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Aug 2006
10:15 AM EDT

B called at lunch today and said he was sorry. All I get is an I'm sorry. Not an I'm sorry for treating you like I did, not an I'm sorry for being such an a** and saying things to hurt your feelings. Just an "I'm sorry" The "I'm sorry" is not cutting it w/ me anymore. He does not even say he will make an effort to do better like I always do when he is doing his weekly "b***h lisa out session." It is getting to where I want an explnation for the "I'm sorry." Now, I get to go home after work and put on a show like everything is fine w/ me when truly that is not the way I feel. I am truly pissed off! But I cannot tell him that b/c I don't have the energy for another fight. I would loveeeee to go home, watch my soap, eat a snack, take 2 tylynol, get zoie, and go to bed. That is how I would really like for my evening to go butttttt I will have to go home and put on a show acting like the evening is great and I love being there. If Bareny were to read this, he would just be pissed at me and threaten to leave, for my feelings. He would not try to understand why I feel they way that I do and try to make our relationship better. This would some how be all my fault and he would figure out how to "punish" me like if I was his child. He would never want to understand why I am hurting. I could go on and on about this but it is a waste of time. And to feel this why really "sucks".

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Gender / Age: Female, 43

Location: USA