Prissy

Being thankful.

I'm not making enough money right now. But in two months I will be empowered with the ability to change that.

Next up I must save enough to be able to get my own place. That's probably possible within the next one-three years.

My goal will be to rent my own place within the next year, which means I need to

SAVE !! SAVE !! SAVE !!

Of course before buying/renting my own place I need to accomplish the goals I set for myself prior to this log.

So let's talk about that for a minute.

Name change - I want to use Grandma's name as my last name. Priscilla Grace. I like the sound of that.SAVE!

Citizenship - I'd like to become an american citizen before re-marriage comes into the picture.

Divorce - I've been procrastinating step 1 for a while now. I need to resign from PALsUSA and talk to... no! I can't talk to jerks and assholes anymore. It's just not in me to deal with them. So .. I'll just email him and take it from there.

I just hate the idea of being legally attached to someone. On second thoughts, it's really only on paper. And once I fax over my resignation to PALs and if Cora still can't help me, I'm going to call another attorney or just go the court clerk like John said. I wish I still didn't believe in marriage, but the fact that I'm in love with a beautiful gentle-giant from Pennsylvania opens the door to making him happy. He's a pretty traditional guy.. I really don't know that he'd be into just living together. But either way I need to get legally divorced from John. So that's it then, this month my goals are - A - SAVE! SAVE! SAVE! B - Study 2020 and get as much product knowledge as possible. C - Scan resignation to PALS and keep working on the divorce. I don't know the outcome of that one, and honestly it worries me now that I've met someone as amazing as Steven Todd Vandrew. But some time is available. I have three years to get my shit together. I have three more years before I can't do it anymore. I have a feeling though that that's not enough time. If Steve likes me that much, he could ask me to marry him before that time. I don't have three years!! Damn it! Oh God! What do I do! I stay strong and hold on. Because if anything I have hope and that's what matters. Hope is better than nothing at all. The dream is better than the present. Look forward, work hard, believe in the system God has created and do my best to believe and hold on. Coming back to the goals.. I can't spend any money on clothes or shoes this month. I need to do things to stay relaxed. I'll need all the strength I can muster up. For starters, I can't hang out with Summer that much anymore. Ryan neither. I will need to hook up or develop relationship with people that feed my faith and add to my strength.. not take from me. I have nothing to give right now. All I have is for Steven and Corrine. I guess I could email Jane. But damn it, there isn't anyone that I can talk to about my pending divorce. Maybe there is.. Let's see, perhaps he's willing to talk to me. For fun I'll salsa, or drink by myself at home. To relax I must go to the beach at least once a week. Once I have some savings I'll pick up some blades and start that in the morning. Until then I can just walk in the mornings or after work by the canal. For entertainment there's dollar movies and tv. For information there's the internet and the library. Ok.