Last night, matt came over. he was incredible... more than that. i didn't want to let him go. i started crying right after we finishing becamse I knew he had to leave. i don't know if he noticed or not but hopefully not.
I can't wait until i'm 18!!! i know it's a while, but i'm still anxious. living with matt... *really blushing* Mrs. marino... why did you have to put that in my head matt?! aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i just kind of want to hit him a couple times over the chest (lightly) but want to kiss him to death! I wan't expecting a come back like that! I really didn't. it made me feel... so good and so warm inside... but so sesitive too. for some reason, his touch is so sensitive too.. i can feel it still on my inner hip... his tumb just touching and rubbing lightly... oh gosh... just thinking about it really gets to me... really turns me on... rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...!!! dam it!!!
*cries* i'm becoming a horny witch... lol, matt's horny witch *he he*
I still can't believe I told Matt about my sexual yearnings and seeing and watching those porno clips. I couldn't get them out of my head, but now that I think about it... I don't really see them, but I see Matt there. Maybe... it's true about letting off your burdons with just telling someone, and Matt... it didn't seem to change much on how he looks at me. All he did was listen and asked me litlte questions...
I love him so much...
I told him tank you as I said goodnight, and i really meant it. he may not have understood it, but it has special meaning behind it.
-Ashley
P.s. I hope he's alright, with all that stress... great grandpa died yesterday...
Artists I need to find: Cradle of Filth, Epica, Cell Dweller, Sonic Syndrome, Night Wish
Matt is so amazing! Yesterday night he came and had our night together for about an hour... but we have all our lives together for that I feel so alive with him. He makes me feel things I could never feel with anyone else. I felt different too, more open with him than anything, but I was still a little hesitant with my word. But I made him laugh and it just made me go crazy for him in a way.
Yesterday I went to Matt's grandma'a house. I got there about 3:15, which is pretty early for me. I got a ride form a woman named Nicole who asked me if I need a ride. She was very nice, I won't forget it.
When I got there, I let myself in (which, at first I hestiated because I wan't sure if it was right, but remembered Matt telling me not to worry.
When I walked in, I took off the sweater I was wearing and jacket and my walking pants. I wan't sure on what to do because I didn't know if Matt was slready naked and under the covers. I walked to his room and saw him on the bed (with clothes on) sleeping on the covers. The TV was on and I didn't really know how he could sleep with it on. I debated with myself if I should kiss him awake, crawl up by him, or just let him wake up on his own. I decied to let him wake up, so I sat on the floor and I noticed I could text him and see if he would wake up. I went back to the door where my coat was and got my phone. I texted him that I was here and watched him as his phone went off. He let our a moan and moved a little bit, but he fell right back to aleep.
Well, I lied down on the floor right next to the bed and watched Star Trek Voyager. It wasn't that bad. Then the house phone rang and I kind of jumped. I was hoping Matt would answer but he slept through it LOL. Right after the house phone, his cell phone rang and I felt the bed move as he answered it. Someone must have asked if I got there yet and he said no I didn't. I gently touched his leg from the floor and said I was here. He got a little surprised as he changed his answer.
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