So today was a pretty good day. I did really good at work. I think i might actually be getting better at it.� I did what I needed to do. But now what.....I need to think about how imma advance in life.�I need to start school but with what time and will power. lord knows I lack that. I just need to focus and do shit . I still wonder about what will happen with us. I just kinda hope for the best. I'm trying to be as possitive as I�can be but it's hard not knowing.�Sometimes I'm so focused and then I'm just not. need to think more......
This the first of hopefully many.... I'm not a big writer my docter says it might help me so i should try. At this point in time i'll try anything that will help. I'm trying to save myself from drowning. Life hasn't been a friend to me but not that it is for anyone. I just never saw this. People go threw problems and some do alright while others don't. I myself suck at life. I cut myself. I'm trying really hard to stop its bringing me more problems then it solves. The last time I did it they called the MP's. The firefighters were here along with an ambulance. I was transported to the hospital and they locked me up in a mental ward. I was trying to kill myself I just could'nt find a way to handle what was going on in my life. My boyfriend is leaving soon. He had been light in my dark tunnel. He makes me wanna better myself rather then destroy myself. I still don't quite know how i'll deal with but for his sake and mine i'm gonna try. So imma drink some water and move out. lol.
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