Janira's Journal

Jan 2011
5:35 PM

I just realized how depressed I am. How much hell you family can do you than a stranger. I feel as though I'm just barely living. Most of my life I've was a child trying to fit in and please everyone, which looking back now I see has only brought me hell. I realize I didn't know how to live then, and I had no family to really help or understand. They just saw me as acting up and messed up my record. I rarely got out of the house every blue moon, but people don't realize a young kid staying in the house and not really learning to communicate with others can break them in so many ways. I'm a great example. Here I am at nineteen and I still don't really get to get out the house much but then I'm still living with my family. I actually didn't live the house for thanksgiving break which was a whole week. I want to be a christian but my family could care less they perfer the caltholic way and could careless about mine. I don't hate my family but I can't wait till I can leave. I don't really have anyone I can really trust and I'm to scared to even reveal my scars of my life. I feel as though I can afford a friend. You have to have a phone, decent surroundings, and not be ashamed of you self, have food at your house or be able to go out. I feel as though my life's been up for a long time and i'm still trying to dig myself out of things I've done and my family. I don't have a church of my own I .... feel like crap, so much lately. And that I couldn't trust telling a person everything about be because they'd look at me differently. And most of the time when I tell a person something and forget to update them with details I end up looking like a liar. and when you do something wrong some people most adults hold that against you and talk down on you or don't even look at you....

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Gender / Age: Female, 33

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