a day in the life of a busy mind

Feb 2012
1:49 AM PST

Bobby is a very good friend to Mike and I as far as being there whenever we need help either financially or with a ride or pretty much whatever. I appreciate all the support and help he has given us but the thing I hate is the fact that Mike tells me that its Bobby he doesnt trust not me and its because of the history they have had with each others girlfriends or whatever. Here's the thing. You ask anyone of my guy friends whether I am the kind of person who cheats they will tell you that they have all tried and my famous words are, "no" "dont" shut up" "stop" and "get away" not only that but I cringe at the thought of a guy trying to make a move because I just don't feel comfortable with anyone but mike. I have zero desire to fuck around with anyone other than mike whether im mad at him or not whether I think hes done it to me. It isnt because i dont want to get caught but its because i want to be about what i talk about what i preach to other people. What i say is what i mean. What is good for the goose is good for the gander. I am truley honest and sincere when i tell mike he could tell me anything and even if it was the most fucked up and disloyal thing he could do to me, I could honestly get over it and forgive him 100% and still trust him at that. I am a realist and i know that we cant change the past. if something has already happened there is nothing absolutely nothing i can do about it and so if mike did do something like cheat on me well then what can i do about it. that's right, nothing. but what i can do is get over it and to be able to do that well i need to first be aware of it. So with that have been said, what do i do about the fact that bobby is always making comments and trying to get me to cheat on mike and not only do i feel really uncomfortable but it is also so dissapointing and depressing in a way because i am stuck in a situation where if i tell mike then i know he will never want me to talk to bobby or be around him ever again HOWEVER he on the other hand will continue being friends with him and it leaves me with another area in mikes life that i dont belong with or have a place. I just got a text from bobby that said "movie?" i replied and told him that i have fun kickin it but i feel uncomfortable when he says stuff about fucking even when he is kidding because i am not going to do mike like that because i really am a loyal to the bone girlfriend and being anything other than that makes me feel like shit about myself.�

Add comment

sunnier24's Profile

Username: sunnier24

Gender / Age: Female, 48

Location: USA - California