Janira's Journal

Dec 2010
5:38 PM

I'm going to Crack Up if I stay in this house any longer.

My uncle's not in his right mind does drugs and expect to live off of us and even says what's the point of doing it when I got six sisters to help me out. Where all living here with my grandmother who has a case of alzhimers and is in denial of it. My grandfather died this pass may and every excuse for her is my husbands dead. My mother has now taken the place of my grandfather and she doesn't want any of us to leave without her or leave the house longer than thirty minutes. My uncle uses my grandmothers fading mind as an advantage and asks for money for his drugs and liquor and acts like the house is his he uses all the food and gives it to the dog when we barley have none and by the time he gets his check it goes to the dope heads he borrowed money from. My grandmother doesn't want to get rid of him because he's her 'son'. Honestly with all this drama I'm about to crack! I'm in my last year of high school I have no job and I want out of here. I have a pet bird and after my uncle has either finished overdosing his self on drugs or has sold them to get his fix he tell me to shut up my bird which hey you dumb butt he's a bird!!!! When we call the cops he tries to sweet talk them like nothing wrong. He beats on his dog and says that's how you make him listen. The Veterans Hosptial mails him his medicine and can't even keep him over there how can you not control a sucidal?! We have to deal with him and his drug buddies. Even his drug buddies try to use her and hit on my mom. They want money for stamps or steal water from out house outside. And my grandmothers not even in her right mind. I can't take this any more I WANT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not even eating right anymore like I use to. All my grandmother wants my mom to cook is chicken beef meat chicken ,spaggetti once or twice a month, chicken, sauages chicken. I mean we had a whole week nearly a month of notstop chicken. I'm to the point I'm about tired of eating meat. I've lost weight I'm stressed I don't even sleep right anymore... I wanna leave. I wanna be able to work out again, take care care of my self. My went to the store about 30 mins ago and now my grams is calling the store asking for her to call home. She's restless she sees things that aren't there. she doesn't know how to avoid a pole with a sign if it's in her way most of the time I need out!!!! I'm cracking mentally!!!!!!!!

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