Rumblings ...

 
    
13
Dec 2006
1:25 PM MST
   

I went to work even if I was still sick. I knew I should have stayed in bed ... argh, my nose sucks. My sniffles are so embarrassing. Why is it that I feel that I don't fit in on any crowd ? I can relate with my colleagues as long as it's work related. I feel safe talking about work but casual talk is just not my cup of tea. It is exasperating that I cannot sustain regular, ordinary conversation. Could it be that I have a boring personality ? And why do I put a brake on myself on any attempt to contribute to a conversation ? Do I fear rejection, being chastised for my opinions, or for stuttering when I become self-conscious, or for saying the wrong things ? At 38, I have a lot of insecurities and uncertainties. There's a lof of learnings to do. I know I just need practice but when the opportunity comes to do so, I find convenient excuses to scoot. What a big chicken !
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