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23
Mar 2007
8:49 AM CDT
   

Dang! this spring break was great!! ( i have to say the AWESOME things first im optomistic! lol ) i NEVER hung out with derek..me and michelle kept close and said SCREW the boy..he's stupid! haha. And Laura & Betsy came into town YAY! We hit up some parties every night and had awesome times..but they left Saturday morning. Saturday me and Michelle went to the mall and we saw Dillan there. We went to go see 23, he payed (sweetie! lol) and after the movie Michelle couldn't go with us but Dillan and I went to this St. Patrick's Day party and it was funnnn! I made a mistake by making out with some random guy who was older than me but that's all we did so actually it wasn't much of a mistake. I gave him strep throat haha..because I got strep throat from Laura and it didnt start hurting till Tuesday and I havent been to school since. I had to get a shot uugh. So there's a party tonight but Michelle doesn't know if she can leave..plus it's way out in Hamby and i'm not supposed to drink on my antibiotics but I don't have to drink to have fun. Plus I can just take it slow. BUT last night (this is horrible) i had this horrible dream that my mom took my dad back and I haven't seen my dad since I found out that he used to beat everyone in my family..except for me. I already had problems with him because I knew he was an asshole and he did do ridiculous things..but I didnt know it was that serious till like in January when my sister told me the truth. My dad didnt want anyone to know. My parents have been split up for almost 3 years now. But anyways, in my dream they were back together and arguing again of course..and he went out of his room and beat my mom and my sister..I was in my room. then he came into my room..and I was just begging him nooo nooo nooo and he found this strawberry(is it cherry? i dont know..its the scrapes and scabs from sliding in softball) and he just started beating me on that spot!!!!!! It was horrible..I can't get over it. I don't understand why I have been having these nightmares. I also dreamed that i wrecked my mom's car. But I don't want to ever see my dad's face again..I feel like I have experienced what my mom and sister and brother have been through and ITS HORRIBLE. But anyways on the brighter side..I have a couple of good friends out there that care about me and thats all that matters. If I can tell them anything, then I should be able to maintain. Here's a picture of me and michelle :)
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  • Username: bl69
  • Gender / Age: Female, 33
  • Location: USA - Texas
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    BL69's Interests:

    Favorite Movies: my favorite movie is anchorman for sho. then 40 year old virgin..i need to see taledega nights though!!

    Favorite Television: i like flavor of love..south park..but i really love music videos!

    Favorite Books: hah! thats funny! books?!?