I am such an emotional wreck. I have fallen for this guy and this guy doesn't know that I exist as a member of the female gender. I�long to have his arms wrapped around me, or to nuzzle my cheeks in his chest. Geez! At forty, I act like a teenager before this guy
It's hard to exactry pinpoint why I know that she dislikes me except that I can feel her dislike/hatred emanate from her and to me. I have no idea what I did to make her treat me like this ... she is very manipulative. I can feel her trying to edge me out or downplay my role in the team but her ways are so subtle ... she is one hell of a cunning, manipulative, egotistic bitch who tires to win allies to serve her plans, whatever they are. And how to deal with her, 8 hrs a day, 5 days a week ? I dunno ... guess I have to stay my cool, keep my sanity and just hope that one day an oversize ego would just self-destruct.
Mr. Cocky�came by today for a meeting with my colleague who is sitting just next to me. Asked me how my running was, so on and so forth. Finally, they had a meeting and his voice was distracting me. I was able to force myself to concentrate on my work but half of me is acutely conscious of him. This can't be. I can't wear my heart on my sleeves. People are already noticing ... I really need to go online and meet guys, go on dates just so I could�fall out of love from Mr Cocky. Because sadly, there is no bright future nor is there a prospect for a relationship. And I would not be taking that step, I have to save my face. The dilemma of having to fall for a guy in your office !!! Sigh.