lynnethom's Journal

Jan 2009
9:34 AM WEST

the new year

Well it's been a bit since i've written but things have been mad. My babies have all been ill for a total of eight weeks. My other half has been paid off his work and my mother had been told an ultamatime by her doctor Change her ways or die!!!! Where do i start really, i've been trying so hard with my own personal issues and i'm doing well coming off the main substance in my life. It's just hard that now he's unemployed he's hitting it hard and being really hard to life with (mornings are the worst) . Every morning he gets the wee ones crying as he totally blows it all out of proportion. He lays in bed while i run about trying to get us all ready to go to nursery, school and college, no help. Today is sunday morning and again he's in bed and i'm up with the kids. I think he forgets it goes both ways. He doesn't drive so i'm like his taxi service plus everything else. The more we are growing apart the more i think i can't see myself with thim in ten years. Self confidence and esteem seams to be a problem for me at the moment although i'm good at faking it!!! My mum, i have no idea it's like she doesn't want to help herself. I other to do things but she always says no. she can do all thats asked off her she's done it before. I struggle all the time with childcare problems and she never helps although she does nothing and sits in the damm house all day long. My sis is following down the same route, within the last year my sis has only came in contact with 10 dif people max and there all family members. surely that can't be healthy!!?? I try so hard to change lots of aspects in my own life but so many things make it so hard, money, peers, relationships, society, poverty and learned behaviour!! Should i give up my dream to be someone else, some one well respected that helps others and does her bit for society or should i withdraw to

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Username: lynnethom

Gender / Age: Female, 41

Location: United Kingdom