Prissy

 
    
30
Oct 2007
5:01 PM HAST
   

I thought my previous marriage was going to work out. Eventhough from day one all the negative signs were there. He didn't want children, he didn't have his own place, he didn't enjoy sex, he didn't make enough to manage his own credit, much less support me and any prospect of a family, and he kept things from me and cut me off almost entirely from my family.

I thought it was going to work out, and it didn't, and there are a million reasons why it didn't.Some of them are listed above.
Among others, I think he didn't see me the way I saw him. He wanted an exotic trophy without being able to pay the maintenance fees.

I was wrong, and I'm not clear yet why I was wrong in the marriage. I think I have to figure out the lessons from that.But I am clear! It was done in haste, mostly due to the pressure of everyone else around me getting married at the time.
John just happened to be around when we were looking, and he was too stupid and moronic to realise what was transpiring.
Sometimes I hope we will someday be on talking terms and not be this way.. the way we are right now. No communication. We went from being uncomfortable in bed, to being uncomfortable talking about things, to yelling, to misunderstanding, to giving each other the cold shoulder, to avoiding each other and stop talking all together.

I think I still need a little distance before jumping in again.
But that doesn't mean I check out what's available, and consider any particular prospect.
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  • Username: prissy
  • Gender / Age: Female, 46
  • Location: USA - Hawaii
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    About Me: At 30, my life so far has been all about discovering myself and forming my own personal identity. One that honors my heritage, my family and my dreams. These days it's all about equipping myself for a future in the clothing business, while investing time in a prospective family life. Sometimes it's a balancing act. But I have a feeling, this is just the preview. So strategically, if I get good at this, the future is a breeze... ;)

    Interests: Computer accounting systems, excel, Websites, Mortal Kombat, TombRaider, Burnout, Yoga, RollerBlading, American History, Just hanging out with good friends and family.

    Favorite Music: Norah Jones, Sarah Mclaughlin, Maroon 5, Classic Rock.

    Favorite Movies: Iron-Man, Kung Fu Panda.

    Favorite Television: America's Best Dance Crew.

    Favorite Books: Psychology, particularly male and female psyche, Suspense novels.