through the side window. Your probably thinking why nothing has been done yet well if some says something is wrong with gram to her face or a doctor talks to her daughter about her problems while she's in the room not looking or addressing her she get mad and says we're trying to make her seem crazy. Plus she's in denial of everything and wants to control everything although she struggles to walk now. Plus some of the things she does get to you on a mental level. I've had twists in my hair for over a week I come back from school she says when you gonna do some thing with your her it looks a mess. or as i helped her out the car your face looks bad you got bumps everywhere. it's acne!!! An ther's nothing I can do about it now I'm not eating right, I can't go exercise like I want...She goes more over board than that many times trust me that's just small. I'll end here for now I'm tired and have home work that I'll have to start after my nap.

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