our relationship are getting nearer and i like this~^^
but since all these happening.........there's some problem keep happening......
like now, my mother are keep talking and quarrel about me........say that i pak tor pak tor........
but the truth is not like this! i am inocense!! me and song, both of us are inocense!!
these few day....i just cant concentrate in study no matter we are in exam or not......i just cant.........cant stop thinking.......
it is sorry to let song worry about me........so i wun show out wat am i thinking........maybe he will find it out when he see this..........
after he knows tat my mum is talking about our things..........he started to keep a distance with me......
it is so weird and i just cant accept it.......
he is affraid of my mum.......and i am affraid that he will leave becoz of my mum........
i hate it!! y can my mum spoilt all my�things?!
on another hand........i am very sad and sorry.......
sorry that i din keep my promise......
i promised u that not to tell anyone but then i told my mum......i am really sorry about that.....
u must be very dissapoint�towards me........i know it.......
i know that i need to pay for the dept......the dept for not keeping the promisses......
u must be very angry.....but i know u din show it out........just like�b4 when u r angry with bao er..u din show out and just keep it in ur heart.........
i am very bad........sorry........i know after this time......u won tell me�any secret anymore.......oppurtunity knocks but once.........
i am so sorry.........
i can do nth with it.......i hope that u can�show out ur anger more than keep it in ur heart..........but i also wil affraid that u might leave me alone after�scolding me..........�
besides......i think my characteristic are going to appear.....the bad faces of mine.....
i really affraid to see the angry faces of him.....affraid he will angry and scold me....becoz that represent my useless............
he scold me becoz of my useless and stupid........
and yet, he will definately dislike me becoz of all my bad habbit or my peronality..............
i really affraid to see this happen.......
all this reason making me concern and nervous.......concern about our future(is tat really a future after all the things i did)
i dunwan to lose u.........dunwan..........
everyone is talking about me and him........say that we are couples or wat ever.......
actually.......i know......i really know tat our movement and the feelings between us really like others couple......
we made fun of each other, we hug each other, we even call each other baby like that......we stick together everyday......
all all these are the things which will happen between couples.......
but the truth is, we are not couple!!!
no doubt, we like each other very much more than anyone........
but wat we want is to be like this, we can do wat we wan........when we need hug.....we will hug each other........when we need comfort.....we comfort each other.......
we no need to cares about others.......just be like wat we want to be........
i got only him......only him to be by my side.........so i will share everything with him.......
is tat really a problem?i dun think so........
just to do wat i want.......
no matter couples or friend........as long as we r together.......right?
(for me, i think that friend can be the one who always there for u.......but not boyfriend nor girlfriend.........thats why i choose to be friend with him..............maybe this thoughts will change one day....but definately not now......^^)
hope that things will become better after all~^^
luv u~muackssss~~^^
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