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    •     AllyzThoughts  37, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - First entry!
    01
    Nov 2006
    6:23 PM EDT
       

    Today was sucky. Me and Ray (Baby/Dickhead) talked for a little while. He says he loves me and that we're going to be ok. I'm not sure. I'm scared I'm going to lose the one true love I ever had. That man means everything to me. I can't lose him. I love Ray with all my heart. He means the everything to me!! ~~ <3 ~~
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        ibelieve  34, Female, Vermont, USA - First entry!
    01
    Nov 2006
    3:51 PM EDT
       

    Hi! So yeah ... my first entry ... well ... I really don't want 2 be whiny ... but ... life basically sucks! I have given up on everything ... friends ... relationships ... my family! The only thing that I really care about (besides my TV shows) is school ... now ur probably like oh well she is like a nerd or something ... but I am not ... school is all I have going for me ... it is going 2 get me out of this place that I hate with a burning passion ... it is my way out! Up until a few weeks ago I had a lot of friends ... but now they just aren't. Let's see well I was best friends with this girl ... lets call her S ... but then S started hanging out with this other girl, N, and N is a bitch, all cares about is herself, and she is mean to everyone and by everyone I mean everyone, and God forbid if something doesn't go her way because then the world just might end! So since S started hanging out with N S has turned into a total bitch ... and I am not the only one to notice my friend F noticed 2! Then there is my friend O who I have been friends with since 3rd grade ... well she started dating L and then she got all full of herself and all she cares about any more is L and what she get for herself. It almost seems like her relationship with L has changed her completely! Then there is my love life ... I have had a few boyfriends ... but none have lasted ... they just didn't feel right ... I haven't had a real boyfriend since last November ... that is like a year ago! And now I am just giving up because it just doesn't seem worth it ... the guys that I know are basically a waste of time ... they are either hicks or assholes ... so you can see my problem! Well I guess that is all I have complain about ... for now! lol!
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        Babeedol7  36, Female, New York, USA - First entry!
    31
    Oct 2006
    11:42 PM EDT
       

    ok so im very content with what has happened in my life in the past 30 hours. i left the one i loved because i realized and found out i wasnt the only one he "loved". he was with some other chick when he was supposed to be with me. now normally a person would be upset when they find out that the ones they love are loving someone else but im more relieved. yeah we were supposed to get married (im too young anyway) and i never made "us" official (that was supposed to happen last night) but its ok because i realized i would have been making the biggest mistake any female could ever make when it comes to a relationship if he had of been with me instead of whoever he was with. so thank you Lord for showing me and telling the real him. i am greatful and i praise you for saving myself and my self-respect
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        myredhighheels75  30, Male, Texas, USA - 3 entries
    31
    Oct 2006
    5:47 PM EDT
       

    wuz up???
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        myredhighheels  36, Female, Texas, USA - 2 entries
    31
    Oct 2006
    5:34 PM EDT
       

    Hey this is dedicated to my fav A.I singer, Kellie Pickler!!! Go my red high heels and deerpark football team!!! god bless-Eryn
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        VictoriaSzecsodi  49, Female, Canada - 4 entries
    31
    Oct 2006
    6:41 AM EDT
       

    Wishing you were somehow here again . . . wishing you were somehow near . . . Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed, somehow you would be here . . . Wishing I could hear your voice again . . . knowing that I never would . . . Dreaming of you won't help me to do all that you dreamed I could . . . I miss you J.
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        xBabyBluex  32, Female, New York, USA - First entry!
    30
    Oct 2006
    5:21 PM EDT
       

    There isnt' really much going on today. My crush obviously likes some other girl. He talks to nearly everyone in the grade. Especially to girls too. I'm not sure but i think i'm starting to lose interest in him, today i didn't feel like there is anything going on between us, only that he thinks we are enemies. His friend keeps making fun of him and says that he likes me but i mostly pretend i'm doing my work and not eavesdropping on their convo. My crush said that he doesn't like me...well...who would? Oh wellz...I hope he finds himself a nice girlfriend someday...cause it's not gonna be me...
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        se7enzsrb  44, Female, Texas, USA - 4 entries
    30
    Oct 2006
    8:57 AM EDT
       

    I hear you talking bout your family life I wish I knew just what that means I guess my Mother never loved my Dad And now I wear it on my sleeve My Brother called just the other day It felt so GOOD to hear his voice My problem is, I do not have much to say I guess he does not have a choice And I am SORRY!!! LOOK AT ME I AM SO PATHETIC I CAN NOT BELIEVE I AM JUST A MANIC I NEVER NEEDED ANY ONE TO HELP ME I AM BEGGING YOU PLEASE COME SAVE ME FROM M Y S E L F My Mother always tried to change herself She never learned to let things be She does not know how bad she messed me up And now, she seems so fake to me BUT, YET, I LOVE HER!!!??? LOOK AT ME I AM SO PATHETIC I CAN NOT BELIEVE I AM JUST A MANIC I NEVER NEEDED ANY ONE TO HELP ME I AM BEGGING YOU PLEASE COME SAVE ME FROM M Y S E L F If you push me I will not fall I have been programmed To take it ALL And shove it WAY down inside LIKE MY FATHER j.b.
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        Ninima2  44, Female, Arizona, USA - First entry!
    28
    Oct 2006
    7:59 PM N
       

    wel today my and I watched movies. Then my bestfreind told me about a cute guy she is ee and who he had a freind.
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        ab1  31, Female, Mississippi, USA - 2 entries
    27
    Oct 2006
    10:26 PM EDT
       

    I'm listening to the country song "Tim MacGraw" and it reminds me of my ex b/c some of the stuff in there I can truly relate to. I can also relate to that song "Don't Forget About Us" because the chorus is something that me and the guy I'm in love with has done time and time again at his aunt's house. I always have a blast with him no matter what mood I was in before. He is so awesome. He is the only person that has ever been able to make me laugh when I think about my friends death, and believe me plenty of people have tried. When I'm with him it's like all of my worries and promblems fade away. I feel so secure, safe, and I know that he won't let nothing bad happen to me. He's so awesome, I truly wish he loved me back. Every since I found out he didn't I haven't even been able to look at another guy without thinking and crying about him. People around here say that I'm very strong physically, but from the mental abuse that I had been through by the age of five was too much and I've been with it for 13 years. When I'm with that one special guy though I know I can be myself and not worry about being judged and it's like all of those years of mental abuse don't exist whether we're alone or with a bunch of people. He's the only guy my cousins, dad, and uncles approve of. He's so awesome and sweet. What I'd give for him to love me like I love him.
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